~R@iNbOw wOrLd~

REVIVAL POST

2009-09-03T02:52:00.002+08:00

I have finally decided to revive my blog... well, it died quite a few times alr, so i hope..... i'll be able to keep it going this time round!

anyway, today SJMM had fellowshipping! food, food and more food and reflections! i must say, i actually quite like the reflection part =) it realli helps us keep everything in track... (but even that, i was stoning most of the time)... until daddyGod carefully picked his time to speak to me... that is also the reason why i'm restarting my blog...

it was during the last part of this wed's fellowship, and we were singing the divine mercy... and as i went on singing :

"For the sake of his sorrowful passion, have mercy on us and on the whole world"

I unknowingly started to pray for the whole world... and tears kept welling up in my eyes (i tried super hard to blink-dry them cuz its realli paiseh!)...

The sadness i felt was really strong, and i wept for:
- the little lives that were killed through the Human Embryonic Stem Cell Research (HESCR) which the whole wide world is so excited about...
- and also for the people who are still at it, doing it in the name of science, of medicine, of 'life' (ironically) and not realising how immoral they are being...
- the people who donated their eggs/sperms to this unethical act
- the governments who support it (tt's why we keep praying for governments on Sunday Masses)
- the people who fund it =(

and as i tried to stop tearing and sing properly, the message became crystal clear. i NEED to (in my little ways) be daddyGod's mouth and spread the msg that He so wants to tell His people... in fact, i think He must be thinking tt i'm such a blockhead alr! took me so long to receive His message!

now tt i'm slowly getting back into my fav topic, i recall the times daddyGod tried to speak through me (and i was so DENSE in my head i did not receive His message):
1. when i first heard of HESCR from my uncle (Dr. John Hui)... he's such an inspiration
2. little times when i happen to chance upon in on the web or catholic news...
3. my current posting to NUH Oncology (Stem Cell Transplantation)...
4. little adrenaline rush sometimes to search more abt HESCH or just SCR...

and so i pray, that daddyGod will continue to guide me to be wadever he wants me to be =)

Pharmacology

2008-03-28T11:37:00.000+08:00

PRAISE THE LORD!!!

seriously, i'll need to give extra praise to my dearest Daddy in Heaven... He's jus awesome... =) cant stop grinning now... throughout my whole life, He has given me sufficient help to get to where I am now... and I'm so going to dedicate my life to him, [currently, as an aspiring nurse]... He has made my paths so straight... I need not think too hard to make any decisions... As i have said before the results He offered me aint Fantastic... but they are sufficient...

like in my recent test on weds... I admit i didnt study... and weird, i felt no stress at all... to the other 4 TH Nurses, I'd prolly seemed at my maximum bo-chap state... i was like how relaxed as i saw them burying their heads in the notes while having breakfast...

anyway, i only studied 1 chapter and read through 2 chapters of the total of 8 chapters... and as usual, i said my favourite prayer which will only make me more confident (er, there was no confidence of my knowledge to speak about as i didnt study remb?)... i was the MOST confident student in the lecture theatre i dare say... While others are confident of the amount of pharmacology matter they managed to squeeze into their brainnn, i was... confident that Daddy God sent His Holy Spirit down to guide my pencil... i felt a certain sense of peace as i did the paper...

once, i wanted to shade False for part c, but i shaded for part d instead... and i decided, that must be right... (even though i tot d was True actually)... another time, i checked thru my answer and decided to change one of my answer to True, only to realised that i had already shaded it as true when i was supposed to shade false previously, and for many questions i jus had a strong feeling of the answer, even though i've got no idea what the question is talking about... =P

anyway, Praise the Lord once again, I got a D+ (which is a pass)... and not D, not D-, not F... See, shouldn't I praise the Lord?

With Christ in the Vessel I can Smile at the Storm
Smile at the Storm
Smile at the Storm
With Christ in the Vessel, I can Smile at the Storm
As We go Sailing Home!
Sailing, Sailing Home.
Sailing, Sailing Home.
With Christ in the Vessel, I can Smile at the Storm
As We go Sailing Home!

2008-03-15T21:32:00.000+08:00

okay... havent been here for quite sometime...
so, jus to update...

first up, TH Bazaar - THerapezia...
next up, binbin's death...

bazaar's from 12-14th March08, dunno is it lucky or suay, there are only 3 comms that actually set up a stall... and those 3 comms are coincidentally the only 3 comms i'm in... blarrr... so, for weds, 2hr for welfare, 2hr for hearts, thursday, 2 hr for productions, 2 hr for welfare... hahahah

ohh... then friday, had simulation, quite fun... jus tt i gave ventolin b4 the 6 hrs was up and didn tell the doc... oops =P

lastly, binbin died... =( damn sad... on weds night (120308) i was still playing with it... that cute little thing started swimming around at 3am, so i decided to try to feed it again... it chompped at the pallet at my hand, but as usual, didnt actually swallow much...

on thursday (130308) i somehow skipped lecture, prolly too tired... cuz the previous night only slept at 3.30am... didn go for physio... and finally when i woke up at 11am, i saw binbin sleeping in the water, so i picked it up and put it on its favourite rock =P but it felt weird, so i prodded it and it didnt move, i shoke it and it didn't get up... ... ... ... ... and never again...

initially i felt scared, and lost... i didnt noe wad to do... i'm all alone in this room with my beloved terrapin, now dead and lifeless... and......... i was playing with it last night! =(

i couldnt reply kw's msg of (how's binbin now?), so i called. and i couldnt help but cry and cry... and i msged qianwen and when she called, i continued... er... crying lor...

at tt moment, i also thanked God that i skipped lecture, for if i didnt, i wouldnt have found out binbin's death till 10pm that night... and it would have rotted in the water...

anyway,i made a paper coffin for it... and that night, tgt with kw and yi ling and the TH nurses, i went to the little field behind B1 to bury my dear one...

tks for all who were here and helped =)

haiz...very sad... when i look at the terrapin food on my table, i cant help but tear...
when i enter my room, the first thought on my mind is "hey binbin dear, i'm back! come, let me play with u!" ... only to be reminded by the cruel fact tt it isnt here anymore, and i'll cry for some time...
when i brought meimei to see binbin's grave, i also cant help but cry...
hmm... dunno how long will all this take... =(

its raining... ='( poor binbin is out there alone in the cold and darkness =(((

[dear daddyGod, do terrapins go to heaven? pls take care of binbin k? dun let him be bullied by other animals, if they do get to heaven =P... thankew... Amen]

new revival once again...

2008-03-06T12:31:00.003+08:00

okok... long time since i posted something! =P life's been ok... jus done with IHG... we didnt win... but surely... next year, we shall come back stronger! =P well, it also means..... NO MORE DUTIES FOR WELFARE FOR IHG... heh... not like i HATE it... but... its jus good to get a breather from the 2 straight months of daily ihg stress... hee... =)

essay deadlines are stealthily approaching too... now they seem like ten miles away... but jus beware!!! in a blink of 2 eyes (er... i cant do that blink-of-an-eye... both blinks tgt k!), they're going to be jus right behind me! i had better start soon... no... I MUST start soon...

and for my physiology CA...expected... 40%... which means fail la!!! *shrugs* i cant help it what!!! *nose grows longer*... okok... i confess... i onli studied 1 out of 3 topics...

and hall points are out! i hope what little i have is enough to stay on... cant stand the thought of taking more than an hour to travel to school DAILY! *faints* and hall fees are more ex now...
me=poorgirl!

ohh!!! later got lab simulation... must go for class in my uniform...hahah... hope it doesnt invite to much stares at the TH busstop later~ *crosses fingers* wahaha... er, most imptly, hope i wun stone too much ltr... *freaks out* i'm damn blur la!!! how how how!!! later the maniquine patient die how??? I'M A MURDERER!!!

okok... i shall stop now... =P need to like do my tutorial? haha... (like how rare!) well, must do first cuz tmr morning needa support Conversion Experience Retreat 8... actually many times i feel like jus messaging aunty syl and tell her that i cant make it... (cuz to go tmr, tonight must go home & tmr afternn got sch somemore) but i refrained myself from doing that...

GET BEHIND ME SATAN...
talking about satan... i had a 'dream' on tuesday night, those sort of image-less dreams... onli noise... and it will get louder and louder till its unbearable! mostly, i'm semi-awake, but i jus could not get up... so usually, i'll attempt to make a sudden movement of my hand or jus jerk myself up... then it'll go away... sounds scary? i always experience that leh! hmm.....

yea... on tues, it came again... noises... high pitched mumblings of i-dunno-what... i got myself up, then slp again, and it came again... this time, laughter... high pitched laughter... laughing AT me... and in it, I shouted back at it "Stupid evil one, just go away! I show you that i'll successfully fast tmr... then u'll shutup forever!"... hmm... i woke up wondering why i spoke that way... that noise, was jus laughing...

in anycase, it jus made my will stronger to realli fast on weds, for the retreatants...
come weds, there were MANY times i forgot i was fasting... and when i saw my fren with waffles, i nearly want to buy one too... when my frens offered me food, i nearly took a bite... but thank daddyGod! he always manages to remind me in time! and He works thru my TH chiobu nurses too... cuz they'll say "oh sry, i forgot u're fasting again..." when actually, i myself forgot too! so they reminded me =) love them!

[Dear daddyGod, you truely work in wonderful ways! help me to grow to become a stronger girl, more disciplined and more independent... help me in my school work, tough stuff! help me to always seek your voice, in the midst of all the noise and bustle in my life daily... dear God, please also bless the people attending the retreat tmr, and for all the helpers and ministry members... Help us to never forget that nothing could be done without you and that we are merely fortunate instruments to be used by You, for Your glory! AMEN =)]

*CER8 goes in to my prayer list =)

this pic says "wahhh... lecture's starting in 5 mins..."

jus a preview! will post more next time...

checking in

2008-02-01T11:36:00.000+08:00

*A minister passing through his church
in the middle of the day,
Decided to pause by the altar **
**and see who had come to pray.*

*Just then the back door opened,
a man came down the aisle,
The minister frowned as he saw
the man hadn't shaved in a while. *

*His shirt was kind a shabby
and his coat was worn and frayed,
The man knelt, he bowed his head,
Then rose and walked away.*

*In the days that followed,
each **noon** time came this chap,
Each time he knelt just for a moment,
A lunch pail in his lap.*

*Well, the minister's suspicions grew,
with robbery a main fear,
He decided to stop the man and ask him,
"What are you doing here?"*

*The old man said, he worked down the road,
lunch was half an hour.
Lunchtime was his prayer time,
for finding strength and power.*

*"I stay only moments, see,
because the factory is so far away;
As I kneel here talking to the Lord,
this is kinda what I say:*

*"I just came again to tell you, Lord,
how happy I've been,
Since we found each other's friendship
and You took away my sin.
Don't know much of how to pray,
but I think about You everyday.
So, Jesus, this is Jim
checking in today."*

*The minister feeling foolish,
told Jim, that was fine.
He told the man he was welcome
to come and pray just anytime.*

*Time to go, Jim smiled,
said "Thanks,"he hurried to the door.
The minister knelt at the altar;
he'd never done it before.*

*His cold heart melted, warmed with love,
and met with Jesus there.
As the tears flowed, in his heart,
he repeated old Jim's prayer:*

*"I just came again to tell you, Lord,
how happy I've been,
Since we found each other's friendship
and You took away my sin.
Don't know much of how to pray,
but I think about You everyday.
So, Jesus, this is me
checking in today."*

*Past noon one day, the minister noticed
that old Jim hadn't come.
As more days passed without Jim,
he began to worry some.*

*At the factory, he asked about him,
learning he was ill.
The hospital staff was worried,
but he'd given them a thrill.*

*The week that Jim was with them,
brought changes in the ward.
His smiles, a joy contagious.
changed people, were his reward.*

*The head nurse couldn't understand
why Jim was so glad,
When no flowers, calls or cards came,
not a visitor he had.*

*The minister stayed by his bed,
he voiced the nurse's concern:
No friends came to show they cared;
he had nowhere to turn.*

*Looking surprised,
old Jim spokeup and with a winsome smile;
"The nurse is wrong, she couldn't know,
that he's in here all the while!*

*Everyday at noon He's here,
a dear friend of mine, you see,
He sits right down, takes my hand,
leans over and says to me:*

*"I just came again to tell you, Jim,
how happy I have been,
Since we found this friendship,
and I took away your sin.
Always love to hear you pray,
I think about you each day,
and so Jim, this is Jesus
checking in today."*

revival of blog

2008-01-31T16:06:00.000+08:00

i shall revive my blog with the most TORTUROUS pbl of my life!

no one gets what she's trying to sayyy!

and she's so irrelevant...

and keep saying we're WRONG!

how helpful!

shittiness!!!

=(

anyway, i'm 20! =) and still strugging in class!

=P

2007-09-13T02:31:00.000+08:00

haha... i noe i havent posted for a lONG LONG time! so, i shall try to post something...

hmm... starting with, last 4th sat =P er... it was cool la... finally going back for mass... after a long long time! =P and i had dinner wif kw =) anyway, i was praying for mummy... and somehow, i jus felt very very sad, like i cud feel her feelings lidat, and i started crying and crying... like daddyGod is healing her thru me... so cool... hopefully mummy feels better after tt... =P

and i love dinner at home!

and staying in hostel makes my conversation with grandparents better!

yea...... =P and yishun scs rwm prog is over for now, until next jan~

school's tough, i'm still lagging at week1? =P

slp last all week long =X

pray little =(((

stone a lot! and slack a lot! =)

yawns... i love my dearest daddy in heaven! wheee...

oh ya!~ then i had horrible tummy cramp today... and laosai too! cuz eat wrong thing and somemore kena my monthly dosage of blood loss =(

then was so painful la! turning in bed... and somehow, in my dream, daddyGod told me to put a cup of cold water at my tummy... heehee... dunno y... its like, its kinda absurd putting cold water on my tummy when i kena cramps... but, daddyGod loves to make us do weird absurd things to help us gain trust in Him... well, tt's wad i felt at tt point of time =P and it must be daddyGod's plans tt kw didnt come to find me, cuz onli then, i cud feel His message stronger =)

[thanks daddyGod! =) love ya!
do help me to focus in my work, so that i can be a great great nurse, to serve ur people! =) and i hope to pray more, and grow closer to you... so, pls help me along each day! =) ]

in TH and in school

2007-08-24T12:07:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhh!!! i havent blogged for like SO long? =P oops... so, since 17th july, of course many things happened la~ [i had to read my own post to like find out where did my blog life stopped...] *shall attempt to revive it... =P CPR!!!] kk... oops...

yea... so, after the 17th of july, i've been quite slack/busy... well, slack cuz i do nothing all day... busy cuz i've been TRYing SO HARD to pack my bags and stuff... checked into Temasek Hall at like 27th july? then from then on, 1 week of orientation, 1 week of slackiness plus doing rag... and here i am, 2nd week of school~

orientation was fine... initially i tot it was so boring can? we spent like 3 hours playing ice breakers? gosh!!! the food was ok... i thought it was edible la... though many pple refused to EAT them... so, i guess, i must be hungry... =P [ps... those little hungry african children are like staring at u cannn? *guilty?*]

so, after a 2 days, i pangseh-ed TH orientation to go for Nursing Orientation... 1-3 august... we like ran round the east side of singapore in search of food? haha... fun... =P though we came in like 4th? (okay, there were only 4 groups =S) but it was realli fun? my group..... COUS COUS! man... we were like making so much noise... and i jus seriously love them! the cheers we came up with... so nice la... with everyone's contributions =P and... we sure do EAT! like 12 mn and we ordered macs? with mcflurry too! gosh!!! and the next day, ICE CREAM! and we are very BUDGET pple =) we always spend so much less than our budget... and we love walking (or runnning rather) to taking bus... =P

then back to TH camp... ok... i missed the pirates thinggi... i heard its kinda fun... well one thing about these stuff... i realli dun like the waiting time... cuz we sit there dozing off while doing rag while waiting =P but then... the games everynight were like so fun la... and so large scale! =P funfunfun =P a lot of preparations done man! so in TH, we do things in a DIFFERENT way =P

and the welcome ceremony... i tot they so nice look after us! but actually... chey! they created this opportunity for themselves to look after us so that they seem like NICE seniors? haha... blindfold us for like 9 hours? then make us so wet and shivery and hungry... then offer us microwaved towel, and food, and hot drinks? haha... but in anycase, they were realli nice =P (esp our senior attach... *oops*)

and the ending of the welcome ceremony was realli nice? we all had milos and towel and candles and seniors and even our Resident Fellows and Hall Master standing in two rows at the side, for us to like walk thru... =P so touching la... =P awwwwwww...............

then now to school...
its been TOUGH... like...

someone: eh u got take bio b4 not?
me: er.. no?
someone: ohh... O Level's?
me: er... no?
someone: ohh... lidat ah... then u jus got to study much harder lor? =)

*dies!* its realli so tough.. the first day of school, i reading notes liao... and these 2 weeks have been filled with textbook reading, notes reading... =P kinda no life la... =P

and our modules are preallocated... so my days are like....
mon - 8-5pm
tues - 8-2pm
weds - 9-12pm
thurs - 8-5pm
fri - happy! no school =P but still need to like study right?

yea... so, basically lidat... (tough, but better than medicine students... =P)
and physiology is difficult...
and here got so many things to do, so busy...
and... got cute guys... =P
and... so sleepy! haha... tralala...

and yes... i'm ashamed to admit... but i havent been to daily mass AT ALL! (other than assumption day) oh wells, sad case... and i pray so little! every 3 days i'll forget (tt's an excuse) to pray like once?

[but daddyGod.! i still like love you one la... and u noe it waddd... =P but ok... no excuse... i shall put in more effort to talk to you k? =P hahaha... i love my dearest Daddy in Heaven and He loves me too! =) tralala! i'm always so happy about this fact la... =P... so help me dearest daddy in Heaven, to never never let all this small little busy things pull me away from you... help me to prioritise well, and know... what indeed is truly important! YOU... =) Amen!!!]

ohh, and i went home on weds, b4 going for prac =P and dinner was good, i talked to grandparents too... all's working out realli fine... Praise the Lord =P

comm serv weekend

2007-07-17T02:02:00.000+08:00

::: Ethelonter IV in 50 words :::

Ethelonter IV was just full of fun and great new friends. Its so encouraging and motivating to meet people who FEEL for the needy. Witnessing their passion for community service just makes me wanna be a part of them!

Ethelonter IV - the place where loving people with BIG Hearts gather!

i personally thought this was harder than summary! cuz... 50 words leh... how to write?

hahah... but yea... i love Ethelonter IV!!! best camp in NUS! [sry nursing camp... i havent gone for urs... but... i shld be 2nd best?] -oops-... then the temasek hall one... aiyo... dunno la...

haha.. saturday, went to Yishun SCS with joel senior and tiong... then so fun! the kids so fun too... this new batch of kids are cute... esp ethan!!! and my longtime cutie... kailin... i love meichee too... but never see her... or junyeow and jingyong... hahah... okok... long list... but... ethan is my latest cutie boy addition!!!=)

we play the traffic light game, then they pretend to be cars, and it was red light... and ethan was like *vroom vroom*... gearing up!!! then... mrs loh say... " no running!!!" and the children went "yes!" and the moment it changes to green light, ethan vroom off!!! hahah... so cute!!!

then, the three of us headed towards jalan bukit merah... and on the way, there was a traffic accident in front............. it was so serious tt the bus had to change route!!! first time encountered this...

and at LB... the uncle which senior shuhui and i visited was mr yeo teck soon... (i think so... only remembered mr yeo)... yea.. chatty cute uncle! ultra friendly... and health not so gd! but i guess he's coping well.. i'll keep him in my prayers! =) he went on and on and on and i tried so hard to catch what he saying... =P in teochew somemore...

and while at it, i tot of how little time i spend with my own grandparents at home! =( well, i hope to be able to sit down and talk to them some day... =P though... its hard... cuz grandma aint easy to talk to... she'll put me down again...? =( [dear daddy!!! give me strength and courage to engage them in a meaningful conversation... i noe that with ur strength, i can! Amen... =)]

then, went to watch fireworks with mochamelts... funfun!!! =P

sunday, [ok! i prepared props till 4am!] then i totally missed the alarm clock... and was even late for can collect!!! =P reached at 9.40am in a totally SEH state! heng i saw xyz who brought me ard... or i'll jus seh away!!! and i went into the lift and pressed 3... for NO REASON! see... i'm realli slp walking =P and i got the xxs shirt... fits me jus nice... though can be smaller =)

can collect was somewhat tiring but fun, with my funfun mochamelt! =)

then i left for mass at risen christ which is jus beside our gathering area, toa payoh cc... and dinner at pizza hut... and played fuzzy wuzzy, the light falls on, the 9-coined game, and more... haha... realli fun fun fun!!! hahah....... =P

monday, had tuition... finally received my pay... i was one week late.. FINALLY! ahahaha... hope to quit soon... thank you agent jasmine for helpingme so much... =P

then went to gather with my dearest Yi Ling, and sl willian, kahhwee and junior jessica... cuz willian leaving for auss on weds... and might never come back again cuz he's from indonesia... yups.... we went to monty's bar! hahah.... eat and drank... and we had beer... hahah.... and we totally tot that the heineken and the tiger can be counted as one pair... cuz there's a one-for-0ne... till the waitress asked us if we want the other one, and came up with another two glasses!!! so the rest all shared!!! and then they realized that i turned red... hmm... oops! haha... but other than turning red and feeling a little headache, i'm quite alright... not ultra high... =) hahahahah....... a lil tipsy la.. =P but no probs... =)

till then....hhahah... late nights these days.....

good :: training for my future night shifts
bad :: aiyo... i'm a future missy and its bad for health... i'm a bad missy... hahah

tc all!!! God bless!!!

[daddyGod... i noe i prayed kinda little... and i hope to start going for daily mass soon... i pray for more discipline and focus... not to be so distracted by so many other things!!! esp when school's starting!!! =) I Love You, Daddy in Heaven... =) Amen...]

ethelonterIV - mochamelt

2007-07-13T01:13:00.000+08:00

alrights WORLD! gerry's back... missed me? ok... i was back since last sat... ethelonter IV was jus GREAT! best camp in NUS! what more can i say? and the BEST group is.............

*drumrolls*
MOCHAMELT
with me ard! its HARD not to be best grp la... hahah... -oops-

a little bit about mochamelt...
kc: suanhong - head of the BHB group...
akc: cheryl - says she's demure... but obviously another bhb one...
councillors: lixin (band snr!), yingyin, brenda, xiaoxuan, jenny(currypok), luke, kenny, yuzheng, jackson, ziyuan, travis...
freshies:simin, michelle, eehiang, pearlyn, janice, gerry, zhengquan, marcus, joel, esmond...

we are a group of horribly bhb pple... haha... that's a certain kind of self confidence ok? though a bit deceiving!

initially a lil quiet... our grp is the SMALLEST... so, usually quite soft... but we have enthu simin! and me... and we all rah rah rah all the way... =) it has definitely become so fun so fun...

thru the internal hunt (was still LOST in school sia).......
external hunt (so much travelling!!! and LONG bus rides)..........
cluedo (ultra fun! and FUNNY! great job... all the cast!!!!!!!!! )..................
mystery journey (starchy... hahah... but was fun... the slide thing was like... ok! where did u all get such a steep and LONG slope? i was wondering when i'll reach the bottom? and "thanks" for making us do so much weird stuff and capturing them on camera =S)......................
memories (nice title but dun be deceived... its frightening!!! bluff all of us... but... great job people!!! to the ghost: not scary hiding there meh? aiyeeerrrr...)........................
candy olympiad (cool games... too bad it rained... but we still did the finale?)...........
sentosa games (real nice wet fun! haha... mochamelt jus ended up playing bomchichibomchi in the water and NOT get out!!! cuz its too hot!!! fun fun... though we were like SO tired.... but everyone's still having fun!!!)...........................
SP (haha... interesting prog... though my SP is a realli SERIOUS person... =)...............
Talentime (we weren't quite prepared... but well we had LOADS of fun... with SCARY minnie and cute mickey).................

well, all in all, the csc camp was realli great... for the pple who think that community serv camp is like sure boring thing, you've missed out on ALOT! -too bad-

and it sure is motivating to see everyone with big HEARTS, full of love! i love the world... i love this world which daddyGod created... man... its beautiful! and WE can make it beautiful!!!

(hhaha... i kinda got reminded of sjmm's new song... tt one abt God's beautiful world...
what have we done? to this beautiful worldddd....?
there's some kinda blackeyepeas feeling?)

Praise the Lord for such nice composition... and gerry here... realli lost... there's so many things i wanna do, so little time... so many people to love.................

some thoughts abt my future... i've jus decided to drop one of my tuition assignments, [thanks fren who helped me decide a lil...] it was a realli tough decision... i kinda need the $? i somemore decide to stay hostel, which results in extra expenses too... =( actually... when i see grandma and mummy etc, it was like "hmm... shld i go? but grandma they all quite old le... but she everyday treat me lidat... well, i'm nt sure if this is being selfish... but i guess, i realli need to get out?"

i have so much committments.....
nursing studies... (i realli wanna do well)
hall activities... (it'll be fun... hopefully not too taxing, hopefully not an obstacle to my other committments)
NUS CSC projects... i love loving the world! =P
Yishun SCS committment... i've been with then for a few seasons now... =P
SJMM!!! never to forget sjmm... i hope i can continue to gain more insights on the ONE who gives me little talents...
NUS CSS (catholic student's society) i wanna join them!!! i hope time permits... maybe join their music ministry?

so many things i wanna do...

[dearest DADDY in Heaven, there are jus so many things i wanna do, some is pure interest, some jus to have more fun, some to jus spread your Love ard... everything is taxing and difficult i know, esp w/o ur help... help me dear daddy, to surrender everything into your hands... and let you take charge... after all, it is YOUR people i'm loving... and I am YOUR CHILD... take me Lord, and use me as You will... =)Amen]

also: i went for the medical examination jus recently... and the blood test... wheee!!! cant find the veins... =P or too small =P... then a lil painful... but gerry's brave! yay! and i dare to look ok!!! haha... not scared! then take blood pressure... haha... error 3 times la... immeasurable! *out of range* i wud say! haha... i think i figet too much... -oops- sorry nurse... and i love chatting with nurses and finding out wad does each thing do! =) i guess i'll realli have fun during lessons!

and i went for the Grant A Wish - Organising Committee interview... hope i can get the marketing cum party cell assistant or the volunteer management position... i shall be in for SO MUCH FUN!!! and wenbin is nice... hahah... =P not scary... ahah... and i went into the clubroom and junhui was trying SO HARD to dig some mochamelt scandals outta me,..... but we're demure pple.............. scandals? what's that? hahah

and and and... tiong eats REALLI slowly... though he blames on the lousy food... =P

and and and and... the engineering senior at the xray room says tt this year's guy medicine students all cmi... =( haiz... hahah... -oops-............... jking...

off to camp soon

2007-07-03T03:01:00.000+08:00

okok... its 3am and i know i'm supposed to slp =P

was packing for camp [NUS Community Service Club Camp :: 3-7july07] tmr... well... i'm jus born with the last-minute disease... tralala! then then... hard time packing...

had a mini argument with my mum... =( well, she's jus... argh!!! totally horrible! she said that its useless praying for my dad and she won't! wth? how can she be like this? she doesn't trust that daddyGod can change my dad! she going on and on abt how my dad thinks that its gd enuff to attend sunday mass... but hey mum... i'm realli sorry to say it so bluntly to you... but realli, serving in csc doesnt give u the right to condemn him... so, stop it...

i believe my dear daddy in Heaven will do something... both to dad and to mum... to bring dad closer to him... and to MELT mummy's heart... =( she's jus carrying too much hatred in her... and she's hurting me with those stupid things!!!

anyway, it started with dad telling me tt after he has learnt some great cullinary skills, he'll prolly consider service in the kitchen ministry... and boy! i was like so pleasantly pleased!!! my heart jus went "AMEN! Praise the Lord... daddyGod... how did you do this? its amazing... to let something like this come out of daddy's mouth!"

but when i told mum... she was DAMN displeased... say that dad dun like to be ruled by others, he wants to go there and take over everything...

but WHY mummy... why must you think of this? yes... dad is unhappy abt all the INDIAN CHIEFs there... but i truly Praise and Thank God for such a thought (to join the kitchen ministry) in daddy's mind... i jus don't see why mummy has to be so sacarstic and mean and narrow minded and discouraging?

cant she be supportive... [nt jus to this, but to many other things as well]
she say she dun wanna go to conv retreat with dad cuz she say he fell aslp in the talk... but i'm sorry to put it so bluntly to you and i still maintain my stand, that the talk is not the most impt thing... it is the EXPERIENCE with the Holy Spirit... and it is during these retreats where the Holy Spirit is most present!

on the other hand, i realli thank my dear daddy in heaven for mummy... i guess i can be quite rude and critic when putting my point across... but i'm realli thankful that she loves God somewhat and is trying hard to serve Him...

in anycase, i've accepted the offer from Temasek Hall... so its bye bye to this home for the weekdays... thanks daddyGod... i guess this is the opportunity given by you... you know how much i need to jus get away for a while... i need my little time out... though i might be away for all the weekdays for 3-4 yrs... (and minusing the hols)... but i believe... this might actually help make everything better...

and... my plan for now is to pray for daddy and mummy harder!!!
i think it should go like this... first, daddy go for conv retreat... and he changed loads!!!
then it should trigger some trust for God in mummy's heart... and she will go for conv too!!!
of cuz, it will happen as God will and IN HIS TIME! =)

daddyGod... ur little darling girl is waiting realli patiently... do take your time, but hurry a little if you can... to MELT mummy's heart... and also to encourage daddy to serve you! =) i pray, realli sincerely! AMEN =)

mass on sunday

2007-07-01T15:02:00.000+08:00

haha... i was jus wondering y is it more difficult to walk to church than to walk back from church...?

1-on the way to church, is upslope...
2-after church, i very happy... so can skipp home...
3-i'm impressed that i actually got the discipline to go church alone...
4-on the way to church, i'm like RUNNING? cuz i always late... then so tiring la! whereas on the way home... lalala~

and mass today was CHIM!!! hmm...how do u not say goodbye to ur family b4 following Jesus? wont they think u've gone missing? haha... but i noe i shldnt take it literally... =P

anyway... Fr Kenny's sermon was abt.. knowing ur priorities!

a reporter asked a man... what's your occupation?
[man] i'm a christian.
[reporter] i mean, what's your job?
[man] i'm a christian.
[reporter] maybe i didn make myself clear enough. what do u do for a living?
[man] ohh! i think i get what you mean!!! i'm a full-time christian and i open a furniture shop to pay my bills...

now now, we are also called to be fulltime christians... always know our priorities... and do not let anything hinder us from doing God's will... everything else is secondary! including school and committments!

and the end of the sermon is... let us go out and head towards jerusalem... that is loving others...

man! i think that's God's message to me... He always sends pple to encourage me on!!!

I love daddyGod and i know He loves me too!!! and so, sometimes i jus wanna love ALL the people around me... daddyGod knows its hard... and He has been giving me strength and encouragement along the way! Thank you daddyGod!

and even b4 uni is starting, i'm already feeling some stress to do well... cuz i wanna do well enough so i can bring medical support and ease to the less fortunate people of my DaddyGOD's kingdom! but...

[dear Daddy in Heaven... that to do Your will, I will need to draw strength from your great great Love for me and not rely on my own will!!! cuz if i do, i know i will not succeed... do keep reminding me ok! =) AMEN~]

NIGHTMARE

2007-07-01T14:41:00.000+08:00

and as i cried myself to sleep last night, i had a NIGHTMARE!!!

ok... i fell aslp realli quickly... and woke up at like 3 am and couldnt get to slp again!

dreamt that it was this industrial warehouse place! me and sis in this room with 2 other person... one is tied to the chair and the other, evil looking! the evil one is trying to kill the one tied to the chair! =( so bloody can? got pliers, screwdrivers, hammers, spanners... etc!!!

then the scene change to in a lift, got another murder going on!this person wad madly hammering another person~!!!

then the scene change back to the room! and the tied up man freed himself! he put the pliers in his mouth and tried to cut the rope? no idea wads going on!!! and he tried to killed the evil woman who's trying to kill him!!! all this with me and sis standing rooted to the ground, -stunned-... then i grabbed my bag and ran out!!! sis too!! we hurried locked the gates! and i rembed tt my bag inside! but heck la... LIFE MORE IMPT THAN BAG!

and i saw cheekeong outside the gate... and ask him "where's fiona and stella? oops... i locked the door... are they inside?" but he said "no la... they ran away le!"

then we all ran away!!!!!

to the road side, there's s LONG QUEUE!!! like some ndp marching thinggi... but its a QUEUE... and then me and sis and mum[who apparently was working at the office next door and totally unaware of the murder!] and we boarded the shuttle bus to bedok...

the TRUTHS!!!

*cheekeong, stella and fiona are my work friends... and it seemed like seeching and cheryl were part of the dream too.. but realli vague! maybe they were the murderer? i remb the murderer is a familiar female!
*mummy realli worked at a industrial office before... long corridors and CARGO lifts...
*yesterday, me and Yi Ling took a shuttle bus to bedok, from parkway... the queue was VERY LONG! cuz the bus was late...
*when i was working for granton [door to door sales] we had to comb the industrial buildings!!! and knocked on every office!!! and the cargo lifts were our usual tools...

hmm~ =P

shopping yest =P

2007-07-01T14:24:00.000+08:00

i typed a whole loads of things and they're gone... =( its not making me feel any better...

anyway, went shopping with Yi Ling yest, i missed the shuttle bus, spent abt $50 at parkway... which mum's not pleased but I DUN CARE.... tell u y ltr...

mum say dun go boat quay to eat at night [nt even if its at like 9pm onli...]
so i didnt, brought the dinner forward and tuition backward... in the end, dinner at 5? who does that man? except me? so dumb, of cuz we couldnt eat la! only drank something and had pizza... which was good... and as Yi Ling says, the name of the drinks are damn suggestive la!

so, i had dinner at home lor.. and sis called home to say she going eat macs at rivervale mall at 11pm!!! and mum jus say a few words and let her? wth? i spoilt my own dinner cuz she say dun eat at boat quay at 9 and she actually let sis do that? not the first time... and it definitely doesn justify all the things i've done and sacrificed!!! and that sis! she doesnt know how good her life has been can? getting everything i had when she's 4 yrs younger? eg:HP at Pri3? i only had mine at sec1... and tt's cuz i got gold for maths olympiad... otherwise, i wun even have one! and she had it when i had it? and atm card? sounds so STUPID! but i havent had mine yet! cuz mum dun allow... and the places she went to ... i've NEVER been there b4... eg:snowcity...life is so FAIR... with her coming to me and telling me how sad her life is... telling me how mummy doesnt let her go out!!! come on man... tell me more... if mummy's behaviour is the first slap, this shall be the second one!!! i shall take it bravely! and she didnt go for catechism class again!!!

so i realized that the person that's pulling me away from God is my very own mother!!! with her very own hatred in her heart, venting all the shit on me... and showing "IMPARTIALISM"! clever!!! how can i ever look at her and smile and speak properly?

[dear Daddy in Heaven... u know me through and through... you know that i realli dun wanna let this thing separate us! its realli so hard trying to be a good daughter of yours... but i know daddy, you will give me strength! thank you Lord! thank you for loving me and always putting peace in my heart... thank you for letting me know the impt of peace... cuz i know that without ur Holy Spirit in my heart, i will definitely have became a rebellious kid and ran outta this house... thank you dear Lord for all the trials that come my way... cuz i know, i can ONLY RELY on you! I love you Lord! AMEN~]

tralala

2007-06-29T13:37:00.000+08:00

tralala~

the posting results are out... we got into temasek hall... =P haha... hopefully can get the same rm! tralala! hahah...

TODAY IS LAST DAY AT WORK... man... i cant wait for 6pm to come ok! =P haha... so cool!!! i smell freedom blowing at my face... haha... i think Uncle Andrew is happy too!!! =P haha...

-i'm so tired-

hostel posting = weird dreams...

2007-06-28T10:17:00.000+08:00

i think daddyGod is having a lot of fun plaguing me with dreams! LONG ones!!!

yes... i dreamt again... dreamt tt there's one busload of pple travelling to this place... seems to be somekinda tour... then we reach this block of building with DARK RED bricks... looks realli eerie! then me and yi ling same room... so, i figured out that it was our HOSTEL la! so we all got down the bus! and gathered around... then at the corner of nowhere, i saw a figurine! it looks similar to "zonker" [that's josie's creation, josie's from amplify... she gave a talk for the YI.] then i picked it up... and realize that everyone ard me are like the YISS people... then suddenly, moving into hostel becomes YI meeting! then after that, SJMM people appeared too!!! hmm... i think my mind is in a huge huge mess... tralala~

haha... hmm... hostel with DARK red bricks??? seems like King Edward VII Hall... hmm... is this a sign? does this mean we won't get into Temasek Hall? hahah... -ooh- hostel posting results coming out tmr! =P *excited*

aft choir prac

2007-06-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

had tuition... and in the midst of the tuition, i realize tt i forgot to tell uncle andrew tt i going to the centre myself!!! gosh! -panic- so, i hurriedly msged him =P

tuition was pretty good... i kept my cool... my student is responding quite well today... and so i suspect that i was kinda post-ms-ing last week, with all those scoldings... =oops=

then went to suki sushi at hougang plaza... me and sis wanted to play games but parents so unsupportive one! =P haha... we wanna like make each other guess words =P blar~!!! today is the last day for the 99cents per plate promotion... haha... we've been there almost every weds this mth! =P

then had choir prac... actually tot of giving my testimonial story... but i chickened out... oh well... aunty sharen came up to me and said "we were looking for u on sunday for ur story!" and i went "er... then i have to do it today?" *cold sweat*

but in the end, she never call me... and i dunno y i was suddenly jus realli nervous... aunty janet and aunty pauline foo gave their testimonials... i think i shall jus make some preparation and say it next next weds... (cuz next weds i'll be away for camp...) dear daddy in Heaven~ give me the strength and courage to jus be a living testimony to u!!! i love u! =P

anw, practised some new song, wasnt too gd at it...
and practised [great is the lord] but i jus cant exactly translate the majestic and exalting feel into playing... daddyGOD help me la! its so difficult! :'( and for the two new songs... man... i'm not that excited about it... cuz i hear nothing for 2nd key...? [except for the amazing love one, the ending, there's like a bit of sax or smthing? i dunno la!]

jus feeling very screwed now... horrible four-lettered F word! FEEL i mean... i'm nt that vulgar ok~ =) but i jus cant feel la...

[dear daddy in Heaven, sometimes it realli seem so tough to even understand music... sometimes, feeling? hmm... what's that? but i noe dear God, you're always there for me... Help me to rely on you Lord, fully... Help me never to rely on my own strengths(which came from YOU too~)... All these, in YOUR Name and for Your Glory... AMEN~]

sad life in moduslink

2007-06-27T13:26:00.000+08:00

took leave... tuition at 4.30pm... yawns =P

cant stand how we're jus throwing lame excuses at customers... its so against my principles... haha... oops-

plagued by weird dreams! wahhh!

a few more days left here!!!

prac tonight and i havent prepared my testimonial =P

molested?

2007-06-26T21:33:00.000+08:00

MOLESTED!!!

by my meimei =X she's jus hugging me from behind!!! and touching me all over!!! and pulling my shorts down! [ok... my shorts is HUMONGOUS and is hanging on my hips...]

enuff of the obscene material... my meimei is so cute!!! and she's whining now... addie goes "jie.....jie.....jie.....jie.....jie....." she says she misses me... ohh... me too... =P

she goes to pulau ubin to camp and she brings back 500ml of "pulau ubin water" for us to try... and she's sad we didnt try... ok... i took a sip and man! its like sea water!!! *pukes allover*

now she's still going "jie.....jie.....jieee........." haha... so cute right... she's always my little sis... =P

ok...i dunno y but i kept luffing!!!

oh yes... and for those who are concern abt my education plans... i'm going to NUS to take up their Nursing course... 2nd batch... and i plan to minor in mathematics... u all noe, i cant live without mathematics leh... haha... i mean, can live la... but jus I WANT MATHS IN MY LIFE!!! woohoo~

wahhhh!!! molested again!!! my mummy help sis ply cream on her hand (those bites she got from ubin) then she wipe her finger on my pants(which is over my ass)!!!

HALLELUJAH! i'm so tired... and my student jus cancelled the tuition... Praise the Lord... As I always say... the Lord plans~ =)

back from conv retreat!

2007-06-26T13:01:00.000+08:00

tralala... plagued by dreams these days... hmm y do i seem to get more dreams when i'm tired... and it makes me even more tired... =(

anyway... last night i dreamt tt i went for the nursing 2nd interview... haha.. then the interviewer is the xiaozhang(principal)... u noe... the channel 8 one... hahah... funny la... and i was like wearing trackpants and t-shirt... hahah... and we were joking abt my attire... so i crapped about how comfortable trackpants is! =P

and dreamt abt some school stuff... hmm.. i think i'm getting kinda excited about school! =)
so to remember what i've dreamt, i wrote it down..... only to find out.........................
the writing down part was a DREAM too! so, i cant remb somethings =(

back from the conversion retreat... and seriously its like SO TIRING! i'm like so IN NEED OF SLEEP! but i must say that God has definitely been providing me the stength to go on (these 4 days) to kinda get up (not on time...) but somehow can make it there on time... for my daddy who drives me there everymorning! for the Spirit of hyperness in me... =) the more tired i get, the more hyper i get... and i hope i did hyped up all the tired servants of God... for my fellow choir peeps who are such a motivation! and for the worship leaders who are ever so understanding and encouraging! for the SJMMers! who are such a bunch of nutcases!!!

and most importantly, the feeling of serving HIM is jus absolutely GREAT!!! i can never feel any better! No amount of helping customers over here can beat these 4 days!

I truly thank my dearest daddy in Heaven for giving me the opportunity to serve him... for giving me a little bit of talents to start with and for sending me His Holy Spirit to play through me... seriously... its amazing how u can play stuff u usually cant... only during retreats!

today, i offered my seat to an old lady again... woohoo... feeling great =)
i think my purpose on buses and trains are as follows:
firstly, sit down at every opportunity...
then, when there's anyone in need, i can offer up my seat...
well, not to like play hero or what! but as i've noticed... most pple can actually sit there in peace even if there's a wobbly old ahma in front of them!!!

i must help the ahma "chope" seats! haha

yest in the train, saw a "pregnant" lady... but i didn give up my seat... cuz she was wearing a tight dress( not the maternity gown)... and i cant tell if she's realli pregnant... or its jus the tummy u noe... so i dun wanna offend her... =( oh well... but i kept feeling figetty! =( [sorry daddyGOD if i did wrong =(]

brb! lunch now... =)
i miss momo =( UNCLE jul took it back =(

sleepy!

2007-06-20T12:40:00.000+08:00

FLU DAY =(

yest was tuesday~ and seriously, i'm so so so so so drained... ever since returning from the YI... i think i actually exchanged my mental strength for spiritual strength... heh~

i was :
*transferred back to the main office to do emails and i did like 11 emails in a day? hmm?
*dozing off at my desk [for the first time] cuz there's nothing to do
*dreading the thought of having to teach tuition in the evening...
*sleeping on the mrt [standing!!! so i actually 'jerked' a few times as my knee unlocked itself and thank God i didnt collapse to the ground...]
*sleepwalking to the tuition place...[its at choa chu kang btw!] so i took train from bedok to yewtee? counting the number of stops puts me to slp instantaneously
*yawning endlessly during tuition? with a growling tummy cuz i only had bread for dinner...
*slept in the train and bus on the way home!!! [in deep slp somemore!]
*sleepwalk ALL THE WAY home from compass point.
*enter my house, dump my bag on the sofa and SLP!!!

then my mum came and nag la...
-never wash leg!
-never bathe
-never eat dinner
-never change
-never slp properly

and i was so sleepy i couldnt get up and so i said "ok la ok la... u jus keep quiet and leave me here can? ..."

after that, its either... she stopped nagging or i konked out totally... cuz i hear nothing after that...

i woke up 1.5 hrs later, and found myself on my parents' bed... with my bag... i have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA how i got there!!! and then i got up, went to the toilet and did all i'm supposed to, and eat dinner and check email and play games with meimei... like normal... @12mn...

well, my day didnt end kinda well... but thank God i fell aslp within seconds after lying on my bed... so no teardrops wasted =)

today... work! did like 6 emails? prac tonight... =P think parents going eat sushi alone tgt... [er... u get wad i mean la!] cuz me and meimei not free... yes... alone, yet together!!! =P

i think i shall continue to embark on my loving-the-world project... and for u, i shall do so by jus... leaving u alone then... i think i shld be capable of doing it... =)

dear Daddy in Heaven, i know i havent said my prayers for today yet... i'll do it when i get home tonight k!!! pls do remind me =P

dumb love

2007-06-20T00:58:00.000+08:00

i havent exactly been THAT misunderstood and THAT ignored... but why do i keep jumping in to this mess all the time, everytime i tot i'd prolly cud help... everytime ended up feeling like i've jus done the most shameless thing on planet earth... when i jus wanna show concern, and i jus totally haf no intention of anything else... i dun like to be misunderstood esp when i specially did it otherwise...

on top of all, why do i always irritate, and let u get pissed jus and when u like it and let u bear the most ridiculous misunderstanding about me... time and time again... am i that dumb? or is this love? [then i must be the dumbest person on earth]

dear heavenly daddy~ wad do u think huh?

and to add on... i didnt even make it to the top 6 frens in ur life huh? impressive... or maybe i shld jus get my act tgt and treat u as how u treat me? [sorry daddy God... i didn actually mean tt... its horrible eh?]

=what great one mth to remb=

back from YI

2007-06-19T12:49:00.000+08:00

heyheyhey!!! i'm back from YIss and man~ it was GREAT... like duh~

and i think my dear brother enjoyed it as well... great!

so yea, many things happened la... and i realli must say i didnt regret going la... and my dear daddy in heaven loves me like so much and so do i... met marilyn [pri sch fren], rachel [sec sch fren] and geneveive there too... gosh~ shall not blog abt it here... but do check out the YI exp corner when i do update that corner...

i took like one hr plus to tell mummy the whole YI experience plus a bit of argument with her... cuz i asked her to go for the conversion retreat and she turned it down flatly... she jus doesnt wanna forgive... =( haiz... Jesus please melt her heart of stone...

and i thought once again, i was too pushy... =( sorry... i will rid that bad habit... =( but i pushed cuz i realli love her and i dun wan her to get stuck in this unforgiveness thing... thereby keeping her a distance away from God... =(

anyway, was like so tired yest! cuz went to nus to pay my hostel application fees... and man~ jus making that trip to nus and then to office, jus makes me even more certain that i wanna stay in a hostel sia!!! haha~ yea... so far can! =S

then i was like so tired and drained... and Praise the Lord! my student called me to cancel the tuition... AMEN sia... God realli knows what I need...

And its realli a great feeling knowing jus how much God Loves me and that he actually understand what i've been going thru la... *impressive*

I was horribly woken up by the bus ticket checking guy! he's kinda rude... jus shouted at me! like "oei oei!!!" then a chinese man ask him if the bus reach sengkang already... and he jus "no la no la!!!" so rude... and somemore... we ARE in sengkang! man~ so, the guy got confused and as the ticket man again... and got some realli vague answer... so i was like preparing to alight from the bus, and in my half asleep tone, i asked the chinese guy where he's going... he said interchange... and i jus told him... "well, its the next stop, jus cross the road after that..." i guess it cleared some of the question marks floating above his head...

i hope i was Christ to him!!!

and i dreamt tt daddy went for a growth session, and i was like figuring out some keyboard stuff, which i cant figure out la... and he got quite impatient... but the main point is... he's there! Praise the Lord...
and i dreamt that my 2 grand uncle in law is going to attend the conversion retreat with his brother... though the names on the paper like not his name leh... but... =P impressive... Amen~

take care all... tada...
God Bless...

weds

2007-06-13T14:26:00.000+08:00

happy wednesday... i had a dream last night... *i can almost hear my sis say "man~ not again"* but anw, now thinking of what hall to apply for... hmm... =P my dear fren, Yi Ling's school is so far from mine!!! wa!!! why why why??? they shifted... anyway... still reading up... the more i read, the more i get confused...

anw, my dream...
setting: one side is csc, the toilet there, outside the music room, the other side, AJC, outside ODAC room
people: me and cindia/meimei (cant remb), teckie
happenings: ok! i was running away from a grp of police who wants to kill me!
so me and cindia/meimei were like hidding in rooms, and its a matter of time they find us cuz that place like not very big? then teckie helped me escape... he lured the head of the police pple away... and me and the other person ran straight out of csc!!! -cold sweat-

anw, was talking to joycee online today... funfun~ =) havent talked to her for a long long long long long [ok... very long] time le!!! which was like back in sec sch times... i remb we studied tgt for O's, so no matter what, she's realli a great fren =)

we were like going on and on and on and on abt projects... and how i only had ONE project as big as theirs... the rest were small ones... [ohh... didn say tt the others were event organising~ =)] and i realized!!! among our grp of frens... which is actually the band pple, like most of them all studied business!!! haha... so i said eh! u all can open company then hire me!!! =P so here we go...

joyce can manage the accounts, tourism and retail side [since she taking retail and tourism management and is interested in finance!]
nick can do the PR jobs!!! cuz he so friendly and stuff =) [i remb he took some it studies too...]
jul can manage the website!!! haha [cuz he took business and IT]
gus can design the webpages? and do his com and media management thinggi~
bianca can do marketing... [she's learning now at mis]
gerry can provide medical assistance!!!

oh... we're opening a hotel by the way!!! =P

DREAM BIG!

-i love to dream- its fun... try it!

tc, God Bless =)

sign of the cross

2007-06-12T12:50:00.000+08:00

alrights! nothing much to blog today... except tt i'm going back to the main office soon... alrights... dun mind actually... should be fun =)

so, now still surfing net! and... doing nothing else... then on friendster, there's the classified thing... then there's the jobs thing... wa seh... this is realli assuring!!! North Shore Nurses

the job is jus waiting!!! =P

k... getting overly excited already... gerry~ i havent even start sch... =P oops... continues to find some gd buy online...

currently searching for..... labbies... macbk~ actually i dun mind an ibook also la.... [the newer versions i mean! haha] kk... i'm off to search for more info abt the difference in the operating system in the macbk and ibk~ jus how much lousier is the ibk [as discouraged by gus...] i think its a version 10.1 and version 10.4 difference... but i wun know exactly how much diff till i read up... and tt's wad i'm going to do now!!!

jus for thoughts... how many of us actually say our prayers in the bus? well, when we realli cant make time... i guess the best idea is to say our prayers in public... we jus have to fccus and nt be too distracted. tt's abt it i guess... but... the other thing... do u all make the sign of the cross b4 saying ur prayers? i was having a struggle this morning... but in the end, i mustered a little of courage and did it...

:: my struggle ::
eh! making the sign of the cross in the bus like that is going to make people stare and think "that siao one! what she doing?"
but we shldnt be ashamed of our religion ok! Uncle Andrew said its like signing ourself in Jesus' name... [cant exactly remb the exact words...]
but... cant i jus say my prayers when i get home?
man! i want to start my day with it... if u can say now, y wait till i get home? [God is there waiting for u to talk to him and u ask him to wait? hmm...]
but... u noe, in the bible they say to lock urself up in ur room and pray... not like the pharisees who stand up and pray loudly for all to see...
ok... now... is this logical thinking or is the horrible voice of the evil coming in?
yea... what would u say about that?
er... i guess tt meant tt we shld be humble and sincere in our prayers and not be distracted right? [i'm nt too sure myself...]

verdict: GOD wins!
i changed my seat (from in the middle of nowhere to a corner) , made the sign of the cross, close my eyes, bow my head and happily talked to my dear Daddy in Heaven... I Love Him and I hope he's pleased =)

tata!!! God Bless~

og outing/ dad's bdae/ corpus christi

2007-06-11T13:33:00.000+08:00

had a meet up with my og frens yest... 7 of us... me, cindia, jasmine, eric, sam, kokhao, malcolm... jeslyn supposed to come... but i think something happened to her doggie... hope its fine!!! nice seeing them after so so long!

so the guys were like constantly talking abt army life? haha! so cindia, jasmine ans i were like walking ard, and playing with water!=) jus dip out footies in the baby pool... haha... fun fun! and ULTRA SHUANG!!! cuz my feet got blisters... horrible heels... er... no... horrible sam who made me walk from his place to j8 which is so so far!!! =( ouchies!

jasmine, cindia and me sitting by the baby pool

=corpus christi=

then dad came to drive me to csc, and gave a lift to jasmine and cindia... daddy's the best! [but i didnt noe we'll be passing by amk... then we dropped her st bishan mrt to take train... =( sorry cindia!]

then had mass... and MATTHEW was there! yay! haha... but he's like kinda nervous and stressed... hmm... never seem matthew lidat b4... i tot i was the only one thats nervous and stressed when playing the keyboard... heh! but everything went on well!!! Praise the Lord... [though i think i'd better get my 2nd keyboard things clear... my playing has been getting worse and worse!]

then then, gotta clear the aud cuz of the upcoming YISS... but jul's not there... so we had a "protect jul's motif campaign" ok... kidding... anw, his keyboard is sitting in my living room now...

till he comes and claim it... or else its mine!!! muahaha! ok... that's nt possible...

then then! went to marina grove to eattt!!! steamboat... those $12 per head kind... at chongpang... its realli good!!! eat until so so so bloated... gosh... i think the tummy is fatter now... and i dun dare to weigh myself anymore! hahah! my and sis treat! cuz its dad's bdae... haha...

$50 + cancelled tuition = a whole load of yummy food and happy and enjoyable atmosphere!!! [definitely worth it!!!]

we all smelt of bbq after that... all had to shower... sho sticky and yucky... sweating and all too! but... HAPPY

so... here are the pics! =P

dad cooking the food~

mummy~

the soup that "NEVER" boils and the black tepanyaki thing... so cancerous~

towards the end, we've became smarter and added an egg into our soup =P

daddy and mummy~

3 of us! dad always shows horrible faces!

sis with parents~

all 4!!!

sisters! (see next picture for evidence!)

that's icecream~ butthe main point is... we have mirror imaged lower teeth bites!

[certified sisters!]

today in the bus, there's this guy on my right and another behind me who wants to alight... then i let the right hand side one alight first and the guy behind pushed me and stared at me... then... i... rolled my eyes at him!!! ohh... like so bad... this is nt the behaviour of a catholic... i'm sorry i wasnt being Jesus to him... =( man~ its realli tough!!! how to smile at him? how to?

[Dear Lord! help me to be able to smile from deep in my heart in all situations!]

tata!!! tc, God Bless

family probs?

2007-06-08T09:18:00.000+08:00

k! its early friday morning... TGIF~ haha... only fridays then can say this... read joyce's bloggie~ poor girl...

eh, i've something lidat too... but a lil diff... its between my mum and dad and grandparents... well, my mum and my grandma is like... like poles? they're realli similar in someways... but they're realli ANTI each other... when my mum wanna go kitchen, she'll make sure tt my grandma's no where in sight... i understand what weird things my grandma can do... [me and mummy are victims... cuz grandma loves dad and sis...] grandma can jus come up to us and for no reason, put u down... [eg: ask me y i so short, shorter than sis? ask me whose grades better? say i stupidier than dunno the grandchild of which fren... say my sonatinas are pure crap while sis' twinkle twinkle lil stars are pure MUSIC?] its jus totally absurd... but at the same time, i think my mum is acting too extremely too!!!

so yea... i'm stuck in the middle of no where... & when mum and dad quarrels, mum will shout from the room, and ask me to plug the laptop for her!?!?! [what the?] cuz she dun wanna ask dad to do it and she dun wanna walk pass him to do it? [now i dun think i'm tt childish anymore eh?]

also, we tend to treat our loved ones worse... i used to thought its only me... till i realize, not so... its common... we are sometimes jus TOO tired to even answer our family members... jus IGNORE... and we think its no BIG DEAL, but in fact it'll hurt much... but anyway, i did it again last night... well... mum jus cant stop commenting on every single thing!!! sry abt tt though...

Tobit 2:9-14
Tobit, who's veryvery righteous, loses his cool at home too... He's so ultra charitable outside, but at home, he gets angry with his wife for bringing a goat home... Its a bonus for her weaving job but Tobit refuses to believe... read more

and my worse nightmare came... i think i'm acting jus like her!!! man!!! i dun wan!!! i dun wanna control... i dun wanna nag... i dun wanna jus go on and on and on talking non-stop... =( and i noe i'm hurting the pple i love and the pple who loves me... so i'm sry... i'm trying... but sometimes, i jus lose control...

[joyce!]i havent experienced that yelling thing for a LONG LONG time... so i think that must have been realli horribly bad... hang in there!

[gus] for being realli pushy over the YI thing... sorry... i realli am feeling bad over it... =(

[dear Lord, i pray tt i can stop doing all the excessive stupid things i do with a total lack of self-control... Please also help us to treat our family members and loved ones better =) I ask this in Jesus' name. Amen. ]

jc vs poly

2007-06-07T13:38:00.000+08:00

this little post is specially for Germaine... and all those having probs with the "eh! jc or poly?" question... i shall NOT take sides, jus lay out all the info i think to be true and let u all decide urself.. cuz it all depends on what u all realli want=)

ok... here i go...

it is TRUE that a jc is harder to get into... but it DOESN'T mean that a jc is a better choice! [i haf a fren, jeslyn, who switched from AJ to TP... and man~ she's so happy now!]

jc is two years and poly is 3 years

jc get A Level and poly get Diploma... [if u all are going to stop here, a dip will be more specific, then a general A Level] say u wanna get an engineering job... with an engineering dip, shld be more useful then an A's cert...

but if u all dun wanna stop here... wanna go to uni, with a A's cert [a relatively good one... means Bs or Cs but not too far off laaaaa... ] will get u into the uni... but in a poly, chances are a bit slimmer... the more hopeful ones are like the top 5-10 % of the cohort...

-bbr~ i go lunch... continue ltr...-
-continuing-

er... then, in a jc, the subjects are like, eng, maths, chinese, science, humanities, econs... all like general subjects la...

in a poly, u get realli specific... like bio med engineering, mech eng, design, business... and all...

going to a jc means that your options are opened... as long as u get into the science faculty, u can go to almost (though not ALL) the schools in uni... [i heard that the business schools only take those with gd GP grades]

whereas, in a poly, u've gotta be sure of what u want... once u're sure, and make sure u wun regret, ur poly years will definitely be fun cuz u're doing something u realli like , with loads of hands on... plus internships and all... but if u regret after the first yr and stuff, u can switch course... but u start from yr 1 again... i wun exactly say its wasting time, cuz its not like u didn learn anything there...

lastly, the thing in germaine's blog is NOT true... please do not happily think its true until u get the real shock of the truth... u'll really hate it... it is not true that with your diploma, you jump straight to year 3... no no no... the most you get is to skip yr 1... and for most courses... u onli get to be exempted from a FEW modules...

in my case, as i have read, ngeeann poly nursing dip holders dun get ANYTHING exempted... whereas nyp's nursing dip holders only get a few modules off... i'm nt sure abt the other courses too... yups... that's about it... make ur own choices... i can only help u all to this extent...

weigh ur pros and cons...
do what you realli like... if u realli realli aspire to do a certain subj and u think a certain poly's courses are jus for you, go for it...
if u're still unsure, then better to choose jc... but make sure u do well to get into a uni... if not hard to get job too...
then, think and PRAY about it... very impt...
and most importantly, let God Lead...

[i'm also nt sure, but i think its like... jus follow ur heart... and if u dun get what u want, dun despair like the world is going to crash into the sun... if can appeal, try... if cannot, or if appeal fail, consider what is offered to you... ask God what it means? maybe that's God's will? accept it then... getting into depressions jus becuz u dun get the course or school u want is definitely NOT GOING TO HELP ANYTHING~]

[life story: cedar is like my 3rd choice? i didn even get into st nics... and i got "scolded" by some relatives for nt getting into a catholic sch... what? i'm happy in Cedar, not like God isnt there? am i very FAR away from God now? NO? he's still in my heart...
then, AJ is also my 3rd choice! i didnt get into VJC, the one i've ALWAYS aspired to go!!! but i'm still alive and doing well...
then, i wasnt even shortlisted for the Medicine interview... but... AMEN... i no need to go thru their scary interviews and write essays...]

i blogged again...

2007-06-07T12:53:00.000+08:00

hello!!! i'm back again... ok... y i blog everyday...

[1] i'm realli THAT free... dun u get it??? So much time, so little things to do! so i blog and visit friendster DAILY... jus like how i check our the daily reflections in Presentation Ministry's One Bread, One Body [click on "today's verse"]... and i think that the reflection in the Word Among Us is easier to link back to our daily lives... so, do click on the link and check it out... God is waiting to speak to you jus one click away...

[2] somehow... i dunno why... i freak out when Uncle Andrew say "share ur personal conversion experience and encounter with the people" and i'm like "WHAT? was i ever converted? what experience? *scans through my entire memory* cannot find leh!" so i felt somehow sad... like... "wahhh! y no experience?" but in anycase... i cant explain... but jus KNOW it somehow tt the Holy Spirit has always been there for me... comforting me when i'm almost going crazy... and the little voices in my mind... the things i'm amazed at... the things i wanna do... the things i cant do.... and the things i get instead... COINCIDENCE is jus NOT the word for it...

[to which, i mean, how i jus realli wanted to be a doctor, how i worked hard(though sometimes realli slack) towards it... how God always give me the grades... not ULTRA fantastic but jus enough to make it through... and as i grow older (in jc) how i realli want to do something for my dear God's people... and how i did "ok" in A's though i tot i was kinda slack... how i TOTALLY didn't make it to MEDICINE, not EVEN interview! and how i got shortlisted for the Nursing Interview, how i thought i SCREWED it up... but how i even manage to GET IN? u noe, they only take 50 students a yr! these are true pure mysteries which i cannot and dun want to solve... cuz they're truly done by God's Grace... maybe being a nurse can touch more people's lives than being a doctor... but at the moment, i'm jus comfortably walking along the path God has paved for me... so blessed right?] to which, i can only say... BY GOD'S GRACE and i jus wanna shout HALLELUJAH

anyway, as i somehow chanced upon two friend(jus-became-christian girls)'s blog, by God's grace, I jus saw how happy and blessed they are to have found God... and I am even more determined... [even more so, cuz i'm a Catholic since birth] that i shouldn't jus take God forgranted... like[aiya! the sun rises everyday!] but be truely thankful for everything tt's happened... and back to my second reason... therefore, I Blog... my everyday's happenings... all By GOD'S GRACE.

[3] u all know how BAD my memory is... i don't want to ever think "eh~ wad did i do in the hols huh?" so, i blog... so i can remb all the things that's happened... [by God's Grace as well...]

:: today NO dream! ::

i was kinda energetic after choir last night [prac was alright... my keyboard baby is light!] and i slept late... but i like woke up so early? i wondered why? until i read my tag-board... the tag by meimei... then i realize... orh! last night NO dream! tt's y not tired =)

and i had a pretty nice conversation last night, which i havent had for a long long time... -happy-

and jenny was nice last night... initally i tot tt she and bianca there dao-ing me... so i jus wanna get away and go upstairs... *taking deep breathes and chanting... nevermind nevermind... I must BE Christ to others...* but in the end she's so nice... and i wonder... eh~ she read my blog ah? hehe~ but nvm also laaaaa.... [oh... i've decided to call her jenny... minus the aunty in front... since she dun like] though i realli tot tt if i go aunty jenny=) its more polite... but... nvm, according to each preference...

[if i take away the "uncle" infront of Uncle Andrew... he'll skin me alive! gosh~]
and did i mention that Uncle Andrew witnessed my dad hitting me and heard my cries... and OUT of ALL THE CHINESE THAT HE DUNNO... he muttered "da3 shi4 teng2 (meaning, hitting is loving)" *faints* when the fathers are united, STAY AWAY!

hope everyone's in a rather pretty mood today... nice and good...
take care... God Bless...

another dream

2007-06-06T14:39:00.000+08:00

another dream... but nt so pleasing~

[meimei] last night u like that say me very bad la... it felt like a huge slap right on my face... i think tt u're the one who always anyhow spend lor... and how can u accuse me of such ulterior motives??? i cried buckets in the toilet la... [toilet got buckets ma...] but anyway, i'm ok liao... wanna slap? i offer u the other cheek... but not so hard please~ =P

i dreamt!!! that i was with meimei and ahma... then as usual, she show horrible favouritism la... this time RIGHT into my face... [maybe this is the second slap...] we were eating.... and... shee.............. told me..... "are you done eating? if you're done, then leave the table... i got things want to tell ur meimei~" so horrible!!! but i'm used to it... =P then i go mummy there... then she ask... "y never talk to ur grandma?" then when i cry and cry and cry "she dun wan to talk to me wad..." haha... so poorthing right? =P

but realli feels good to cry in dreams! realli needed that... haha...
last time i got this grandaunt and granduncle inlaw tt i realli dun like cuz the things they do are way overboard!!! and i dreamt that i scolded them horribly!!! scolded and said everything i wanted to!!! and man... it felt SO GOOD! haha... er... is tt sinful? =P

[dear Daddy in Heaven... u always give me all this situations... i dun dare to pray for more love to love ur people already~ haha... jking!]

i think my dear Daddy in Heaven (although very very very serious and wise) should have some gd sense of humour too... heh~ yeayea =)

i also collected my A's cert and testimonial and my first aid cert (picture so ugly! meimei sure luff!!!) anyway, i'm jus in a VERY GOOD MOOD today! i gave my seat to an old ahma on the train... poor ahma, cant even walk steadily... i hope i did made her day... but... i think she made my day instead! she's so cute, kept saying thankew~ & Praise God to the gentleman sitting next to me cuz he graciously stretch out his hand to hold the ahma to the seat...

and yes... she said something shocking too!!! (conversation in chinese and teochew)
[me] ah ma... go there and sit...
[ahma] huh? u seat la!!!
[me] no la... its for you! i help u there~

i'm shocked cuz the way she said it is like " huh? ur seat then u sit la! why call me go?" so it made me wonder if she's been to many train rides without a seat for her... =( i realli wanna tell her "u're entitled to it! its ur privilege!" but it'll sound rude... haha!

and i help another ahma call her grandson... [this boy walk and walk like no ones' business... then the ahma found seat in the coffeeshop liao, call out for him and he totally didnt hear her...]

Our God is a wonderful God eh~ =)

take care people! God Bless...

ps: do check out the prayer board =)

weird dream

2007-06-05T15:00:00.000+08:00

~weird dream~

yea, i had it! dreamt tt i was wif the choir peeps... it was a 4th sat... at DUNNo-who's place... with cranky lifts... and we had to change into our dark bottoms and white tees... and i remembered... oops! i left it in aunty shirley's car... [i've NEVER been in her car in real life man!]

we took the CRANKY lift and retrieved my bag... and i realized i forgot to bring my white shirt... [that's so ME! forgetful] so i decided to go home to take... and off to home~!!!

i went home and i FELL ASLEEP!!! [dreams reveal ur true characteristics huh?] and i woke up at 8pm!!! i nearly killed myself in the dream! 4th sat and i woke up at 8pm! ran to my mum's room and finds her slping too... [that's so HER too!] then she got up and went to bathe!!! [u noe she usually takes one hr?]

finally, we set off and gathered outside the gate... [now, it seems like my whole extended family were living in this huge village...] cool!!! and everyone took soooooo long to appear... and i'm soooooooooooooo LATE [yes, that's ME] so i ran off!!! and my aunty ran as well, she run faster than me [which is true cuz she same age as sis and they compete for their house] and i run thru this alley... scary alleys [i've always been afraid of dark alleys] and got DEEP holes at the side of the path which is not so narrow though... i kept to the middle of the path, fearing the branches will catch hold of me~ [i realli do fear that in real life!]

FINALLY mummy screams "oei! the two of you!!! what time u all want to go out ???" and i thought "siao! saturday morning go where? let me sleep la... shhhhh!!!"

and suddenly i got up! looked at the clock and said "stupid alarm never ring again... damn, its a tuesday!"

moral: you are your true self in DREAMS!

and i'm feeling quite great cuz in my dreams, two of ALL the people gathering outside the gate are my uncles... who one of them, dun go to church anymore, the other, tries to go cuz his daughters attends catechism classes... and i see them as part of the people gathering to go for the 4th sat mass [though all were very late like i was] but... Praise The Lord~

have a great day ahead~ take care and God Bless =)

2007-06-04T10:21:00.000+08:00

finally... today... mondays always comes with blues...

here kena a mini power trip... so, the punch card machine is down... wahahaha! late also got no EVIDENCE... a pretty [0900] is smiling from everyone's punchcard~

k... wanna use this post to jus post some thought about my AJCSB fren, carol and her fren, keven[whom i do nt noe=)]

[carol] its great that u're honouring God so much... and its in fact beautiful... but don't forget to add a lil more of the stuff that ur frens can connect too yea? like not so much into religion stuff... afterall u do not want people to read ur blog with the thought "ya ya... she's at it again... what's so great abt it?"... and i believe u would want to bring Jesus to ur blog readers too... touch them... with ur posts and actions[for ur frens u go out with] and make them interested in the God that's making you such a better and more positive person you are now, then intro God to them and pray for them, for God will do the rest... remb, dun let pple haf the tot "eee... this is nt the carol i noe..." but let them haf the thought "eh... this carol, is different! but wad caused this great change?"

no matter what... its jus my suggestions, i also dunno wad's the right way to go... i'm still learning as well... please dun be discouraged or what k? and..... I LOVE UR BLOG!!! haha... cuz we both believe in our God, the Trinitarian ONE!!! May God always Bless you and do his GREAT works through you, for i believe u'll be a wonderful instrument of God...

do scroll down, there's details for the upcoming YISS... i would like to invite you to go for this with me! =)

[keven] I do get your point that many people will be feeling weird for a sudden change like this... but i didnt expect it from you yea? As a catholic, there is always NOT ENUFF of God in our lives... never too much... it is always good to let the Holy Spirit lead and take control of our lives... jus remb, our lives are not our own... but it belongs to Him... our dearest Father in Heaven sent his Beloved Son to die on the cross for us to redeem us from our sinful ways...

anyways... i wanna invite you to the Youth In the Spirit Seminar held at the Catholic Spirituality Centre by the Amplify Ministry... it is for youths 16-35... a 4 days stay-in retreat from 14-17 June 07, fees $40... latest registration: 7th June 07... please also do visit Amplify Ministries for more details...

do think over it and i'll pray for you... don't let money prevent you from experiencing God in this year's YISS... if you have a problem with the $40, i can sponsor u, partially or fully... as long as our hearts are willing, NOTHING will obstruct us... [unless u got army...=(]

please do contact me via msn... pink_sweet_stars@yahoo.com.sg regarding this asap yea?

take care and God Bless everyone!!!

Promoting Conversion Exp Retreat at Holy Spirit Church

2007-06-04T10:06:00.000+08:00

3rd June :: sunday
woke up at like 6.30 today... had to go to Church of the Holy Spirit to promote the Conversion Experience retreat... hahah... but i got no personal exp to share... hmm... so jus prepared a little but didnt use at all... *Dear Lord, please help me gain more courage to make you known to others... Amen...*

but all went well... went for mass with parents (actually planned to go with nic but he's got company so gerry worries not...) the sermon was great and powerful... and i'm the guilty one of them who is unsure abt the Trinity... [the basis of our faith] maybe i didnt believe at all?

and aunty Jacintha's testimony was great! jus tt she's quite soft, some of the congregation's minds were wandering off... but i really salute her for her courage!!! and her testimony realli struck me...

similar to her... i've always been topping the catechism class... but now to realize it, its all jus head knowledge... i think there's no huge experience... other than some small ones i've felt here and there... the comfort i receive when i desperately pray for help when i'm down... also, helping out with the primary catechist and feeling drained... in any case, i realli hope going to the YISS will help... and i kinda look forward to... [yea... i signed up for me and bro andrew at their booth and cooro was so excited... she's cute...]

*dear Lord, please help me to gain confidence in whatever i do... and to trust and rely in You... help me to gain a deeper and more intimate exp and relationship wif You... (nt jus me but the many out there who thirst for u too!) Amen...*

2nd June :: saturday

did nothing except sleep, play, eat and tuition... that's all... feels so so so tired...

1st june growth

2007-06-04T09:54:00.000+08:00

1st june :: friday

whoa~ first june le... today... nothing much... er... i took photo... BAD HAIR... but no choice... cuz... must hurry send my nus form A if not i scared they dun wan gerry =( so yea... not the best face on that photo but great too! [borrowed great yi ling's necklace.. pretty pretty! thanks girl!]

then met uncle andrew at the busstop to go to the centre... and he asked if i've gotten the prize... for familyday... he said its some book torch... then i was like... er... i dun usually read... heh~ lazy... then he went on... "ohh... got another prize, i think its a pillow..." and i was like "its for me!!!" haha... he was jus pulling my leg... darn~ but... yea~ u noe wad i need... =P for once, i shall say u're TALL DARK AND HANDSOME la... =P

then had growth... led by jenny... was ok... i dun think i played well... everythings screwed... and i still cant do flute or organ or brass... er... what the? left strings and padded, which i always screw as well... wad can i play actually? i dunno too =P

*prays* i thought i realli wanna play for You... and If you wish, please help me not to be so anxious and to always rely on ur abundant graces... Amen...

last but nt least... happie bdae shenglong~ God Bless...

CSC family day~

2007-06-04T09:41:00.000+08:00

31st May 07 :: Thursday :: vesakday :: CSC FAMILY DAY!!!

ok its public hol~ and we gotta wakey early to head down to pasir ris park for the CSC Family Day~ so over here... is... a red car with 3 yellow shirties and 1 orange shirties...

Praise the Lord, my dad and sis went as well! woohoo~ though they appeared rather sianded~ we reached at 9.31am!!! haha... not too late... [according to someone, one minute is nt late... great!] but uncle andrew and family was LATE!!! to think he lives in tanah merah~ how can this be? *shakes head* and uncle gav and aunty syl and family even later... but... i guess they had to wakey their darlings that's y... the 3 little pretty princesses and one little handsome prince~

so we had this external grp organising this for us... funfun... the mc is like kinda lame? yea... nice games and all... and uncle CHRIS was entertaining the whole wide world (us) ~

so for the orange team [who eventually came in last, under uncle andrew's GOOD directing... heh] yea... he was our team leader? TALL DARK AND HANDSOME? heh~ mostimptly, THICKSKINNED!!! =P and his own speck of lameness [eh... 10.30am alrdy, can choose bus lane?] hullo~ telematch lanes we talking abt here la... =P

so a day of funfunfun it was also tiring~ went home and slp and slp and slp and had tuition at 7pm... yawns!!! and yea... YELLOW team came in first.... all with the help of the ORANGE team!!! cuz we won the last round!!! but we were still last anyway... haha~

Thanks dear Lord for this wonderful day where we get to come together and haf fun with each other... Hallelujah~

holy spirit briefing~

2007-06-04T09:35:00.000+08:00

k~ i shall post many different posts today, rather than cluttering them into one single post and making life hard for everyone~

so, first post of today, representing WEDNESDAY 30th May 07 =)

supposed to go to suki sushi with parents to eat. but when i got there and mum called me, she asked me to go to 401 to eat... huh? then she explained tt we nt meeting anymore~ and i supposed to go to 401 to eat then meet her for meeting... er? but she never tell me that dinner cancelled??? -feels cheated- and she blamed on me that i never answer her calls... [cant msg meh??? hmm]

sho i called nic and went ahead to 401... cuz he confirmed tt we gotta go meeting too... =P i didn hear anything abt this? hmm... *better go dig ears*

so we went ahead to the meeting/briefing thats presented by uncle andrew [cracking all the aunties up with his lameness~] and i wonder who ate nicholas' extra pau which he wanted to present to someone hungry~ [chances are, i think he ate it up!]

so after the briefing, i was jus trying to be concern abt friday's growth and i didn't think that i deserved some kind of treatment i got from someone... i dun think it was particularly nice to jus intimidate me when i already am having doubts about how i can even play decently and let God lead... [gerry... i tell you... there is no such thing as a difficult or challenging song... it is the Holy Spirit who works through you... Not your own ability... but God who works... ] i felt so insulted... i'm playing for my own glory? u dun even know a single thing i'm thinking... how can u insult me like this??? and i thought that it was exceptionally rude when you talk to others with your finger pointing pointing... pls keep ur finger to yourself... i'm glad when others try to share their experience with me [eg: matt shared with me how it felt like when he experienced God when he was playing for YISS previously.] but sadly, please do not force me to think in the same line as u are... please do NOT think that jus becuz u can let God lead ur life in this way or another, others must let God lead their lives in the same way... to be honest, i do not feel comfortable at all when u're around... i seriously didnt want to turn up for growth tt friday... but i realli didnt want to let God down so i went... i didnt want to let U affect my desire to play for God...

and don't think i'm not hurt at all jus because i nodded and answered "yea, i get it... i'll try to understand that" in that meek little way... i jus am not confident to talk back and i didnt want to be rude or to make the situation there realli tense... so, sometimes when u talk or say something, i would appreciate it if you would think it over first... cuz your words are damn hurting.. and instead of letting others accept you like that, which many have already done... do put in a little more effort to spare a thought for other's feelings... you realli do not know how many people you've hurt... i'm surprised you could say such things on joyce's tagboard... but i hope you'll think about how u do tease others... its realli over the line and causing hurt to someone directly...

i realli do not wish to continue having this feelings for u... but it's definitely difficult when u're doing nothing at all...

*dear Lord, i realli do not wish to dislike this person... i realli wanna live in peace with every single one of ur dear people out here... please do continue to help me to control my temper and in addition, learn to love this person... i pray this in Jesus' name... Amen"

slide show~

2007-05-30T17:50:00.000+08:00

carol's inspirational blog

2007-05-30T17:21:00.000+08:00

heys! i'm back again~ chanced upon carol's blog... [from ajcsb] gosh... her every post is like fill with God's grace... initially i felt tt it was too much to take... cuz she practically linked every SINGLE thing to God... even jaywalking and Narnia... hmm...

but later on, i jus realized that she jus so in love with God... *lousy me* and i felt so encouraged when reading her posts cuz its filled with God's messages... its like an affirmation? many things i've already known and decided... [eg: putting every single thing into God's hand and let his will take place in me] and carol's posts jus affirmed everything... Praise the Lord...

her blog... ONE word... INSPIRATIONAL~

anyway... spent the whole day doing somethings to my blog... add pics, upload pics... haha... i think its more productive then jus playing games and watching dramas... at least i'm making a conscious effort to reflect and blog everyday... if nt... [with this memory of mine] i'll soon forget how i spent my hols! =)

wanted to take photo today!!! passport photo... but~ initially was lazy, then the pimple on my forehead [strategically located] is kinda obvious, then a mosquito bit me on my face... so i'm realli nt sure if i'll take the photo ltr...

i even wore my nice pink top to take photo k! and i must hurry take soon... cuz my send my NUS form A by friday... and i dun wan the pic on my students pass and my tertiary ezlink card to look horrible!!!!!!!!!!

yest, my post was on giving thanks for everything... and when i went home to read the Word Among Us, its the same topic!!! gosh~ i'm so amazed~ it think its God's will~ [starting to not believe in coincidence already... that word is disappearing from my dictionary!]

anyway, take care all!
God Bless~

and Happy Vesak Day... Have a blessed Holiday ahead~

wanna buy labbies too!!!

2007-05-29T17:44:00.000+08:00

oh ya!!! and i was surfing the internet for laptops... i think i'll need one... haha... i like the apple macbook... too bad they dun haf pink... wad abt the sonyvaio? got colour!!! haha... but mostimptly... it must not be too slow!!! i'm easily irritable by slow speed coms!!!!!!!! and gotta be not to ex... [poor student over here!] and lastly... jus like sourcing for keyboards... [MUST BE LIGHT!!!] haha... gerry weak la...] so, if ya got any ideas of wad keyboard or laptop i'll prolly like, pls do tell me yea? =) [i like small and cute things]

byeee~ tc~ God Bless...

Praise the Lord for everything i see around me today!

2007-05-29T16:53:00.000+08:00

yawns... one more hour left to [bang gang!] haha... as usual all day doing nothing... but i think we gonna get into trouble soon... cuz the supervisor like wanna "visit" us see wad we doing~ oops~

for the whole of today, i've been surfing nus websites for the halls of residence thing... dunno wanna apply not!?!?! got tuitions and choir pracs and growths... hmm~
but i realli like King Edward VII Hall~ its like the onli one that appeals to me!!! gosh! and their colour is red... i like! and... its the nearest to the med fac... wow~ God reali works in wondrous ways~ i jus fell for it immediately...

then i wenta check out the clubs thing... and i chanced upon the NUS Catholic Students Society... haha... and i must say... their page is nicely done up... and very motivating... there's cell grps and all too... and weds lunchtime mass... so cooll... and some of them even gather to go for evening mass at the holy cross (i think)... man... that's so encouraging... i jus wanna join them too... any, i joined their yahoo grps first =P but i'm really sad i cant go for their Freshmen Orientation Camp... =( it clashes with the Youth In the Spirit Seminar~ oh wells... i gotta make a choice somehow...

and i was in the bus this morning... then these two ladies sitting infront of me, who dunno each other (cuz never talk at all and alighted at diff stops) both were reading the bible...~!!! firstly, i was impressed that they actually brought their bibles out... so wonderful... and actually read them... i feel horrible now~ so i shall do something~

thanks my dear Daddy in Heaven for all these signs [in the bus... and the NUSCSS website i surfed] that brought me to much realization [once again] that i should do something about my little life now... its too useless at the moment~ =P

for all those busy people out there... please do take care! dun overwork... dun forget to slow down ur pace once in a while to jus admire the beautiful things in your life [tt's been provided by God from above] and most importantly give thanks for it...
[including you my dear, if u're reading]

tata for now! take care!!! and God Bless!!! Praise the Lord~

still working

2007-05-28T12:28:00.000+08:00

heyheyheys~ after all the worries that NO school will want gerry... I've finally received a letter!!! oh great...

[i think my dad's happy too... cuz i will stop asking him everysingle day "eh dee~ got open letterbox not? got my letters not???"]

so, as i still believe, miracles do happen! I actually got into NUS - Nursing~ gosh~ *runs around screaming!!!* well, tt also mean tt i didnt get into medicine... [actually i didnt even get shortlisted for the interview!] but, i'm still excited... i thought i screwed the nursing interview horribly!!! but my dear Daddy in Heaven has his plans... its jus so so amazing how everything always manages to fall in place nicely... how i can get satisfactory grades when i'm so slacky (at least i'm satisfied) and how these grades (though can be much better) are just enough to bring me to where He and I wants me to go...

surely, life is still so uncertain... with all the changes coming ard

[there is only ONE thing that is consistent in life... that is... CHANGES]

yea... and all the application procedures, health checks, registration, orientation... are certainly overwhelming... now i understand what my poly friends had to go thru... when the little me was still enjoying routine jc life... (nt much change from sec sch other than the lecture/tutorial style and lotsa movement)

This time, i'm really gonna study... [i noe i've said this MANY times] but i really am... i dun wanna disappoint myself and put to waste all the opportunities that God has given me... I must succeed... so i can contribute towards the welfare of HIS people...

i dunno if this is the right path... [dunno if i've brave enuff to take all the challenges in healthcare : in other words, all the blood and scary scenes] but since i've been brought to this path, i believe i can walk right through... and hopefully grow thru it...

*take a deep breath* aiya... no need to fear... with my dear DADDY in Heaven helping me, what can go wrong? i'll be brave...

and i think my faith quite WEAK lehz... wad can i do abt it? actually i dunno... haiz... i so lazy also... i hope i can understand and feel the Holy Spirit more... =) oh ya... i think i'm going for YISS... ok... i AM going... cannot say "think"... though i dun feel like going liao!!! but... i must not let the affected by things and thinkings that doesnt lead me to GOD... so me and my wonderful cousin, Andrew are going tgt!

=) thanks for going with me andrew! =)

for those who are still thinking, please jus put ur name down and register... no $40, dun worry... sponsors are coming your way... i dun think anyone will ever regret going for this...

so, its... Youth In the Spirit Seminar :: 14-17 June07 :: 16-35 yr olds :: $40 :: stay-in retreat at csc (i think) :: register early!!!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST... they entended my working contract till end of JUNE... how can that be possible??? we do NOTHING all day... well its another evidence that [miracles DO happen]... and and and... Uncle Andrew is so gonna MOAN and GROAN!!! haha... wait till i tell him this news!!! so fun~

and did i mention... Uncle Justin bought a Yamaha MM6 !!! wheee~ so nice of him!!! it features the sounds from the great MOTIF tt jul has but the sounds not as real leh... so... wad keyboard should i get??? [better get one b4 i spend every single cent i've earned!!! =P]

tata for now... takecare everyone
God Bless!!!

2007-05-21T10:24:00.000+08:00

20th May 2007~

i dunno wad happened and how things are supposed to be... how i'm supposed to be feeling... in short, i'm jus quite lost now... cuz my little life wasnt wad i thought like it wud be... the stuff tt happened, repeated... or maybe i made a wrong choice from the start... but no regrets about anything... jus tt its over... jus a break? i'm nt confident abt anything now... and maybe my latest choice will nv ever be reversable... its a fullstop in ink now and liquid paper doesnt exist... maybe from the beginning, i'm jus a substitute... haha... so bad of me to think this way... but well, at this moment, anything is possible la... (how can it be tt he loved me? 99% impossible? =P)

i shall try not to waste too much water... but at this moment, i'm still soaking up tissues la... *shakes head* conserve water gerry~ *prays* i can do it... mm...

-dull life-

2007-05-09T14:20:00.000+08:00

heyheyhey! i'm back haha... these few days doing all the slackiest stuff... doing nothing except watching shows all day long!!! i've watched so many korean and taiwanese dramas!!! many many many many many... at this moment... still watching... (current drama: Magicians of Love) ... hey people! got other nice dramas pls tell me too =)

jus done my Standard first aid... haha... now i'm a certified first aider... but still feeling timid... haha... hope that when i realli need to do what i need to do, i wun panic... =P

then... for the Uni posting... er... not quite positive.. at the moment only went for the nus nursing interview... and i don't think i did well...so... yea...

was jus thinking yest... i think i'm so dead, i cant find any single speck confidence =(... *prays* i hope that i realli can do what i wanna do well... =S realli dunno what i'm actually capable of doing le... =P oh well =) i hope things gets better...

anyway... *prays* for my students and sister's exams... and all those having exams...

also pray for everyone's petitions =) wheee!!! till then... =)

=( sad pay

2007-03-16T14:16:00.000+08:00

so much work, so little pay! i wanna jus quit and say gdbye!

at $6/hr... we are working the job of $1500 a month... hmm... how logical? though we dun get as much emails... but they get $$$ for OT? and the horrible company still wanna save on our OT fee, dun let us do OT... in anycase, i will NOT do OT for the $$$... cuz... at $9 per hr, its still horribly miserable......

This statement states how miserable my pay is :
I earn more teaching tuition than working here... how abt that? sighs... where got pple earn $6per hr (except us) to answer phone calls and reply emails... like LOADS. hmm... the grass is greener everywhere else... the grass here is brown...

the pics here are realli nice... gosh~ *in awe*
http://www.flickr.com/photos/7302819@N05/422211908/
*wonders* how can one take such pretty photos?

anyway, tc and God Bless to all =)
=) tata! gerry=)

2007-02-16T23:09:00.000+08:00

today is fri... cny's coming... had company lunch buffet today... cool stuff... eat till bao2bao3 de! =) then afterwork as usual, uncle andrew so nice to fetch me =) haha... [but he keep suanning me!] then during "ministering" friday, my mass orders are like all over the place... wrong chords and all... I'm sorry dear daddy in heaven, i noe not what i'm doing... happy chinese new yr everyone =) its a funfun weekend coming up... and loads of luck for all the angbao collection! and tc, nt to fall sick... =)

sometimes i jus think tt i talk too much... so for the people ard me who are constantly feeling irritated and suffering from severe hearing problems as a result of my excessive noise, i'm sorry... i will try to cut down, and i'm serious =)

i'm confused... it started with...
(1) gosh gosh gosh~ so many things happened today! jus cant wait to tell you...
(2) so i asked if u wanna talk; u said u were going out
(mistake number 1) i said i'm on my way home and tired (shldnt haf said tt cuz i'm actually prompting u to call... my mistake)
(3) u called and i went on and on and on... non stop... occassionally asking about ur day... you spoke little
(mistake number 2) i took it forgranted and continued ranting about my day...
(4) i sensed the lack of interest (in you, towards my talk)
(5) the more i talked, the worse i felt...
(6) is it necessary to tell u all these things? to sucha busy and tired person... who's not interested?
(7) probably not...
(8) and where are we heading? with this lack of communication and understanding?
(9) there, this URGENT call sent by God above...
(10) and most imptly, u said talk ltr...
(11) alright... it'll be good, so both you and I wont be suffering... U dun haf to hear me talk crap... and I dun have to feel the pain of making u listen to my crap...
(mistake number 3) i hung up rudely (my mistake)
(12) u messaged quite quickly...
(mistake number 4) but all i thought was " if i didnt hang up like this, this message will probably be coming only 2 hrs ltr... after u've done everything else."
(13) I wanted to reply " so what? no comments" but i didnt want to... I composed a normal reply... hoping tt u'll jus let me die peacefully...
(14) and all i got was well, u're actually VERY unhappy that i'm upset over little things... and i couldnt die in peace...
(15) i feel like the biggest fool on planet earth staring at my phone, waiting for replies...
(16) i dunno why i ever did the things i do for u...
(17) i told myself never to talk excessively anymore...
(18) i'm sorry for being upset... but i was upset wif myself... nt exactly u...

no matter what, i jus feel that....... i'd prolly need attention... and if u're unable to provide... then... i dunno... u're so busy with everything else anyway... nights

haha... blogging again!

2007-02-15T11:15:00.000+08:00

wheee! i'm back... haha... typed like 2 para jus now... then my supervisor come and ask me change com... then i can't say "let me finish blogging first can?" right??? so i jus say... okok... tt one nevermind one.. jus close... *heart shatters*

so anyways... was saying that i'm back blogging again....... so u can jus imagine jus how BORING working is... i WAS(past tense) working at granton singapore, doing door-to-door sales... tough and tiring and NO PAY! so i QUIT!!! after 1 week... then now here at moduslink... again with my dear Yi Ling.. haha! this is like so NEAR her house can? UNFAIR!!! so anyway, we worked at the uic office (rented space) initally kena do the admin tools... to put it simply, data entry... haha... then we are like SO EFFICIENT! and so he ask us to come at 10am (instead of 9am) so cheat our $$$ =( ... but God has his plans =) Hallelujah! so here I am, transferred back to the main office... now answering calls... in a call centre... haha... got Australian customers strong in accent! (then dunno wth they talking about... jus try to catch keywords)... and Singaporean customers full of complains! so typical right? haha... but the good thing is!!!!! (1) my dear yi ling is here as well!!! (2) i get to start work at 9am... so tt means more money again! yay! (3) its good experience la...

yeps... haha... lalala... many interesting stories while answering calls... customers who jus scold us for NO REASONS!!! jus becuz microsoft or acer or whatever ask them to call this number and that number and push them here and there... then they angry wif US? like its our fault? then so cant find COA number also scold us.. haha!

this lady even scold me after she FINALLY found the COA number... she scolded "and you said its 14 digits!?!?! *counts... 9+5=...14...* " and she jus kept quiet after that can!!! haha

and there's this australian who said " i cant understand you at all.. your accent is jus too strong..." diao~ haha

anyway... valentine's day was yesterday! haha... i hope everyone was happy!!! yea... had choir yest... and i decided to jus get chocos for everione in choir... and not bad.. i get to noe a few more names... *i regret not noeing their names earlier...* haha... and i'm certainly glad tt i'd made them happier =) yeps... i was like thinking if i shld get chocos for ALL choir people... then i went to read the Word among us... and it kinda jus says that we shld spread God's love to the people around us & i jus felt tt this is the chance to do so... my dear daddy in heaven has his plans... so i bought the chocos... and wrote the notes... actually had no time to write... but my dear fren (yi ling) offered to help me cut the hearts... (see another of God's angels sent to me)... and the last prob, while writing... i was afraid if the ferrero rochers are enough for all... so i asked gus to help me buy if possible... and though he didn manage to get it... (which is part of my dear daddy in heaven's plans)... i actually had enuff choco to go around... so... HENG he never buy the chocos if not waste more $$$ =)

wa... I LOVE my dear daDdy in Heaven so much... =) heehee...

that's all for now... Have a GREAT day everyone! =) and takecare all! and I pray tt my dear daddy in heaven plus all ur cute little guardian angels will protect and keep all of u safe today =)

chinese new yr coming! all prepare your angbaos huh! i will be visiting soon!!! haha

i'm back =)

2006-11-25T01:10:00.000+08:00

heyaz! i'm back in civilisation!!! haha... sry for not blogging for so long! hee... think no one read too... lalala... anyway, today realli made me wanna blog! haha... great things happened...

firstly, i had a dream last night... i dreamt tt my grandma and another guy (which i think is my greatgrandpa) died... but i totally didnt see the coffin or what at all... jus round tables with chairs and bright lights... many people sitting around talking... seems like a funeral... but... i dunno... and to cut the story short, while travelling (by foot) to my grandma's funeral from my greatgrandpa's, I was crying like shit! like i always do... out of fear, sadness and uncertainty... yea... on the way there, i saw my greatgrandma standing by the side! and i hugged her and cried!!! she was "fleshy" and strong... she comforted me... asked me nt to cry... *sobs*

u noe, she was so weak b4 she passed away... she was in assisi hospice... she didnt actually become thin but her fats all kinda dissolved and left her skin heavy and flabby... she looked smaller... it was a total heartache looking at her... the last few days when she could eat no more... and my uncle... forced food into her mouth... =( something overwhelmed me... i dunno its the forces of good or evil... i wanna say all this things are God's will... but its an bad action on my part that i cant say its God's will... cuz its bad... "God" and "bad" are parallel lines, they dont intersect... anyway, i was overwhelmed... i actually scolded my uncle... "stop it! cant u see that she cant eat anymore? wad u trying to do?........" before i could finish, i started crying and ran out... and of course, i got scolded by my parents for being rude!!! all those days leading to her last days... the only feeling i had for them (uncle, aunty-in-law, and aunty) were digust!!! they didnt respect my family... they didnt respect me! although they are my dad's biological elder siblings, pls do not forget!!! your mum gave him to her eldest sis, that is my grandma... and i would NEVER call anyone else grandma!!! especially not HER! give us some respect! afterall, my dad is now at a higher rank than you!!! he is the eldest son of the eldest daughter of my greatgranny... no more the third son of the youngest daughter of my greatgranny! these disgusting people... met the doctor without our knowledge and got the feeding tube removed... on the basis that they felt so in pain that she had the tube on... (comeon! a pri sch kid can come up with a better excuse!) and they didnt even inform us that they transferred my greatgranny to the hospice... my parents went to visit her, only to find her gone...!!! after i knew she was at the hospice... i visited her almost everyday... jus go there and do hw... though i noe tt prelims was here... she was much more impt than prelims k... and one fine day!!! she went missing!!! i didnt noe what happened!!! i tot she had left me... until i ran to the counter to ask the nurse... and found out they took her home... [do you know how much you are hurting her? its painful for her to be dragged up and down the wheel chair by you all... and are you respecting ME? i come to visit her everyday... and need you not give an account??? is my greatgranny YOURS? no way!!! never!!! and dont try to tell me that she is crying that she wants to go home!!! i use half my braincell to think, also can tell you tt she will NOT remb ever going out!!! and we all know her kampung house has been demolished... NEVER EVER tell me you are bring her home to look after... cuz when MY family offered to, you said we were not professional enough... and none of them are professional enough... and so, what makes YOU professional enough overnight?] ='( dun forget my greatgranny's health deterioriated after falling down at YOUR HOUSE! i'm nt trying to push the blame to you... but you still owe us an explanation dont you? ='(

anyway, my greatgranny jus stopped eating... she could eat no more... her throat was too narrow... [and i realli want everyone to know that a feeding tube is realli impt, cuz if you use the stupid excuse tt she's in pain and remove it... you are essentially STARVING HER TO DEATH...] and by forcing food down her throat, makes me look at you with even more disgust... so what if you were in a seminary before? so what if you were nearly a priest? so what??? i still look at you with disgust... and because you were nearly a priest... i tot i respected you... but you... let me down totally... from the moment i scolded you... though i felt like i shldnt do it, I didnt realli regret... give me another chance, i will scold you again!!! [and both of you uncle and aunty-in-law] stop smiling to me and ask "eh... the other day u came then cant find greatgranny ah? haha..." i realli feel like slapping you and asking you "is that funny? have you thought about how i would have felt?"

and since i'm on this topic... let me tell you auntie-in-law... how much i actually dislike you... (i shall not hate... i drew a line between dislike and hate!) stop degrading me... saying i'll never do well even i'm when i'm only 11 or 12... cuz i've already showed you i can do well... much better than your son... i'm sorry i realli dun want to compare... but how else can i prove to do i'll do well? i will NEVER forget how u pointed at my pencil and said "you hold ur pencil lidat? how are you going to do well in exams?" and how u tried to break my family up...

anyway... in my dream... my greatgranny was strong and healthy and fat again... her fleshiness felt good... she could walk =) she talked to me... and she could climb the high stairs... wow!!! i dunno if this is a good dream or not... cuz got funeral... but the funeral part is so insignificant to the short greatgranny part... i felt so happy and i felt like she's been well looked after! its so great... Thankew dear Father in Heaven! I knew you would take much good care of her... much more than we could ever do =)

Then as i said my morning prayer (now also) i jus kept tearing... =) i jus miss her la... she's such a great woman... she's the greatest woman in my world... and i love her... but i noe that letting her go, she'll have a greater life in heaven... [side track: i realli liked gus' poem... it jus totally spelt out what i felt for my greatgranny]

next... we had GROWTH! i miss growth and everyone in st judes... haha... all's well, a bit screwed my flute for Our Father cuz i havent touched the flute thing for soooooo long can? but maddie said it was good... thanx for that encouragment maddie =) but after mass maddie disappeared!!! =( where are you maddie?

and Fr Anthony too soooo long to reappear for the talk that st judes gotta sing another song suddenly... wahhh! scared my little soul! haha... its Thank You For The Cross... the older one... haha... which was meant for after the talk! =) but i jus got a little courage which i dunno came from where and played first key... i tot it was ok =) though cud have been better, if i was more familiar wif it... then the ending song... Father I Thank You... 3/4 haha... through the talk i was thinking whether to take first or second key... thinks thinks thinks... 2nd key can play flute... hee... but first... only if i can play the scale once and hear out my notes, but there was certainly no time for it... i was joyful when dear joyce said i'll start... whoa! budden her guitar suddenly crash and i gotta start.. i cant possible as andrew or uncle ced to start right??? but as i about to start, i forgot the tune... [cuz i naughty... i relaxed when joyce said she playing then i forgot the tune...] esp when stressed... worse! haha... i cudnt get the correct notes, so, the best of all solutions tt i can think of at tt time, i played E........B.......E....... E.......E......E.....E.....E......E......... and aunty sharen didnt start... so the whole aud was silent (i felt) and there's onli me! wahhh!!! so in the midst of my Esssss... i jus asked aunty sharen to come in,in the midst of Es... and she did =) thankew!!! aunty Sharen's so sweet she came to thank me first... but i had to say "sry sry its screwed" she's so encouraging =) i love st judes =)

It was so screwed, i tot i'd die! but no! i had this peaceful feeling within me... Its so amazing... I felt like " eh... now that i've been thru this, nothing can be worse!" and i felt courage... Definitely, its the work of God... True enough... if we were to sit down and think... no matter how bad anything is, it is always good... it is God's will... and no matter how hard or long i think about "1st key or 2nd key?" God has already decided for me... as the guitar crashed, there's no way for me to take 2nd key and start wif flute... Praise the Lord... Love you!!!

Thanks to joyce too!!! who quickly fixed that naughty guitar and joined us!!! and taught me about 3/4 timing... haha... its too unfamiliar to me... haha... though i noe 3/4 quite well, but it isnt easy playing out! haha... but now, i'll keep remembering joyce's strumming... =)can help me focus... if nt i'll keep tending to go back to 4/4 haha!!! i'm easily distracted =)

then i came back home and tell my mummy abt it... and she was like "wa... is it? but not your fault what? they dunno u not supposed to play first key meh?" and i got quite pissed! cuz a bit insulting... (i felt) that's nt the main point... and st judes pple are NOT like that!!! they appreciates and they understands... dun be shallow mummy! so i didnt want to tell her about my thoughts abt God's will after that... jus couldnt bring myself to tell her after arguing wif her that st judes is definitely not any other church grps u see out there where individuals do things for their own glory... i love st judes! thanx for encouraging and nurturing me =)

tt's all today... I'm sorry dear God that i talked bad things about my relatives... I am trying to forget... and i hope that typing out, i will forget easier... cuz i realli am fewling better now... and i will try not to bring this up again... do take care of all my greatgrannies!!! and my grandpa! =) plsplspls =) AMEN =)

peace out everyone!

2006-07-18T10:33:00.000+08:00

hmm... many many have been reading gerry's bloggie... thanx for all ya concern! sry for ani worries~ aha... now gonna replace that sad blog... wif this one! haha... i'm alrite le la... the rainbow's up again! but no time to blog cuz sch work's crazy!

today mc ma~ sunday high fever, so, got 2 days mc... poor gerry! haha... budden got mummy and meimei and daddy to care for me... heehee... *lil gal*

okok... i'm quite ok le... other than i cant realli taste... and still fewl giddy and pukey! yucks!!!

=) take care everyone! God loves all of u!!! gerry too! =)

2006-06-19T00:18:00.000+08:00

haha... jus reached home from church and had dinner... today is corpus christi... so there's procession and all... yups...
then yesterday is yi ling's bdae!!! whooo! happie bdae gurl... glad she like the shirt i chose... was kinda worried she wun like it initially... aha... lala... then stayed at her place for 4 days... and helped a bit for the preparation thinggi... but i veri slacker one! wheee! haha... then we mugged hard and played hard... haha... was realli fun sia... lalala... but like quite horrible to like keep disturbing her family! whahaha...

so today daddy came to fetch me... like its fathers' day... but NO excuse to be 45 mins late!
goodness... poor me and yi ling sit outside her hse for like SO long! oh goodness... then he say sis sick and all... and mummy scolding her to go to church... then sis also called me on my hp and cried buckets... cried so horribly la... say mummy scold her... she dun wanna go... etc! wa seh... i cud almost fewl her headache la... fever still cry until lidat...

i fewl tt my mummy veri unfewling la... prioritise on the wrong things... haiz... wanted to call my mum to say her! but i scared she scold my sis even more... so i didnt... was even ready to gif up going to yi ling's place to study this week la... cuz if i say her, high chance of being grounded... but see my meimei so poorthing... haiz... oh well... so i was so pissed...

anyway... sis didn go church in the end... me and dad reach st anne's late... and my mum... dunno wad she doing... late liao still go to csc... dunno wanna say her dumb or wad... walk to st anne's also sure late... some more go csc... say she got duty... then always emphasize that mass is more impt than everything else... now tell me, isnt this a contridiction? jus becuz the celebrant at csc is his grace, our archbishop nicholas chia? i realli wonder... then ended so late, me and dad waited for 1 hr! and i'm so tired and hungry and she didn answer my calls? then when she finally did i was like "where are u now? at csc? can go already not? we wait for 1 hr liao ok!" then she still can tell me " ohh... now we singing song for fr william goh's bdae leh... then later i must distrubute food... aiya... u all go first la... go first la..." say until like so nt happie lidat.

so me and dad wenta buy kwayteow wif soup for sis... reach home, woke her up, help her pour into a bowl, she eat one third, mum calls to ask if we want anymore food, she say she havent eat... then sis stop eating and went to take a bit of rice to eat... mum came back, stupid attitude... tells sis to go and bathe, say me cuz i put tissues on the table... but i watching tv, going back to continue eating... mum jus sat there and eat the kwayteow... and i saw sis washing the bowl... so i asked mum " y u make sis wash the bowl?" then she say me " which eye saw me using that bowl?" oops... my mistake... but i still veri pissed, asked sis to eat my hokkien mee cuz i cant finish... then she jus gobbled up the noodles... lasttime she always say dunwan... but i'm worried she's still hungry and i think she is... so stupid... then i damn pissed la... ask her " u still hungry nt?" and she said no... then i raised my voice and ask " are u sure? stop bluffing ok... dun so stupid... y dun go eat ur kwayteow?" and sis say me back "y u lidat one?"

yea... y i lidat one? i also dunno... haf a bad attitude? rude to my mum? gets pissed easily... bad control over my own temper? jus sucked? yea! all are right! i'm jus horrible and evil... but think... most imptly, i'm dumb!!! i always side her... always support her... no matter wad i may get from it... and always get cheated... *sobs* she jus turns her back on me and say "y u lidat one" i jus keeps falling for it... blind...
haiz...

cant blame anione... only myself... realli bad attitude... cant stand myself... then now crying and all... cant get down to studying... and they keep thinking that they're providing me the BEST study environment... *pui* like THANKS!

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updating on last week...

my greatgrandma stayed at my place for like 1 mth liao... they brought her here with the excuse of drawing money... dunno wad progress package thing... bluff her tt stay at my place more convenient and all... ya right! then mummy ask them dun bluff her, and they say " nevermind one, she wun remember one..." they keep asking us to be patient and to tolerate... and i fewl like slapping her... cuz we never once said it was difficult... if u all dun want her... stop trying to sound like u're the GREAT one... i so dispise u all...

yes... my greatgranny is kinda senile... can ask me one qn 10 times a day.. and argues that she's right... haha... but after repeating many times that i'm in grade 11... she came to me one fine day and asked me to study hard and all cuz grade 11 nt easy... and stuff... and mind u... that day, i havent told her a single time i'm in grade 11... lets see who's the senile and dumb one?

dunno y they wanna bring her back... since they dun want to...? then she'll slp with the maid... more convenient... and the 4 children at home speaks NO chinese... onli ENGLISH... on ENGLISH shows!!! [my greatgranny told me they on the english shows she dun like... see she can remember ok!] then how to communicate wif her... i mean... even if they can speak teochew, i doubt they will talk to her... jus look at the way they are brought up... and btw, my greatgranny speaks nt even chinese... only teochew k! heard these from my grandma... and heard that they contemplating to rent a 1 rm flat for her so she wun think too much...

if this is so, i'm going to stop my studies immediately, get a job and move in wif her... think my mum's great, always spend hours talking to her... my dad... er... dun wanna tok to her... though he's quite concern when my greatgranny fewls uncomfortable... and my grandparents, looking after her... though they always scold her... my greatgranny is realli stubborn... haha...

but my mum... haiz... refuses to call her to talk to her when i asked her too... cuz she too hate that family liao... but... jus for my greatgranny, is 30secs on the phone wif them, say hi, ask them to pass the phone veri hard? sucks la...

that day they brought her back, i cried for hours... cuz

i didnt want her to go...
my grandparents want...
my parents are doing nothing
i'm doing nothing...
i fewl so helpless and weak!
and imptly, my greatgranny doesnt want to go...

according to my sis, minutes b4 they reached to pick her up,

greatgranny: where am i going?
grandpa: going to ur youngest daughter's place la... u want to go one wad, right?
greatgranny: do i haf a choice?

so sad...

for those pple out there... i seriously think u all suck... being her daughter and being so money minded... the others, being so educated... for using STUPID excuses... think we stupid ah? and i'm losing my respect for u... supposedly catechist? these are the things u tell us? say my grandma shld do her part? these few yrs greatgranny haf been staying wif my grandaunt tt's y?

have u all thought that for many years... b4 she was staying wif my grandaunt, she was all the while staying wif my grandma? haf a not??? use ur planet brain la... my grandma... wad she did... forgo studies... go work and babysit... earn money for u all to study! haf a not??? nt say my grandma did a lot or wad... or that greatgranny shldnt be at our hse... jus trying to say that stop giving the excuse that my grandma didn do her part... jus to make urself fewl better?

all u all are doing is jus making me fewl u all are losers... playing on her illness... thinks she cant remb... keep bluffing her... i tell u solemnly! SHE NOES!!! u all are the senile ones... and we (me and my greatgranny) are showing u the L signs on our foreheads... pointing at U! yes u!

i jus pray that u all will nt live to regret all u did or didnt do... jus dun land in the poor state she's in now... hope tt u will nt be left alone when u're old... which is wad u all are doing now... nt sure if i mistaken u all or not... if i do, i'm sorry... [i used to WISH u all wud be in the same sorry state as she is when u all are old!... but after having calmed down, i think i shld nt... this is nt right... and i fewl guilty for having thought this way... i'm sorry]...

in anyways, i will regret all that i have nt done for her... i'm so weak... maybe there's nothing i can do... maybe i cud do something... but i did not... haiz... i'm sry... i will try to do smthing...

Lord pls help guild me... i'm quite lost now... and i'm sorry for the horrible things i have ever thought...

gd nite all! [happie bdae kah hwee] takecare everyone!!! God Bless u all...

u: thanx for everything... pls do takecare... and dun worry... i'm alrite =)

2006-03-30T19:33:00.000+08:00

ok... veri long never post le... sorry for those who always come and see no new post... heehee=) well, school's have been ok...other than the never ending hw... i noe a's coming... but still got a lot of concepts dun understand... oh wells... haha... still having loads of band... fun la! =)

today never go school... sore eyes... yest also... today wenta see my uncle the doc... he veri nice la... then got this trainee doc in his rm... haha... make me fewl so weird... yea... at the same time make me think... wa... will i ever get to be a trainee at least? heehee...

so, these 2 days kept doing hw? haha... yea... though a bit unproductive... sian... dunno how... see the pile of notes i freaked out... *runs away and hide* evil monster go away!!!

tc everyone... peace out! =) God Bless!

2006-01-08T11:56:00.000+08:00

alrites man... havent been blogging for some time... heehee. the whole first week of skl is like killing me la... had to pia hw everyday (becuz i didn't do much in the hols)... children out there... dun follow this horrible attitude towards hw k! haha...

now, going into the 2nd week of sch. seems like time flies so fast... *yawns* i'm forever sleepy... oh wells. had band and stuff in skl too... 2 times a week =) overall, school's alrite i guess =) haha...

oh ya... and AJ's principal rox (she was CEDAR's principal) heehee... then the first dae of school i was so NOT use to be called a J2 la... haha... got announcements to the J2s then i jus ignored lor... till i realised that they were addressing us! wahah! oops... =)

yea~ lets survive 2nd week tgt... school can be fun!

gerry hols

2005-12-20T18:12:00.000+08:00

heyaz!!! realli very long never update le... sorry wors...
kinda busy... had this concert wif hwachong jc... noel concert... that was on 17th dec... at their auditorium... fun fun... had loads of fun pracitising wif them... will nv forget them... ohh.. saw chennee at the concert... wheee! so fun... she grew so pretty eh! couldnt recognise!!! haha=)

and had wasbe... ok la... quite fun too... but nthing compared to noel concert... lalala... combined schools, met kelly there... same band... sparke band rox... found out tt brendan goes to csc too... actually he found out first... lalala... small world... (well, 2nd esplanade performance... yups)

had sl projects too... quite successful... i love my class... sry for those comments the other day... but i think u all still rocked!!! realli... cant have better classmates than u all! =) thankew for all the support and all ur help!!! definitely!!!

then now, all kinda over... but still got stuff on ... like christmas pageant... lalal... props a lil screwed (by me) hee hee... and got the party at leng's hse... *excited* finally got party near my hse!!! and i can have fun wif the AJ and hc pple =) yups... leng rox...

back to face the stupid school system... (hw~~~) i havent touched... really nt looking forward to sch reopening... though i miss my frens loads! but i really dun wanna die of failure to complete assignments! no amt of excuses will save me la! oops...

haha... tc.. everyone! enjoy wadeva's left of ur hols... cya all soon...

gerry =)

i'm back!!!

2005-11-15T16:36:00.000+08:00

wheee~~~ i'm finally back.. survived term 4... survived promos... survived chinese AO... survived Oral Presentation... practically survived the whole Project work!!! *phew* I should jus go join survival!!! if not its sucha waste of my talent!!! bleah! haha

haven't been back to choir prac VERY long liao... i noe... going back =)
and drama... haiz... i fewl so bad... every since uncle nicholas came to help... i really took a back seat la... every day passed so quickly... and i everyday no time to write script... every sat i will panic... oops...

now i'm fewling better=) mapling frequently!!! and no more drama for the yr...

other than still got sl project =)
but i love the children la!!! =) looks forward to 29th nov... serene is a great partner... sho hardworking =)

holidays come wif hw~!!! so, got loads... but i havent touched...
see... my summary nt bad... use so little words =) every sentence gif me points=) wellwellwell, i'm crapping again...

hols... but i nt free too =)
got class chalet 21st nov =) r0ck5 rox!!!
got combined band (for christmas concert) wif hwachong institution (hope its fun=))
got wasbe... (intensive... so, nt too interested)
got playing wif children[fun wif games on 29th nov] though the planning stage now very tiring ah...
got christmas party wif the same children=)

funfunfun... got homework... *falls asleep*

looks like *whispers*homework*whispers* is the magic word to sleepiness!!!

as u all have seen... i'm still as crappy and stuff.......

everyday=happyday =)

takecare everyone!!!
happie bdae joyce
happie bdae maddie last week...
happie bdae darren yest...
happie bdae qihao yest's yest =)

happyday =)

Promos are coming!!!

2005-09-30T00:51:00.000+08:00

okok... so, promos will be here like... hmm... nxt week? i have been doing really last minute mugging since last week (2 weeks b4 promos) which is bad... falling back into the situation of lack of time... which i dun like... bleah... staying late in school for like the past 1 week plus... fewl that my no-life-ness has once again appeared! *welcum back* yucks... and yest... reached cp at like... hmm... 9? *yawns yawns* head off to buy cake... chosen by biwei... he wants black forest...[biwei: look... i take ya suggestion seriously wor =)]

so today (290905) celebrated bdaes... in school... and thanx 0505 for that GREAT participation k? which made everyone fewl so APPRECIATED... or at least, made me fewl DAMN APPRECIATED...

the list goes...
must thank the people who turn up for tolerating my bad-mood-ness... thanx =)
thanx to biwei, xiaodi and keith... cuz its for ya all that we all gather tgt to celebrate...
thanx to keith and sky who even though in 04 and 01 respectively... but heart still wif us huh... come join us =)
thanx to teckie... cuz i noe this thinggi prolly upsetted ur schedule... but nevertheless, u stayed most willingly...
oh... and thanx biwei... who's schedule is prolly as tight as teckie's
thanx srn snowie nutnut qq xianxian sl aaron yaoyu yanshen for turning up... and made time for 0505
esp thanx to aaron who took time off frm his date to join us... wei3da4 nehz~
thanx to snowie who walked round the canteen wif me... it made me realise a lot of things... including the fact that the canteen really very SMALL!!!
thanx to teckie for the stuff you said...
thanx to teckie and srn for finishing everything... =) [wasting food is a sin]

thanx to liming, ishita and sanjeet who tried to come (i hope) but couldnt...
thanx for the loads who disappeared... for its cuz of u all that we need not fight over puny pieces of cake...
thanx to 05... for making me realise that we really r0ck5... meaning, we have totally inherited the characteristics of a rock... so unfewling... the 05 i love...

the pple = (first 3 mths r0ck5) - the scholars

i'm nt like trying to ostracise u all or wad... but have u all made an effort to enjoy ourselves tgt?
must we like beg u all to attend ur OWN BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION?

i did all this to try to bond 05 tgt la... we celebrate bdaes tgt... show that every single one of u all are impt!!! but looks like u all dun seem to care or be bothered bout it la... so, jus leave it lor... 05 can jus go on like that... it is you all who are at a disadvantage la... then u all jus continue to isolate urself lor...

quote of the day : why must i care about u all when u urself dun care bout urself!!!

like i care~

2005-06-23T11:45:00.000+08:00

gerry finally started studing!!! wheee~ *jumps ard* =) hee hee~ everyone jiayou kiez =)

only for myself

2005-06-22T20:35:00.000+08:00

mm... i have nthing for myself... so, shall be like nice to myself and like BLOG? mm... i dunno wad i live for... doesn't seem to be for myself either... when my sis is ard... i have a job... to entertain her? answer her qns... help her in hw... all my life i've been doing that... the whole world is taking it forgranted... the other say sis jus said i have to help her in her homework... blah blah blah... but i tell her... "but no one help me~" to her... i'm different... though she herself cannot explain... to them... its like it is MY JOB... my work scope is quite large arh... needa coach her in piano too... then now she's playing and i cant be bothered... jus shout "cannot la... lidat how to play tmr?" cuz she must play in piano lesson tmr... then i keep telling her to slow down... then she keep saying cannot... so... wad am i going to do??? i really baogaoliao... even help her type npcc farewell script... they gotta perform ma~ and help her find songs needed in the script and everything... help her deal wif her classmate who refuse to cooperate... (scold her classmate la~ shuang...) ya...

i live for my sis... almost everything is i help her do one... last time (very young tt time...) we always joke... i go hospital wif her cuz i can remb her bc number... she herself cannot...

for my mum... i noe i've been kinda lazy... always is my sis help her hang clothes and accompany her go kitchen cook stuff... and i seldom tok to my mum de... to me... its like... nthing to tok ba~ ltr will explain how come... she keep thinking that i'm supposed to help my sis... i told her liao but... she keep saying "try to help her huh... she quite slow arh..." make until i bobian have to help her la... if nt will guilty...

i live for my mum... listen to her and help my sis and stuff... she WANT (not ask) me to breakup i also gotta do so... no choice...

my dad... haiz... his $$ always disappear... dunno y... always change job... (as usual)... budden... i also dun care so much le... the allowance i get is like... so little la~ everytime ask $$ from him he like so hard to give... until i dun wan ask le... these few mths is get from mum though she work part time... dad got full time work $$ dunno go where... and all the bills like nv pay? electrical bills is mummy pay de... phone bill is he suppose to pay de... that's y always kena cut... anyone who looking for gerry... if cant get thru, man~ jus get used to it... i mean, u'll get used to it sooner or later... its like so USUAL... and hp always kena cut? he quite materialistic la... then always wan new phone and everything... he owe m1 like $400+? under mummy's name... and many others... my phone is like 3rd hand? 1st my dad then pass to my sis then me... but its ok to me... but i dare nt ask so much... i wait for the price of the phone i wan to drop till like below $50? quite impossible... but i continue to wait...wait so much until years seems like nthing to me... haiz... so... make until i really dun wanna continue my piano... *cries* so pressurising... its like... everytime i feel so cmi... nxt yr july taking my last exam le... and if i fail my mum wan me to take until i pass... then got cert... but its so hard to get $$ frm my dad every mth... esp when piano so ex... its like must succeed CANNOT FAIL! yest his hp kena cut off... then he ask me go sign line for him at m1...

i live for my dad... esp when i'm 16... i'm more useful... i can sign line for him when ever his line kena cut... but m1 say under 21 only can have one line... i already use to sign one line le... mm... i think when i 21 then i more useful... then can sign more lines... then he got more alternatives... sign finish m1 then sign singtel huh... haiz...

well, last time there was someone i cuz tok to but now cannot le... cuz i think i fan2 pple too much liao... (i ownself noe...) so, its ok... i can tok to myself... jus a lil crazier... mm...

last sunday got some gathering... and i see A LOT.. haiz... my mum really thinks that priests are MORE IMPT than any other of the family member... then my aunt? ask my granduncle to go to nxt door (my grandaunt's hse) cuz her frens coming? and cuz my granduncle drunk la... then they all tok to him loudly... so scary... and i jus stood there and cry... nt cuz i scared... but i think they are practically HEARTLESS... all there are like higher rank than me la... i cant scold them wad... then this pt of time i jus shouted la "enuff! stop scolding him!" then i cried la... then they all look at me la... then keep saying... aiya... he is lidat one... he dun understand us de... so drunk... then later i coax him to go over to the other hse... then he toked a lot to me... say they dun wan him and stuff... i mean... wadever he's saying, of cuz is in his mind ma... drunkards dun jus say anything!!! they say wad they have been thinking... so poorthing... then i keep urging him to slp... then i got back and tell them that he slp le... and they were like mm... better than nthing... "now!!! wad u mean? dun expect me to convey ur message to him to stay there and all that shit cuz i dun agree wif all u all are doing... so HEARTLESS... where's respect... no matter wad, he's their uncle leh..." then reach home i tell my mum wad i think... of cuz i started badly... i said... "nxt time got gathering i DUN wan to go..." then she pissed... every thing scold me la... think of wad scold wad la... when i wanna start saying, she shoot me back... so, wad conversation is that? THERE WASNT ANY CONVERSATION TO SPEAK OFF IN THE FIRST PLACE... =(

now... haven kinda started studying... and my sis pissing me off... i jus suddenly feel i have nthing to myself... now gotta go and hear her play piano... when i do that, i cannot do other things... which is really time consuming la... ya... and if i dun go... haiz... dunno la... she's like scolding me la... jus now i refuse to wash the plates cuz i hate the soap... it stinks... and she scolded me... i keep tolerating her PMSing... shit... this sucks... only she got the right to scold meh? what am i? anyway, i'm gonna retain... i'm prepared... die then die la... fan3zheng4 i now also cant find any reason which i'm living for myself for... die then die~

hols

2005-06-08T12:42:00.000+08:00

man~ fewls horrible today... though its hols... must be the hw and ivle and upcoming common tests... there's so much to do... that i dunno where to start from... this is so bad! syf's over... concert's over... [concert nt bad la~]

and that concert is over... i begin to miss band... miss those everyday band prac... u all may think i'm mad... but hey! look... most of the others felt the same too k...=) i miss perc... (esp today dunno y... maybe after seeing the pics on laopa's blog) haiz... when i saw those hilarious pics it was like so darn funnie la... they look so retarded! budden it slowly sink in that such days are no more... =( *sobs* man~ i miss perc la... as in whole band? nt tt much... haiz... this one and 1/2 mths... we bonded so much la... supporting each other to go on... every nite perservering... seeing myself improve slowly... comforting each other thru the failures... looking at the process... then going all mad for concert... dun care bout wad we play... [turns out that the syf piece is so much better when we didn't bother much] had fun... then... it ends abruptly... jus lidat... no more band pracs... ever since 22may... i have dis weird fewling in me...

1-3 June... delta camp... fun... my grp rocks... PSI!!! me fated wif jeslyn yet again... =) wheee~ but terribly slack... i personally dislike slack camps... man~ nt much purpose lidat... must got more discipline and stuff ma~ attended conflict management... at first tot it was ok... a very engaging talk... nt boring... but... only tok bout conflict... never tok bout management!!! so, we see the conflict we noe... arhhhhh conflict... but we dunno how to manage... got wad use? u tell me... then played 3 experiential games... haha... ambarish la! bluff us so many times... instructions purposely dun give all... we plan finish le then realise cannot tok... arhhh!!! but the 3rd game... key punch we set record! 16secs... yay~ and did personality test... me is extreme owl... haha... thruout the talk by mr tham me and srn occassionally signalled to each other... haha... must be too bored le...at nite... the floor so hard... cant slp... and got mosquitos... me ply jes' anti mosquito thinggi.. so leg was spared... but poor shujun got loads on her leg... we both woke up at 4 (act is my 3rd time waking up le) then we talked... missed our phones... and annoyed at froggies... or toaddies... and we were like... gosh~ then suddenly silence... and we made a story bout them falling into the sewerage... yay~ or the snake came... hee hee...

2nd day better... though still very slack... too much time to waste... but... pe ran like 9 rounds? (inclding the punishment for reporting late for breakfast) and did all those training stuff... gd for us... haha... even though the punishment a bit demanding... cuz we damn tired after running like 6 rounds then 5 mins to go to our bunks then to canteen really impossible man~ but... its gd... then they make us wash toilets... bleah... unfair... and then we go macs eat... sch only give us $2... eat wad u tell me?... then wenta yishun... student's service centre... which makes me wonder if its the same one as 0505's SL... tt nite watched K19... me always watch submarine will get paranoid... always think the glass window will break... and they will all die inside... so, keep telling jeslyn and xiao qian... gosh gosh... i think they are going to die... look!!! the meter is rising... the pressure so high... gonna break le... then... eh... never... ahhaha~ yeps... nite walk... set off at like 945pm... took bout 45 mins to reach there... pierce reservoir... wa lau... saw pple kissing and stuff la... bleah... *see no evil...* and they damn tou2ru4 leh... bout 90 of us walk pass them they didn care... jus carried on... omg~ then we light candles and wrote NICE (i try la... ) stuff bout each other... and then walk back reached sch at like 12+ or 1... then saw ab pple walking out... gd luck to them! slp at 2 plus... (doing proposal... and "cursing" the guys who prolly forgot bout the proposal and wenta slp... haha...

3rd day too... slacky... pia our proposal... not fair... we got like 5 hrs lesser then them??? then present le... went on well... other than jeslyn say me never answer the teacher's qn to the pt... haha... too bad... haha...~ also, apologies for me sulking at like 11... i'm like desperately trying to get out to join band camp u see... and delta slowly slowly... man~ it gets on my nerves i tell u! so, not too happy... but nevertheless, put on a smile for photos...=)

3-4 June
then rushed to band... only to find out tt my grp's game is over...=( sorry guys and gals... i really wanna be there... but i cant... interview... infront of the whole band... how much worse can it get? plus me nt prepared la... and me went first... so, everything horribly answered... but its ok...=) yeps... then... at nite there's tribute night... buffet... and mad emcees... and powerpoint... and mrtan's performance... man! it all made me cry... mr tan's leaving so sad la... yea~ the powerpt very touching... wahhh~ *wipes tears* though i dun really noe him la...but......

then that nite had nite games... nt bad! haha... yeps...=) welldone peeps... and we didn slp till 3... walked ard... at first help yiling and priscillia do their grp's game... had fun liquid-ing... haha... i can't slp anyway...=) then we buy milo frm the vending machine... or was it hot water... there's no milo in it la~ haha~ me... yiling... priscillia... hmm... i can't remb the guys... jasper... jason... renny... houteng... (was houteng there? can't remb... sry) then played zong1ji2mi4ma3... 0505's fav game... who lose, drink one mouth of milo... opps... shld be... hot water... man~ aj's hotwater so tasty arh~ then play untill ba1xian1guo4hai3... and dooby dooby doob doob... and tell lame jokes... well... our library of lame jokes add up still smaller than jason's mega library... ultra lame la him! wad jokes we say he all hear b4...

morning woke up... hah... heard yiling had a hard time waking me up... haha... xing1ku2ni3le4=) then run like... hmm 2 rounds.. haha.. and play their game... nice... oh... and i havent say hor.. i in frankie's (wad luck) grp... and benjamin... and kenneth lee... and suping... and steffie! only 2 gals... then the game we got so many alphabets! tot we win liao... then frankie say if we nv win he qie1... haha... then in the end we 3rd leh... haha... but he nv qie1... and got student conductor's audition... i think that all those who audited... all did well... they rock... so brave... then continued with interview... then... wenta watch pirates of the carribean... the only think that connect me to the show is the music... i will go... ahhhhh... familiar eh... then i slept like more than 2/3 the show? then wake up is dinner le... slack ard... then back to band rm... excos are... dragon, priscillia, weisheng, suelynn, houteng, deborah, jiexin, sarah... yeps... jiayou le... [haiz... no perc de again... every yr also lidat...] then went home wif tingwei... we both slpt in the bus...

now... hols... do nothing all day... dunno where to start... jus now go thru laopa's blog... =( happie and sad... wenta see ajcsb's photos... even more sad... outta 288 esplanade photos like NONE is perc...??? how exciting... we really always outcasted la... and the j2 excos say until like we outcast ourself (during yiling's interview)... one particular photo... they took at dis nice sofa... and i thought... man... which room huh... why got so nice sofa to sit? then i realise it is the dining rm... [for both meals, we have been sitting on the floor at the door u see... i didn even noe such nice seats existed...] how bonded huh... one band? think again... maybe i'm too sensitive like i do... but maybe u all shld be sensitive to our existance too yea~ try harder ba~ no doubt... i still love band... (that is when i dun think of this topic) haiz... wanna find one perc pic also so hard... only got 2 from esplanade la!

n... *copies frm my msn nick*
gerry :: noala :: r0ck5 :: u fewl like toking to me then come tok to me ba~ :: tired :: i miss ajperc *sobs* ::
*fewls horrible* then wenta see pics... in the end more horrible... if u think i'm toking bout u then i am toking bout u ba~ haiz... seriously... i feel quite tired la... nt trying to hint u or say u or wad la... but i'm really very tired and discouraged of trying to start conversations wif u... its not like we nthing to say... but more of u nowadays like always sound so sian... which to my own understanding is cuz u dun wan tok... so, i guess... y be so hard on myself? make myself feel so horrible after every conversation... so basically... anytime u think u fewl like toking to me, i'm always ready la... [dun wan it be like a ONE-time thing... everytime i show it on my nick(cuz i dun wan tell u straight), then u come say a few words] *confused*

summation of everything that's going on in my mind now ==> massive headache... *cries* better go *hide under blankie and try to slp...* nitex all, btw... if u all got read until here... God Bless... take care=) swt dreamz too=)

2005-05-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

sry bout not blogging for ...... hmmmmm..... really very long! well. busy at skool... band prac everyday... there's concert.... AJ band and co concert... 22th May... esplanade... come come~ haha... well... syf we got silver... to wad we wanted.. *sobs* felt a kinda guilty cuz i played a wrong note... shucks... i estimated wrongly on their vibes... a lil bigger... but i shld have anticipated tt.... shucks... oh well... its over... then school work stressful too... dun understand so many things!!! bleah...............
hahah... okok... tt's all for now... still busy u see..............

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

posting results out soon

2005-03-21T20:07:00.000+08:00

okies everyone...

the time is here AGAIN... posting result is gonna be out soon AGAIN...

the previous one... let me recap... tot i cud at least scrape into VJ... but it was not to be... when i say the 3 words "Anderson Junior College"... i was a bit shock... dunno wad to say... i usually dun cry over wad's happened... so, i didn... but jus shocked... speechless... yeps... later, then wenta see the aj website... found out aj actually not bad... 6th position... *impressed* and btw... due to the hard work of our seniors... aj is actually a top 5 jc le wor~... i think tj and nj dropped... aj... move up!!! wheee... gerry loves all my seniors... always do so well... then reach our year... hmm... drop!!! poor juniors... always cannot use us get half day off... whereas we keep getting halfdays from our ever hardworking seniors... wheee~

went to aj... found out i liked it after all... and tt i'm glad i put aj b4 tj (i dunno y too)... well, i luv aj k... i guess... its jus tt God has a plan for me already... i did not regret getting into AJ instead of VJ... [eg: i didn do well in my O's... so, imagine if i got into VJ at first, how sad and she3bu4de2 i will be? all the changes and new adaptations... ] and all these kewl and nice and fun aj peeps... though the guys in my class are damn freaky... too hardworking le man~ but they really do make me feel like "hmm... i must work harder... "

and now the results gonna be out AGAIN... dunno wad i gonna expect... tmr checking the posting results in skool... hope it'll be fine and stuff... hope no more shock... jus let me stay in AJ.. cuz' if i dun, i'm gonna appeal... asap... Thank God tues got band prac... jus right... for peeps like me if cmi, can hurry go look for our president or teacher in-charge... me prepared to photocopy my O's results slip and go skool tmr... any form to sign, i can hand in immediately le... all ready!!!

then there's orientation 2... so sad i not ogf... wanted to go for the interview... but gave up... for band... so, band better treat me well... hee hee... jking... me wanna go dagda btw... lotsa frens in there!!! i mean, as ogf... like..... hazel... serene... shenglong... darren... eric... wheee~ aint it gd? haha... hazel!!! serene!!! i'm waiting for ya call... hee hee... jking...

hope everyone get to go to where they wanna go... wheee~ God Bless... =)

gerry *waves*

hols

2005-03-18T12:59:00.000+08:00

okok... hols are here... bleah... boring... had band camp... sunday till tues... fun fun... got all those crazy games and stuff... monday got the ogf thinggi... saw serene, tys, teckhao... when i on my way to breakfast after pt... yeps...culdn find hazel nut though... and the rest... but nvm... seeing them soon!!!
on mon... wheee....... then... tmr got band again... *bleah* haha... ok la... i jus gotta accept the numerous band prac tt's gonna come... after all, syf is jus nearby... and we gotta strive hard for it... we need a gold... badly!!! yeps... hmm... and wif hols come hw!!! definite de... trigo not done yet... as usual... bleah bleah bleah... will try to at least do a bit la...

*ponders* y am i crapping so much jus to make u luff? haix...

results

2005-03-01T13:23:00.000+08:00

okie dokies... results out le... of cuz must update everyone on wad's the results la... and dis time... gerry needed loads of self-reflection... cuz' i'm in so much trouble!!! oh no~

yeps... anyway, results are as follows:
~english~ B4
~chinese~ A1
~emaths~ A1
~amaths~ A1
~physics~ A2
~chemistry~ B3
~p.geog~ B3
~ss/hist~ C6

L1R4 is 10
L1R5 is 12

this is a 2 pts drop from prelims of 10 pts...

lets start wif gd news... quite happy english didn get c... i was hoping so hard la... and ss/hist didn fail... though i didn really study... and a miracle happened for chinese... didnt noe how tt A1 come about... really didn put much effort studying...

and oh craps... geog... expected... cuz i wasn't well prepared... all my own fault only... didn study hard enuff... and studied the wrong topics la... those cross-topic thinggi... i can only ans half of each qn... then choose which one also die... so, tried to crap a lil... yeps... B3... hmm... could have been better... or jus at least maintain my usual A2... its not gd to drop...

B3chem... i labelled them "totally screwed up"... how can this happen??? i got study for chem lor... and was studying it like 1 mth b4 lor... but i guess... when nearing the exam date... of cuz study lesser la... like didn noe where to re-revise.. cuz' most read b4 le... found the topics boring le... so, didn put much effort... and u think those stuff i studied like 1 mth b4 still stayed in my mind? well, of cuz will diffuse outta my lil brain la... so, most got reacted wif the air particles and flown away...

A2phys... seriously, expecting an A1 la... was consistently getting A1's for all my tests and stuff la... so, got totally no idea wad happened... well, i guessed is the practical that is worse la... of the 6 points on the graphpaper... 2 lines can be drawn, yet, we only can draw one... so, i chose one outta the 2 possible la... chose wrongly, gradient wrong too... yeps... and of cuz must link back to the point tt i wasnt studying enuff... *boinks own head*

for the 2 maths... expected... if i didn get that, i shld seriously listen to wengyin and her fren's crap... buy a ... then maybe i can follow the instructions in there... and get the correct length of rope... but if my maths is so horrible... i'd prolly buy the wrong length and paid the wrong amt of money too... ~craps~

so, yest... in skool kena scolded la... 4N didn meet their target... whereas everyone else did... yeps... 12 pts... guess i'm bout ard my target la... though i cud have done better... now, i think cedar is in band 2... i guess the whole world must reflect!!! haix... y must it be our batch to pull cedar down from band one??? (can't help but feel *guilty*) *looks down in guilt*

and... atmosphere really bad there lor... everyone was crying!!! haven get the results start crying le... i signing name list my tears start flowing le lor... then called mum and *bleah* all out... cried and cried... and she cry wif me a lil.. haha... she kena scared... then later i told her.. 12 pts la... ok la... then she say "chey... scare me... i tot wad..."... but seriously, i am pleased wif everything except wif myself!!! 12 pts... i'm not doing justice to myself... i feel i've let myself down... let cedar down... (though not let my parents down... they dunno how happy wif 12 arh...)

so, i'll be staying in aj la... hope can get in... cut off is 9 pts... i entering wif 12-4=8 pts... so, shld be ok... then gonna continue in band... i love band there... love aj... and most of all love 0505... we shall stay together... yay~

and!!! missed my frens!!! so happie to see them again... wheee~ then wenta j8 wif huiling and abigail and wengyin... and was jus walking ard when i saw someone... wa... so qiao... and huiling got so excited... dunno y... and everyone made noise!!! in the middle of nowhere... yeps... huiling treat us leh... which makes gerry feel so paiseh... wahhh~ gerry must treat u back... must must...

[at home]
papa so happy tt i got a cert... he didn cared bout wad's written on it... mum too.. funny ah... they keep saying got tt piece of paper gd le!!! (cuz' they dun have...) haha... they so cute one... omg~ then mum spoke of tt *bleah* relative of mine... who always compare my results wif her son, who's half a yr younger than me... and i instantly rembed that time... like 6 yrs ago... when i p5 like tt... she saw me doing hw, come to me and criticize on how i hold my pencil... (i hold it tgt wif an eraser... in one hand... ) and say wad i wun do well in exams... sneering at me... *sobs* that thought made me cry instantly... and i realised how traumatised i was... i couldn forget this incident... and everytime i rembed it, i would jus start to cry and *shiver*... she's so scary kk... i jus wanna hide in a corner to cry it all out or to hug someone and cry lor... i was feeling so terrible last nite... but thank god i had someone to tok to... i felt a lil better then...

hope everyone's alright le kk...

sad also tt amt of points,
happy also tt amt of points...
then, y not take tt amt of points happily???

no amt of tears or wad will change ur pts... so, y waste them? water is precious!!!

quiz

2005-02-27T20:48:00.000+08:00

Heyaz... do quizzie yea~

I made a Quiz for you!
Do gerry's quizzie*~ and then
Check out the Scoreboard!

yay~ Good Luck to ya all for tmr too wor~ jiayou jiayou jiayou... :)

results out soon

2005-02-26T17:11:00.000+08:00

okie dokies... very long never blog le... so, shall jus slightly tok a bit... hmm... esp bout monday... a lot of us all very excited... haha... for those who are scared (me included) dun scared wor! scared also no use de... the results all confirmed le... u scared, wun give u any extra marks de... waahah... yeps... so, stay kewl..... ya all must share wif gerry how ya all do kk... haha... good luck to all of u man~ tt ya all can go to ur dream college or institute... yay~

a lil update on aj life... band 3 times a week... quite tiring... there's interhse drama comp... representing 0505, hazel and aaron... haha... guess they're really pro... haha... but sadly, gerry couldn watch... was so near, yet so far... was only in the band rm, but cudn get out... so, got regrets... haha... puma hse won the best teamwork... u guys rock man!

aj family day wif food and fun fair... quite ok la... bout excess cornflakes man~ now becum we eat them during breaks ah... hahah... sales... hmm... dunno how too... doesn seem too gd... PLim gave us $10... not bad... he donated generously to the weaker generation... [fyi, PLim is our phys teacher... keep calling us weak generation!!!] and dunked chris and roland... and gerry got wet in an accident... but nvm... hahaha... kewl day...

ohh... had common tests... its so common... guess every other jc also got... but ours different orh... it will be recorded and used as common test marks if we staying in aj... so scary... wun even let us enjoy first 3 months... anyway, results as follows...
25/36 for phys... need one more mark to get A... so, is B la... PLim must be saying i weak le...
26/30 for chem... its a A... the previous nite study till 2.30 and still haven finish studying ah... then of cuz next day must pia la... and all thanx to someone who motivated gerry to study la... if not, also wun go study so hard... haha... thankew wor~
25.5/35 for fma (differentiation and binomial) its so much different from a maths... argh! but ok la... its an A... thank god...
18/20 for fmb (indices, partial fractions,inequalities)... remb gerry cursed it so much... this damn surprise test which i never even studied at all??? then they flash gerry's name in a list... and i tot i failed so badly they wanted me back for more tutorials lor... but heng is not... gerry's the top girl in the cohort and top in class... on par wif yanshen... comeon... u've jus read of a miracle k... gerry doesn understand how it happened too...

back to this mon... good luck to all... God Bless~ be happie no matter wad results... and gerry got trust in u all tt ya all will do well de...

*worries for english* i hope its not a D7 or E8 or even F9... got pass i happy le...
and hope geog not too bad la... i sit for the paper like so blur like tt... till now, cant remb a lot bout the paper man~

cny

2005-02-09T15:51:00.000+08:00

very long never blog le... haha... lazy leh... but got add some post at noala's blog... so, wanna noe more? prolly go noala's blog ba~

recently... there's maths common test... monday... fm... binomial and differentiation... gerry study till brain leaking wif formulars... then when reach there, found out got "surprise" maths c test... and gerry's so pissed k... its not surprising at all... its SHOCKING kk... then the last qn of fm so hard... 9 marks... gerry cant prove the front part... then although i can do the end, i dun have the value for the first part... which the behind part need la... so , can't get ans... 9 marks grew wings and flew off... others also... then maths c... hmph!!! mr quek so mean kk... ya... first qn actually noe how to do... but no time to write down man~ wasted...

tuesday, new yr eve... got cny concert... everyone go to skool jus for concert only... hmm... and one hr plus only... then last 2nd is band... and last is co... then gerry so nervous... cuz is perc solo... then all the perc stand infront... bleah... missed 2 quavers (or 2 hits) ... but pretend pretend la... then all was ok... and jiaxing and willian's part so funny... then the audience laugh... and gerry also wanna laugh... *giggles* at the end, gerry hear hazel shout "go gerry~ go aaron~"... she so cute... and 0505 huh... how can u all let her do it alone??? so bad... *shakes head*

then everything finish at 9.30 like tt... and gerry gotta reach khatib mrt by 1230 like tt la... then go much time to spend but cant go back to skool... cuz sure cannot make it in time de... so, heng kor got time... then pei me lor... haha he so nice...
then we dunno where to go... then saw weishan... and dunno which co guy... *winks at kor* u noe wad i thinking huh... hahah~!!! then we wenta bishan... j8... the shops haven open yet!!! ahhhhh~ then walk ard... AIMLESSLY... so sad life lor... escalator also not working yet...*bleah* haha... then go kfc eat.. and gerry self-admit... i eat very slow~!!! then kor so fascinated at how slow i actually can be... or maybe shock??? haha... and i was telling kor how gerry can fall asleep anywhere... anytime... when playing piano, bathing, chatting on msn, when toking to sis... even walking!!! gerry fell asleep when walking... woke up when hand hit the wall... then i asked "y am i here???" haha... and saw cindia... wif her amk frens... and a huge group of co peeps came by... and kor had a hard time explaining... uhh ohh... oops...

and... then go the funeral at yishun...(this is why gerry gotta go khatib mrt) mum's dad's bro... senile, missing for 4 days, found dead in a huge drain... so sad right? and so sudden... then funeral only 2 days... cuz kinda decomposed le la...

then go grandparents' hse... then back home for reunion dinner wif family... steamboat... every yr also same... yummy yummy... gerry cooked the prawns wif lotsa butter... like butter free one like tt... nice to eat but not healthy... :) [gerry wants icecream too~] then back to grandparents hse to play a while wif cousins.....

newyrs day... go church... then back home... to wish grandparents happie new yr... then to grand parents' hse... now still at grandparents hse... now angie they all come le... b4 tt, i was playing mahjong wif sis and younger cousins... aged 7 and 9... haha... they so cute... yeps... tonite staying at grandma's hse... cousins here too... cuz' we cant go visiting... cuz grandfather jus passed away 4 mths ago... yeps... little angbaos... hahah..... but nvm la... :)

2005-01-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

gerry's bdae came and went... and i'm 17... *boo* time really flies... me all ready more than half way passed my 2nd decade... wahhh~ me feel old man~ thou shalth update u on the happenings of my very special day... the following copied from noala's blog... http://noala.blogspot.com ...

today is gerry's day wor~... haha... was so worried since yest... haha... having 'nitemares' over sam's , eric's, and malcolm's wicked smile... *shivers* hee hee... and they guys in my class are nice kk... 2 of them gave me prezzies... and one gurl gave me prezzie too... and all 3 are actually malaysian scholars lor... hmm... they're really nice people... :) and i keep trying to find out wad's in hazel's bag... 0505 really gave me a huge big surprise cum shock when i was jus HAPPILY walking and talking out of class when i saw Snow and Hazel at the water cooler wif plastic bags... ahhhhh~ haha... then they were like so excited to chase after me la... then i hide in the toilet... and msged for help... hee hee... but in the end, still kena... haha... ya la... snow la... very gd!!! smash it right onto my back...

and then kristine came... wheee~ jus for me... me=lucky gurl... am so touched lor... then 0505 wenta J8 and i was sitting in skool ALONE! waiting for them to finish skool... in other words, waiting for death... sounds quite dumb... then sam came... and we see the cake ( actually i noe earlier tt got cake... sam messaged the wrong person... ) ... so pink wor~ and then they insisted i make a wish... so i cautiously did so... and they want me to blow out the candles... then pull the cake so far away... (u noe, stall time... so they can bring out the flour) but apparently, quite slow... and they cover cover the candles... then i had to blow 3 times from diff angle to extinguish all... and somemore so kanchiong *hyperventilates*... then uncle scold... cuz' dirty the canteen... then go to the garden to eat... another uncle warned us not to dirty the garden, dunno wad reason... and took note of my class... *bleah* anyways... still had creaming... wahaha... after eric said "eh... got extra cake..." and then he smashed the first piece onto gj's shirt... [actually me kinda guilty... cuz always jus anyhow mention him, then he kena... sorry kor...] ... then passed on to malcolm's pe-tee... and then... blah blah blah... kinda messy... then eric damn skilled... sam come, he immediately smoothly lightly put his hand on the back of his shirt... then sam still dunno... wahah... then in the end, i clean my hands on his shirt... wheee~ and did i mentioned tt gj and i wenta cream cindia too... hee hee... she was really shocked...

thanx to eric, malcolm, sam and others... who were planning such evil stuff... haha... and the cake and card...
thanx to kor who made time and changed his plans jus to come... and those sweets... gerry loves sweets best!!!
thanx to kristine who came over jus for me~ and her gifts of cute lil stickers... wheee~ i like it a lot wor~
thanx to all who was present... so nice and sweet of ya all to take time to come...
thanx to all who messaged me... so sweet of ya all...
thanx to snow... for everything... :) and 0505...
thanx to cindia and kor... who warned me tt the time is here... haha...
thanx to cindia and weishan for tt big beary bdae hugg... wheee~
thanx noala...

ya all jus made me feel so loved... wahah...~ and at the same time... i jus feel like a lil pampered gurl... u all made me feel so small though bdae suppose to make me feel older... wheee~ ... jus lil regrets tt gary and hongkai weren't here... hongkai said no one tell him... he would have joined in flouring gerry... hee hee... go hongkai... wait for next ya ba~

luv ya all loads... gerry

yeps... tt's my day... and i have more to say... *scrolls down* look at those huge number of huggs... ~ ohh... and dun get shock... its all thanx to cindia and eric who frequently practiced finger training... and took time to send me huggs... loads loads loads.....

plus, thanx noala for tt cute poohbear bolster... though i told gary i liked piglet more... haha... but i love poohbear too wor~

and on my tt very special day... i gave a speech for gp... it was planned la... and suay or heng, fell on the same day... my topic : Birthday Girls' Rights... was toking bout y the bdae girl shld not be creamed or floured... nor dunk into the fountain... and bout schools shld give privilege... like skip skool or lengthen deadline for assignments... wheee~... was a bit scared i wouldn reach the 2 min mark... planned to read really slowly... but i exceeded by so much... u noe y? cuz' at the 2nd paragraph... i started laughing nonstop... i think 1/2 min wasted there... plus, b4 i start, i laugh le... hahaha~

friday... band... then movie under the stars... at AJ Square... at 7pm... TROY... but not too interesting for me... a lil saddist... then me and snow wenta sit wif our class 0505... till 845 then the disc one finish... got interval.. then return to og... then asked kor to sit wif us... then eric whipped out 2 pieces of green paper and asked kor to throw tissue at him... which he really did!!! then give eric the next clue... i think it is a game to keep on finding people... then he asked me for haribo... so i gave him and the next clue too... then the clue is "there's a chinese high guy somewhere" eh... sounds like kor hor... then eric asked "splash me with water" which kor emptied 1/2 my bottle and some from snows bottle onto eric... in the middle of the whole movie thinggi... hilarious... omg~ i wonder who did tt... weird game...

fri nite... wenta home... sleepy... dozing off in the bathroom... then lie on bed... dun even remb i cover blanket... tt means, i fell asleep instantly... then sat morning... woke up late... caught the bus... bus very slow... some more never stop at my stop!!! then i had to walk back one busstop... *bleah* then tot "die le... so late..." and i saw a ultra long queue... sat needa sign in at gate... wahaha... so many people~ esp band people... so, dun care... most late too man~ then dunno y... after a few mins, the guy decided not to take down our names le... aiyo... waste our time... perc horrible playing... mr au, the conductor, taught us something different from wad our per tutor taught... make me so confused... any, wenta co room to kope timpanis... 4 of them... plus 2 drums... then we learnt back-sticking... so, its like hit half way, then use the back of the stick to hit one or two times, then return to norm... so, really hard la... then the tim i using is co's biggest... then very clean!!! not like the other 3 smaller ones... then i hit... then saw marking... plus my stick a bit dirty la... then got black dot... *hurrys clean away wif my finger... rub rub* ohh.. and mr au want that IMPACT thinggi... so, he demo for me on the tim i using (co's biggest tim) then he hit damn hard la... the got one lil dent thinggi there... oops... then wenta co rm again to return the tim... nice rm kk... and me wanted to write "we were here" on the white board... but senior say very qianbian leh... so, didn't... after everything, wenta ate wif seniors... then back home... fell asleep in bus... *yawns*

skool... bleah

2005-01-20T19:13:00.000+08:00

oh no~ haven't blogged for quite long... so, wad panicking last sun tt i haven't wrote the script and all tt crap... then thankgod~ i suddenly realise tt its not due yet... allelujah...

so... monday onwards... permanent lessons...
lotsa tutorial... (basically tutorials are classroom lessons... go thru tutorial... )
monday end at 1535... tues 1335 weds 1335 thurs 1655 fri 1335/1455...

tutorial is quite ok... some tutorials nv do... but nvm one... must finish by this coming mon la... chem we have hod of chem, mr lim... phys tutor also call mr lim... then fm(a) is mrs soon fm(b) is mr seet... gp is ms low... chinese is mdm ong... pdtutor mdm jamilah... pe is ms ong...

starting from mr lim... his style is kinda like mr yau (cedar) strict... but fun too... when serious, very scary... but lotsa jokes to crack too... haha... jus needa finish all his tutorial and we'll be fine... :) and joke along when we suppose to... has powerful chem... but... HIS ENGLAND VERY POWDERFUL AH~ haha... tt's wad he told us wor~

mr (patrick) lim... phys teacher... a bit like mr tay... small sized... the voice really like... but he's fun too... lessons are quite ok... :) interesting person la... deadlines for tutorial very long! haha!!! yay~

mrs soon... late for lessons today... cuz we wenta container classrm... then she tot is 1115... tt's y... then she very patient and nice... small size... resembles mdm han from cedar... but mdm han is a chinese teacher... mrs soon's maths is powerful wor~ every qn like so easy to her!!!

mr seet... keep telling us not to read it as "sit" ... but he pissed me off so much... i've decided to do the opposite... he did something tt i deemed as "not respecting us" ... and hence, i dun see the need to respect him either k... he came late for lessons once... but tt's not too bad... adding on, he talk to the board... keep mumbling to himself... when facing us, we can't hear him... and somemore he keep facing the board... and not only tt... he return phone calls during class leh... i think it is worse than answering lor... i mean, since u missed tt call already, cannot wait for another 10 mins or so to finish the lesson meh??? he is not respecting us... and i openly message during his class... and the type of maths he teaches in class... i can teach him lor!!! first lesson teach wad... ax^2 + bx + c = 0 when a>0, is u shaped curve... when a<0, it is a n-shaped curve... and he spend the whole 55 mins on such shit ok!!! then another day... teach us wad is modulus and 3sf!!! and (a^x)^y = a^xy ... omg~ he should have been posted to teach pri sch maths lor... pls la... stop wasting our time!!! we learnt NOTHING every lesson leh... and when the guys ask him qns today... he teach a bit... then went totally out of point and started toking bout something else... not answering the guys' qn... no one is pleased wif him... anw, i hold up a paper saying "HELP!" in his lessons today... and we passed down a paper and played "complete the story"... *shucks* i expect a lot from maths teachers... he failed badly!!! can't believe he teach maths... let alone fmaths... *bleah*

then... our gp tutor... ms low... really fun... we always *clap clap* when someone ans a qn... then she say very good... got "encouraging learning environment" or something... she made gp lessons fun... and make us take pics... grp pic... like 5 a grp... then we suppose to write our name on the paper... then she noe who we are... haha... like criminal... she play games wif us too... wheee~

chinese teacher... we haven't started lessons... so far still playing games... intellectual games... like... given a phrase, guess a chinese word... she got loads of tt... then revise cheng2yu3... su2yu3... guan4 yong4 ci2... lotsa chinese stuff... really kewl... made me look forward to chinese ah... :)

pd tutor... i told u all tt she looks totally like a chinese... but she is a malay teacher leh... can't tell man... and she can't read chinese at all... but she's quite ok though...

monday's morning pe (1.5hr) raining... so, ran round the corridors in skool... u and down stairs... in total... ran more than 20 storeys of stairs... did a lil track-like training... 10pushups 20 situps... and jump on the spot 400 times...
thurs's afternoom pe (40 mins) jus run round the track... ran 2+5=7 rounds round the track... and mind u, not lanes one and two... it is lanes 7 and 8... the most outtest lanes... and scorching sun!... butwe persevered... then saw hongkai wor~ playing soccer... but not in red shorts... haha... then after tha gurls run le, we stand at the side of the track to cheer the guys... (05 jiayou jiayou jiayou~) then stupid aaron(from my class) was like shhhhh~ as if we cheering for other class like tt... so non appreciative... so... i think monday need cheering sessions le... let us change them!!!

ohh and btw, mr seet told us he got 2 fm class... us and another class... this is becuz gotta meet the class quota... can u imagine??? use our class to meet his quota... like every teacher suppose to take a certain no of classes... and he's taking the minimum... and the skool is trying so hard to get classes for him??? *bleah*

yest... weds 190105... had band orientation... water games... didn't expect much cuz the aj orientation's water games are *bleah* i barely got wet~!!! anw, got sucha big shock when the perc pple stepped outta the band rm... and saw them playing... everyone was drenched... ahhhhh~ they literally pour the whole pail of water on u ah~ kewl kewl... fun fun... cold cold... and chingting and me kept escaping and camouflaging... so we were minimally wet... though my whole back was wet... hahah...

anw... guojun's bdae today wor~... 17 le... old old old... haha... he'd better cherish these 5 days to bully me... cuz' i catching up the 17 train le... hahaa... till then, he can't bully me le... heh heh heh~... and kristine is so sweet k... awwwww~ haha...

and too bad didn see kor in wad he said to be mini red tchs shorts... wahaha~

and eric is sad over his lost tiggers... 2 of them... plus a lil panda thinggi... hope they'll be found soon...

HAPPY BDAE AARON(guojun)~!!! hope ya liked the card k... :)

2005-01-15T13:26:00.000+08:00

nothing happened on thurs... *ponders* did thurday pass w/o me noeing??? haha... anyway... i've got lotsa to tok bout friday!!! wheee~

firstly... bout principals from 800 skools came to AJ for some i-dunno-wad thinggi... then they parked their car on AJ sq lor... and not park straight one... is diagonal one... so, i made the joke bout "oh well, principals can't parallel park!!! wad to do?" yeps... was looking out for ms leong too... wahaha... *scans thru every carplate*

ok... starting wif first period!!! BREAK~ ... while the others were having econs... i was slacking... slack slack slack... then the 2nd... go see my pd tutor (formteacher) ... then she made us play games... cuz' bonding ma... her games are erm... ok la... not too fun though... haha... [i've always said tt bonding needs catalyst k... and she's not the one!!! haha... she doesn't help speed up the rxn...]

then... more break!!! but this time... only 1/2 hr... then while poor me and poor snow goes fm... eric in bio...and cindia and gj are slacking!!!

then poor me and snow somemore gp lessons... (boring) cindia and gj are still slacking!!! and eric joins them in slacking!!! and guess wad... the projector in LT1 is spoilt... so took quite long to repair and stuff... bout 15-20 mins gone???

and finally... poor me and poor snow gets to slack... while this time... poor eric goes for gp... heh heh~... then... poor me and poor snow only gets to slack one period... and we're back in LT1... wif somemore fm... this time, binomial... *bleah* but quite fair... the rest went for maths c too... and guess wad??? lessons at 1215... but teacher tot tt it's 1230... anw... she arrived at 1235... half the lesson gone... then she asked... wad's the lesson after this??? and we were like "ohh lunch... opps... no no... chem!!!" ya... and i overheard tt freak guy behind me saying... "ooh... i dun mind... u can cut into my lunch..."
anw... LUNCH!!! then chem at diff venues... the rest got chem too... yuxin no chem but tagged along... she must be so bored by the lecturer... chem!!! projector at aud also spoilt!!! this time took longer!!! half lesson gone too!!!! then... phys at aud... this time... i think tt aud not too cold after all.......

was at reading room slacking... then gj kor told me tt got band prac... so... *rushes off to band notice board...* true enough... then start at 5pm la... till 8.30... so at first was at flute section... then got these 2 J1's from swiss cottage... then they got flute backgrd... so, very pro... then only tok to themselves... *felt so bored and left out* then switched to percussion... haha... then there's elaine... asst SL... also qiaoyun's (comp club senior) best fren... then she and another excedarian was threatening "if qiaoyun dun go out wif us, we shall torture her junior" ahhhhh~... haha... and there's this guy call willian... interesting name... he's the biggest joker lor... then keep saying he alumni and elaine say he very old... so... we also dunno hu is he... haha... and there's 2 J1's!!! they are different!!! so full of fun and very very very nice... they's not at all boring... they talk lots!!! i like... they're sherlyn and chingting... nice people eh... yea... they taught me all the techniques stuff... and tt's so hard lor... i'm referring to holding the drum stick!!! then only can use wristwork and stuff... sherlyn, chingting and elaine were so so so patient!!! cuz' i always hold wrongly... and my little finger kept sticking out!!! haha... nice people... i will practise hard *promise*... i luv my life in percussion!!! yay~... plus there's weishan (noala's dc... otherwise known as ogl) she plays the trumpet... kewl kewl... hahah :)

there's gonna be more more more band practices... ohh... every tues, weds, fri... 5-8.30... which makes me think : tues piano at 8.45 how??? wed's sjmm choir prac at 8pm how??? well... i'm still thinking!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KOKHAO~ (tmr)

AJC

2005-01-12T19:58:00.000+08:00

okok... *announces* i'm going to update!!! *applauses* yay~!!!

okok... here goes...

=first day of skool=
quite a kewl day... went there... already knew i was in tribe : Altjira and dwelling:NOala... haha... hard to read... then want outta my house late la... [as usual] then told papa to turn at the first turning... actually shld the the second... so, instead of going to yiochukang... we went towards hougang!!! and so, was even more late... 15 mins late... but anyway... got people later than me... and like 8am like tt then start... so... nvm... my dwelling damn quiet lor... esp the guys... can u believe tt??? but the gals are making more noise than the guys... *bleah*

from 8 to 12 plus was all talks lor... the hod of this and that came up one by one and crapped all bout their dept... and mind u... for sciences... its the 3 different hods for each science subject!!! then lunch of western food... and was told tt this is the best food ard... then had this tour game... like find paper and tour round the school la... and everyone was cooperative...

more bout the people in my dwelling... firstly... there's jeslyn... who is from ij punggol and cedar too... kewl huh... and there's cindia... unique name... cute gal too... from amkss... and there's laura from anderson sec... quiet gurl... and there's kelly from rgs... another quiet gurl... and jasmine... from nanchiau... stay at sengkang too... nice gurl... luv anime... and cindia luvs anime too... and there's yuxin from nanyang... quiet too... and snow... kewl name!!! from commonwealth... the dajie in my grp!!! 5 jan... and there's chernfern... nice and quiet gurl... yeetheng... sweet gurl... lastly... meiying!!! from ahmad ibrahim... nice and sociable.. :)

and the guys... firstly... eric... from bishan park ss... like jeslyn huh... and malcolm... from vs... like cindia huh... he's kinda crazy over her la... then there's liang hao... from cat.high... always appearing wif malcolm and eric... and there's this 2 chinesehigh guys... guojun/aaron and hong kai... haha... couldn't differentiate them at first... but now... think i was quite silly la... they dun look too alike after all... hahaha... yeps... [dun think tchs guys are all nerds... i tot so... this 2... *shakes head* damn lame and crazy ah...] and 2 amkss guys... [*guilty* i didn't noe who they were until this mon!!! sry] they're kokhao and boonkiat... little happenings from them... and there's eehong... mr cool guy... from zhonghua... no matter say wad also that same expression... hahaha... tell lame jokes he wun laugh one leh!!! and there's gary from ri... quite nice i guess... quiet... and... weiqiang... also quite quiet... and riduan from teck whye... wear the blue and grey uniform like cedar's... quiet too... and there's billy... a cholar from brunei i think... ultra quiet this one!!! hangs out wif his scholar frens only...

lastly... there's sam and weishan... our ogl.... or here known as dc... fun people... haha... no generation gap!!! kewl huh... oh yes... and i saw augustus on the first day of skool already lor!!! so qiao... but then after that, till today, i've nv seen him ard anymore!!!

=2nd day of skool=
learnt our first dance... had to dance wif gary ah!!! mambo no.5... haha... oh well... felt so weird... but every one had to dance wif someone else of a different gender... no choice... haha... then tried so hard to remb the steps...... yea...
also... we registered for our courses...

=3rd day=
firstly got wadeva boring library talk... then got the very fun story game... here goes... the tribal master owns this ancestral cup... and it is in the museum... with it... he got the power to create peace and all that stuff... but then someone stole it... and world destruction might be caused... so, every dwelling gotta play games agst another dwelling... then the winner can choose either pictorial clue or verbal clue... then the other dwelling got to take the other one la... then at the end... gather all clues and try to find the thief (either lil boi, tribal master's mistress lulu, or tribal master's wife, jessy)... fun eh... then learned the most fun dance of our life Borriquitto!!!

=4th day=
had rotation games... and slam dunk da funk dance... so hard to learn!!! complicated steps and fast tempo... oh wells....but all in all... fun!!!

=5th day... last day of orientation=
college cip... go round amk to collect newspapers and clothes and stuff... fun and tiring!!! then had break... so, wenta amk to walk... then back to skool at 6 plus for camp fire but then halfway... started to rain... so, had campfire w/o fire... yeps... but fun still!!! :) well actually quite sad tt orientation is over!!! wanted to do one last big cedar cheer but at 9 plus, the councillors say too late and ordered us to go home!!!

jus this monday... lecture begins *groans* lotsa lectures... but quite some breaks in between too... shan told us to enjoy our first week cuz'... the timetable is temporary and we will never see so much breaks ever again... ohh... and by the way... i got into class 0505... nice number huh... it means... class number 05... year 05... yeps... subject combi of gp... chineseAO... f maths... maths c... phys... and chem... my dream combi... yeps... snow (big sis) is in my class... wheee~ and we gotta line up in our class... but immediately after flagraising... everyone dispersed and wenta attend our first talk wif our dwelling!!! dun try ask me who's in my class... i haven't register in my brain yet!!! at breaks... hang out wif the noala peeps... and draw names for angel and mortal... i luv this game... haha... and guys who picked another guy's name refused to write letters!!! haha... they said it was so gay to write a letter to another guy... so... wad ever lor... then i help them write la... haha... so fun... they provide ideas and i penned it down... yeps... so, they'll prolly tot their angel is a gal... oh wells... haha... fun fun... smsing during lectures!!! had to hide hide the phone... and i found out that the reception in LT1 is really bad... but if u sit higher rows... reception better!!! haha... weird findings of mine!!! on mon also..... wenta choir audition... though i got past the seniors round... i din't get pass the conductor, Nelson Kwei's round... he's quite well known ya all noe?... yeps... so, today (weds) cca day... wenta put my name down for band... and cldds (i quite regretted)... still thinking bout project eureka... cool science instruments there!!! haha... see how... and yuxin put her names down in so many cca!!! and eric wenta volleyball... while malcolm and lianghao already in choir... and guojun in CO... he's gd at it k... and kelly put her name down in 6 cca's... hahaha... then watched mass dance... and go home!!! and we (me, jeslyn, yuxin, eric, guojun) go take ogf forms... ogf=orientation grp facilitator... then had to stay back some days to prepare stuff la... so, we will not be mere participants in orientation 2 in march (2nd intake) ... tt is... if we stay in aj after 3 mths... kewl!!! then gotta write out name down ma... then the councillor sitting at the table saw my name and said "oh... u're geraldine ah? benedict says hi..." and i was like *paiseh* (benedict is christopher's fren... i only see ben once... only last sunday... chris is my catechism class fren)...

and yest had piano lessons... 7.45pm... kept yawning in front of my teacher lor... *paiseh* really tired ah~...

the LT and auditorium have tables which (according to eric) is very ANTI-SLEEP... as in if u push a lil... the table will flip down... u see... the table can flip up and down one... but very not fixed... so, if u fall asleep... chances are u'll topple every single thing on ur table!!!

and i have been missing 2 sjmm choir practices le... sorry... *looks down in guilt* will go next weds kk... *promise*

haix... now my timing a bit weird ah!!! in skool quite ok la... then bout afternoon like 5 plus till nite like nine plus is like wanna sleep... then after that awake!!! then bout 1plus am... then slp... blah blah blah... feeling really busy now...

ps: cindia take care and get well soon k... missed ya!!!

new yr

2005-01-01T18:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YR!!! :) have ya made ur new yr's resolutions??? :) enjoy!!!

*bleah* must go back to skool soon.....

my day out

2004-12-31T01:18:00.000+08:00

haha... today was meeting ber, da and huiling... at somerset mrt at 12.30... and i was late... (as usual) and the cause of it was becuz' i overslept... *bleah* yeps... then i wenta meet them only at 1 plus... *guiltys* ya... then later huiling come... yeps... and we wenta watch the movie... ber and da made the choice... they bot the tix b4 i arrived... saved time... haha... and guess wad peeps??? it was "meet the fockers" (which i couldn't go wif the sfx/csc peeps...) so qiao... ya... so, sfx/csc peeps... this show is nice!!! gd choice :) ... kk... then after the movie... wenta walk ard and walk ard... do lotsa window shopping... at heeren... and of cuz' took more neoprints... haha... yeps... and saw clarence didi at taka... so qiao too... [him huh!!! wahah... do something to ur hair pls... at least i like the 'last time' look... *huiling nods*]ok... then we wenta home quite quickly to meet my 8pm curfew... and a was a lil late... oh well, but nvm... had a happy day out... *sad sad* the yr is gonna be over..... which means tt skool is starting!!! wahhhhhhhhhhh~!!!

*haiz* tired of the very sight of my mum.....

i have been feeling really cold and shivering (even asked to have the fan and aircon off-ed and wanted to close the windows) and have been flu-ing these few days... but she doesn't seem to bother... then only today my sis say she very cold... then she keep asking "fever is it??? let me see got fever not..." :(

this then let me unconsciously remb the incident when i was at 5... :( sorry la... but i jus cannot forget this incident lor... jus when i am suffering from my first asthma attack, my parents we off at a relative's hse... me, at my grandma's house had to call them to tell them i could not breathe... and all they could tell my grandma was "help her ply some oilment... we'll be back later..." and guess wad???
half an hr later... when i call them again, guess wad??? they are still there... haha *cold laugh* ... it is only when they finally return i-dunno-how-many-hrs later that they came and found out it was so serious they had to send me into the hospital... ha ha... any small thing is more impt then me... *bleah* *sighs*

is it must i die le then they will realise how impt i am?

sentosa

2004-12-28T21:49:00.000+08:00

:) yest wenta sentosa!!! happy :) was potluck... woke up at 8 plus to prepare... then u noe la... [gerry is forever late!!!] yes... late... so, at 10, suppose to go out... but not ready... then uncle had to fetch me out... ohh... jus right, uncle also going to sentosa... he bring his thai fren there... haha... so, he fetch me to serangoon mrt... where i meet huiling... then met huiling... and met weifen... then go harbour front... to meet up wif the rest at 11... we were on time!!! yay~!!! but only saw amy there... nvmind... waited a while for the rest... but then, weifen had to go... meeting her frens, so, she nv go wif us...

there's... me, huiling, ada, ber, amy, simin, melissa, lyemeng, belle, zinuan, joanna, jiayi, leanne, dawn, qingyi, peilien, kaihui, amanda, chingtung, flora, hema, ... tt's bout it... lots of us...

then took a bus there... then went to siloso beach... then me and huiling wenta apply suntann oil... bananaboat... haha... weird brand... (xiangjiao chuan)... then wenta 7-11 wif ber, da, huiling, and zinuan, belle, leanne, joanna........ then self explore the beach... crossed the nice nice bridge!!! haha... took a lot of pics............ so fun... then wenta take monorail ... bumpy... then 4 of us in one cabin... then 3 indians and one kid come in to squeeze wif us... and another indian lady (their fren) tried to squeeze in too... so squeezy!!! heng the 4 of us not too fat ah... yeps... but the lady didn't manage to get in, got scolded by the monorail guy...

went back to siloso beach... and dig hole... see water table..... haha..... then make this path thing for water to flow thru... then after a while, da and ber wenta find bucket / plastic bags to transport water... then these 3 guys come and ask me and huiling wad we doing... then we were like *ignore ignore*... haha... and they say wad "is it for me to lie in???" *bleah* haha... ya la... then we show belle they all our project... hahah... then got meander also... haha... [we are geog students!!! ahah siao le...]

then had fun, play daidi... fun fun... flora's version... haha... the 1st person to win is called president, 2nd vice-pres, then the last is big asshole, 2nd last is small asshole... and the middle ones are neutral... then if got more people play, then maybe got secretary and middle asshole.....
so, then next game, the big asshole and the pres must exchange cards... exchange 2 biggest card and 2 smallest card.... then the small asshole and vice-pres exchange one... haha... adjust accordingly... then so fun... wahahah!!! when we are assholes tt time, we hope our biggest card is small... then we say wad "i hope my biggest card is 7 will do, dun too big!!!" haha.....

then ate so many balls... fishballs and sotong balls.... and lil' sausages... nice nice... after tt, we went off... actually wanna go watch movies one... but i was really tired... plus dunno y we jus went separate ways... then raining... and the blue bus so crowded... so, we use our geog map reading skills *blah blah* and got up the green bus... haha... the green bus so cranky one... go up hill tt time like so hard to get up... then we alighted at ferry terminal... and walked walked walked... to get the bus to get to mainland sg... ( hahah..... i find the word mainland so funny... like describing china like tt... mainland da4 lu4) okok... then also so crowded... the queue so so so long!!! and we made a decision... and walked out of sentosa... wanted to walk the path way but got construction... so, we walked along the rd... got the safety barriers formed a path way for walking... then ber was like faster walk ah... she say feel so dangerous... then cuz' a lil drizzling, the floor a lil wet and muddy... then as usual i walk until my legs behind quite dirty... then the 3 of them (ber, da, huiling) so bad... they keep asking each other "eh... my leg dirty not??? got as dirty as gerry's???" so mean right? *hmph* then got to harbourfront there to eat... icecream craving... then da bought something from orange julius and me, huiling, ber bought xtreme milkshake from newzealand natural..... nice...

then go up the train... back home... :) haha... found out tt da also going to aj... happy :) and belle too... and zinuan... :) and shiying...:)

well, my webbie is ready... :) go take a look yea... :)

merry christmas

2004-12-26T02:40:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

jingle bells jingle bells... we wish u a merry christmas we wish u a merry christmas... rudolph the red nose reindeer... santa claus is coming to town... joy to the world... lalala...

okok... merry christmas to all... spend my christmas at home(grandparents' hse)... sleeping... cuz' was having really horrible m-cramps... *bleah*... quite horrible... oh wells... ahah... and wheee... cousins coming back in 21 hrs... yay!!! missed them loads... got mahjong to play le... yay!!! haha...

monday is gerry's day out... am expecting a really fun day :) will be off to sentosa for our class gathering... miss those people loads... will missed them even more... wahhhhhhhhhhhhh..........

[lummy] lets go check tt guy out... hahah..... jking k... :) i cud almost feel how excited u are... :)

well... dis yr's christmas was not too fun la... didn't go out and stuff... but last time go to uncle's hse (papa's cousin) also not tt happy la... cuz' i dun really like them... oh wells... shall try to think of their gd pts...

i hope everyone rembs the true meaning of christmas... not jus bout prezzies, prezzies and more prezzies... spread the love ard!!! :)

have a really happy-merry-haha christmas!!! :)

kewlness

2004-12-24T21:28:00.000+08:00

*MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!*

sry for the sure-late/never-arrived christmas prezzies... haven't got out yet...

today is christmas eve... hahaha... papa took leave and we wenta escape theme park... actually dun wanna go one... cuz' i sian of escape le... like nothing else to play le... *sian* but still went la... played the usual go-kart and panasonic alpha 8 and the kiddy roller coaster and the wet&wild thing and the fly fly thing (the lie faced-down one) ... the the shoot water ones... blah blah blah...

hot weather... long queues... blah blah blah... but quite fun la... cuz' papa always working 6 days a week then little time to go out wif every single one of us present..... so, today is exception... yeps...

then the last ride is the fly fly thing... then cuz' we play whole day, we even noticed diff attendants at the rides... cuz change shift huh... then ya... this guy there at the fly fly thing there like so cute... then at the end of the ride, he said bye to me... hahaha... kewl... (and of cuz' i'm courteous enough to say bie!!!) yea... so kewl, other than the presence of my mum... *bleah* then after that i was acting as if nothing happened... if lummy was there... i would be telling her non-stop "lummy! look... he's so cute..."... but obviously i can't tell my mum tt... *bleahh* ...
= end of story =

lummy u'd better be reading dis... u're the 1st person i wanna tell dis to... then we can jump ard together hahah.....

posting results

2004-12-17T15:49:00.000+08:00

here's gerry blogging... posting results out le... results are:

Name	LEE YEE LING GERALDINE	ID Number	S8801830C
School Posted To	ANDERSON JUNIOR COLLEGE
Course Posted To	SCIENCE / 0705S

hmm... i guess i'm quite ok wif it... quite shocked though... when i saw the results... i tot tt i might end up in nj... but it was not to be... weng yin got into nj arts wif 7 pts... i guess dis yr got very strong comp... *scared scared* dunno where my O's results can bring me... hmm hmm...

hahah... and btw... does anyone noe wad's course is 0705??? hahaha... i checked the website and found out their course is like SC01, SC02, SC03 so on... then how come got 0705 one??? *wonders* well... if they're toking bout SC07 or SC05... i dare not think bout sch life... oh man... SC07 is maths, chem, bio, econs
SC05 is maths, chem, phys, bio

k... i dun take bio... and there's bio in both... no!!!!! and there's no f maths in both... *bleah* these 2 choices are so undesirable... so far away from my 'dream' course... which is maths, fmaths, chem, phys...

hope tt my prediction is wrong... wadsoever... hahaha...

skool?????

2004-12-13T19:08:00.000+08:00

okies... on the topic of dreams... nowadays no more... yeps... looks like everyone is successful in entering my blog... the question really very easy huh??? haha... yea... well... in another 4 days i will noe which sch i'll be posted too... i hope i won't be too disappointed...

17 dec'04 at 10 am...

my 1st 5 choices are...
~VJC (science)
i really hope to get in... but, doesn't seem easy... seems like no chance le... hmm... maybe miracle will happen!!! *prays hard*

~NJC (science)
quite gd chance i'll get there i guess... but then hor... to me, it seems like nj is so boring... the very politics school... *bleah* and like very far... hahah... i shld be ok wif tt skool la...

~AJC (science)
like not bad la... but i dunno bout the skool at all leh... but seems like it's quite a fun skool leh... though the skool is very old! hee hee... not too sure bout the facilities though........

~TJC (science)
even worse... dunno where is this skool also... hahaha... green uniform... dun like green but the uniform like quite nice too... temasek seems like a gd skool too...

~CJC (science)
nice blue uniform... catholic skool too... to bad jie not there le... or else so fun... can use her as an excuse to go out!!! hahaha... go watch movie wif her all day!!! hahaha... plus the ever frenly granduncle is helping out at the canteen... hahaha... not bad!!! i won't hate skool life!!! lalala...

so, lets see how la...

christmas is so near... but i haven't buy christmas prezzie... see how la... (oops... )

dreamy

2004-12-10T20:11:00.000+08:00

oh man.. these days i really dream a lot!!!

last nite dream bout posting results... i think i'm in too much stress... dunno how!!! dunno will be posted to where?!?!? then i dreamt tt i was posted to KCTC... wadever it is!?!?!?!?!?!?!? this is not a jc, nor is it a institute lor..... but seriously, tt's wad i dreamt lor!!! omg... WADEVER!!!

kk... then got another one... also last nite... dreamt tt i got a new cousin!!! wahahah 3rd uncle's... can't remb is boy or girl... hee hee... then i suppose to look after... was feeling milk... then... baby got fever... quite high... then i tell my uncle and mum and grandma... then they say "aiyo never mind one la..." so, i dunno how la... hahaha.....

sings

2004-12-10T15:45:00.000+08:00

~Little Peter Rabbit has a fly upon his nose~ *sings*

and he flip and he flap and it flew away.....

arghhh!!!

2004-12-10T01:08:00.000+08:00

DIFFERENT...

k... i'm fewlin depressed again... I hate to admit it but i'm different... i've got a mother who wants to control everything... oh... correction... she IS already controlling everything..... and i got a father who does not care about anything... so extreme...

ya ya ya... mum wanted dad to bring 3 bicycles from couzzie's place... and dad was like not happy... and they quarrelled... and dad was like"u take the bikes for wad, not as if our daughters are those outdoor type"... then mum was like "tt's becuz u can't be bothered to teach them how to ride a bike or to swim"

it then struck me how true it was... yes, i can't ride a bike... something that other people can do so well, it seemed like they can ride a bike since the day they were born, i cannot do... and yes again, i can't swim k!!! although i got learn a bit b4...

dad was right, i'm not the outdoor type... mum was even more right... he didn't bothered... so he prolly thought tt i'm born only to study??? ya... that's like the only thing... (if i can't make it in studies, does it mean it's game over for me??? *shivers*)

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so stupid... *sobs* i jus wanna cry it all out... loudly... let everything come out... all that i've gone thru in silence... but i can't... see? i've got no bit of freedom at all...

wheneva i got scolding from my mum, i'm not allowed to cry... if not, the scolding will be even longer... so, it became a habit that i let everything out in the bathroom, using the shower to drown wadever little sound i'm making... sometimes, i do so when i'm gonna sleep... (cuz' i think a lot in the time b4 i sleep) but i make no noise at all... or i'll get scolded...

dun see y i'll get scolded??? k... lets say, she heard me crying... then she'll ask why... and most of the time it is becuz of her control and my lack of freedom... of how unreasonable she is... then i tell her it is becuz' of that... won't i get scolding??? (i get scolding for telling her "mum, u can't solve things this way... u're wrong..." )

k... switch to something lighter... i dreamt or mr goh k!!! omg... then in tt dream, i was at my grandma's hse sleeping... in that dream, i was very tired... cuz' i jus sat for a lot of papers in a day... then i open my eyes from sleep and saw mr goh standing in front of me... and he was saying... must remember to revise this... and that... these are very impt and basic... blah blah blah... oh gosh... O's over for so long... and i'm having this dream...*bleah* i call it nightmare!!!

hahaha

2004-12-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

okok... today is weds!!! had fun at cousin's house... learning to ride a bicycle... yes... i admit, i can't ride a bicycle... oops... :S hahah......... still learning la... not so easy... then cousins came over to play mahjong but me got to go choir... yeps...

interesting facts..... found out tt my cousin andrew and i open a packet drink the same way!!! exactly... cuz' a few days ago, where i put my drink, i found another one... and couldn't differentiate which one is mine... so i check everything... esp the slit on the plastic casing of the straw..... both open the same way...... so, we jus take any one... ahh...

hmm... i'm tired............ hahah............. those kids are cute... i love haribo...

after very long

2004-12-02T14:38:00.000+08:00

oops............... very long never update le..... apologies... :) oh well... these holiday days are... BORING!!! omg... stay at home everyday... and stuff... blah blah blah... doesn't seem too fun... and by the time i wake up, it is time to say Gd Afternoon!!! oops...

okok... hmm... yea i had prom... recently... hmm... last friday... was at huiling's house to change... and stuff... (and my clothes and shoes are still at her house) yeps... was running late and stuff... then hurry hurry hurry... her dress was nice... pink one... ohh... mine is black... angie jie's... hahah... jus took hers to wear... lalala... it fits nicely... ohh... gd to have a cousin jus 2 mths older!!! :) kk... then everyone wear nice nice de... felt kinda weird... haha... and then got fashion parade... nicer than the professional ones k... and got mambo dance competition... judges are mr clarence lim, mrs serene ng and our principal... hahaha... then mr gab tan is the mc... and he intro the judges... say they win wad dance competition ah... all fake one... hahah... and say mrs serene ng finished top 10 in dunno wad mambo competition... and there are only 10 contestants.......... so mean right??? yea... had fun... lotsa fun....... ohh and did i mention it was held in the skool hall??? but it was nice... :)

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..................................... so bored!!!!!!! i need entertainment!!!

2004-10-31T23:04:00.000+08:00

to all those taking O's this yr... Let's Jia You!!! Good Luck to all!!! God Bless u all too!!! :)

2004-10-24T17:14:00.001+08:00

oh wells... who shall i believe???

2004-10-18T11:57:00.000+08:00

there's so much happenings recently, i could not catch a breather... it was horrible... currently, i'm staying at home... cuz graduate le... i only spend 5 days in school in the last 2 weeks... means half the time i took leave la... didn't go on 5th... got mc... 8th got letter...
11-14 with letter...

prolly very little people knew wad happened... but my grandfather passed away... i thank god that i felt horrible on thurs, so i took leave on fri... to spend the last day ard... basically, i slept for a few hrs on fri afternoon... again, this was god's plan...

thurs: my cousin came... angie... she came to see ah gong... was busy b4 tt so she decided to come over... then we played badminton... was really fun... today... grandma, mum and 3rd uncle was very tired... every 10 mins, he will call out to them to say he wanna go to the toilet... and most of the time it is for nothing... so, they decided to avoid his room... but still, he will call out, demanding to go to the toilet...every trip, he will put all his weight on the person assisting him cuz' he got no energy...

fri: afternoon... doc came... ususally... if we feed him thru mouth, he will throw up, cuz' the food will go to his lungs... but on thurs nite... he was fed thru the tube (thru his nose tt led to the stomach) and he kept puking... we had to call in the doc... i was sleeping at that time the doc came... anyways... the doc said tt we have to stop feeding him... *sobs* tt means that he will go in a few days time... it was horrible... he was hungry... tt nite... fr peter came... to anoint him... he kept jerking... cuz' we couldn't feed him the hallucination pills, he kept seeing things... it must be horrible for him... esp when he is so soft-spoken and timid... he must be really afraid to see people like jesus, mary or even my greatgrand mother who had passed away in may last yr... cuz he sell toufu last time... the cancer affect the brain and some times he would even say... "i forgot to keep my toufu... go and collect it..." he also said"mary is at the door... hurry open to door..." or maybe "mum is here... hurry bring a chair over..."

due to god's plan, i slept on friday afternoon... as a result... i didn't sleep at all on friday nite... thru to saturday... i was present at his death... though i didn't witness it... grandma said he jerked very terribly 3 times... and off he went... sobs rang out... and soon, angie and family... and 3rd uncle... and grandma's sis's family came... in the middle of the nite when he died... at 4am... they rushed here by taxi...

sat morning... a lil tired... but went wif aunt to st annes morning mass... 2 aunts (grandma's nieces) angie, andrew, annemaria, adeline and me... off we go to offer mass for him... then macs breakfast... then back... slept at the 'multi purpose hall' where the wake was held... during the after noon... after cleaning the chairs(wif 3rd uncle and angie)... slept on 3 chairs... must have skills to do this... hahaha... when i woke up... i saw alvin sitting infront of me... got a shock... crapped a lil wif him in the midst of my still asleep soul... hahaha... jeremiah and grandma's brother... night duty!!! thanks...

sunday... had the 1st rounds of prayers... goodjob now that angie, elsie(8 yrs old) and annemaria(7 yrs old) are now well versed in the teochew hail mary... so kewl... but still more cries... relatives came... night came, went up stairs to sleep... angie had to hurriedly study for her last promo paper... chemistry... dunno who night duty too... seems like 4th uncle and 3rd uncle...

monday... didn't go skool... i think aunty evelyn and uncle andrew came... poor angie and andrew had exams... angie didn't wanted to go but bad teachers!!! so mean... auntie anne, nicolena's mother came... realise tt we are really relatives, as what nico had insisted but she didn't believe... now she noes... got some sfx aunties but i dunno who... oh well... night duty... angie... alvin, me, adeline, esther, jeremiah... plus 3rd uncle and 4th uncle and grandma's brother (who stayed every night)... the children played truth or dare... which eventually became only dare... got angie to eat grass... me and alvin ate leaves... but he stupidly bite the leave and some hot sap came out... got esther to cheekily throw peanuts at granduncle... and adeline to pinch our 4th uncle's cheeks... then played cheat... and the game got so boring... cuz' during one particular game, i finished my pile... and they kept accusing wrongly to take the pile... became so boring... i fell asleep in my windbreaker... and they pour water on me (as agreed upon to whoever that slept)... morning came... went upstairs... prolly 'sleptwalked' to sleep... jeremiah... rode his bike to skool... wa he so power... whole nite didn't sleep and still can go skool...

tuesday... woke up at 2 plus... those people who slept last nite replaced us... went down to help... told myself i must to give in to temptations to play with the kids and prayed beside the coffin... angie they all prayed wif my the 1st rosary... then they go play... half way thru the 2nd, i suddenly broke into tears... remembering jus a sunday ago when i was watching tv wif him... i will watch that show wif him every sunday... now he's gone... :( i began to remember how i would sit on the floor beside his bed or sit on the bed beside him... and thru the 3rd... i end wif 3 then went to the coffin to look at him... there, i couldn't take it... for the next hr... i cried and cried... remembering his presence... and i kept praying that tmr will not come!!! i dun wan tmr to come!!! more nite duty... lie at playgrd to watchstars...

weds: however much i dun wan this day to come, it came... cried so terribly... i dun wan to leave the coffin... dun wan them to close it... dun wan them to wheel it away... and as i walked after van... i dun wan tt journey to end... i dun wan to go church... dun wan to leave church... dun wan to set off... dun wan to reach mandai... was weeping the whole journey... and when i saw the words on the sign board 'mandai crematorium' i broke down again... each step i walked was a torture... each time is see the sign "hall 4 11.45am Hui Shoon Seng" how i wished the name was wrong... i wanted to run away... my heart was so painful... it was like its registered... no matter wad happened, it will go on... during the prayers at mandai... i hoped it will drag on and on... and that we don't have to move on to the next part... but it came... i really didn't want to move away from the coffin but there's this sfx aunty (mummy's fren) pulled me away... i couldn't stop the coffin from moving out of the room... i didn't want to be in this situation... again, seeing my grandfather's name at the entrance of viewing room 4 is not at all pleasing... i dreaded it... i do not want to ever see his name there... we screamed in agony... it was so painful to watch... i really felt a knife plunging into my heart the moment he was wheeled in... i kept screaming NO and I DON'T WANT!!! but it didn't stop... as i looked over... i could see elsie sticking to the glass panal, reaching out to the coffin tt's below, in an attempt to 'pull' it back... it was so painful... but soon it was over and i didn't feel anything else...

i'm so thankful for the scriptures mentioned, for fr stanley, tt aunty... these kept reminding me that he is in heaven... i need not cry... he need not suffer anymore...
to be cont'

2004-10-04T17:48:00.000+08:00

ok... have not updated for very long... was busy... plus not internet available... ohh... finally laid hands on my uncle's com... hahaha...

shall start on the recent stuff... k... staying at grandparents' place... goodness!!! my cousin is sooooo quiet... he's stuck in his room all the time... argh... sometimes, it is really so boring... but he plays badminton really well... we were shocked... hahaha... *thumbs up*...

hmm... have not recovered from my cough/sore throat that have been here since bout 2 weeks ago... never go see doctor... it worsen a lil to a bit of asthma-like stuff... breathlessness etc... have been taking medicine on and off... sometimes too lazy to take ma... but recently i have been a good gurl and take my medicine regularly k... hahaha...

and of cuz' prelims results are out... hee... not too bad... i am satisfied...
English --> 61% B4 (improved from my C6... hahaha...)
Chinese --> can't remember... B3 (still the same from o-lvl's)
E. Maths--> 85% A1
A. Maths--> 75% A1
Physics --> 76% A1 (phew...)
Chemistry --> 75% A1 (miracle!!!)
Geography--> 72% A2 (same as midyr)
SS/Hist--> 48% D7 (a lil disappointed... i tot i cud at least pass...)

L1R5 --> 10 (after minus-ing 2 CCA pts... 8)

though it qualifies for VJ (my dream)... i very scared i cannot get in cuz' there's lots of competition... and loads of my skoolmates wanna go to VJ too... boo... it have been kinda like a 'tradition' of cedarians to go to VJ... and there's this whole lot of triple science pupils... getting like 6 pts... somemore can minus 4 bonus pts... very scary... i hope that those 2 pts people wud go to HCJ or RJ ah... oh wells...

hmm... scared o levels will be very hard... besides that... my teachers keep repeating that in the o's they will moderate... then i got 3 borderline 75's... very scary leh!!! gosh...

wheee

2004-08-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

wheee... i passed my piano exam!!! :D surprise surprise... gosh... didn't expect...

the no. in the bracket is the passing mark...

Pieces :
A1: 23/30 (20)
B3: 25/30 (20)
C1: 25/30 (20)

Scales: 14/21 (14)

Sight-reading: 10/18 (12)

Aural: 10/21 (14)

Total: 107/150 (100) Pass

yes... i failed 2 sections... actually i expected single digit for sight-reading cuz i really sucked at it ah!!! though a lil disappointed for aural... but the score was fair... i was really blur during aural... and for scales... boo!!! i tot tt only octave apart and 3rd apart got staccato... but then chromatic and others also got... kinda got a bad shock there... and the examiner gave a long list of scales!!!

Congrats to my sis too!!! she got distinction for Grade 3... She got distinction for Grade 2 last yr too... Good Job... :D I'm so proud of her!!!
Congrats also to EYin, Augustus and Jocelyn...
Good job for Liselle and Elizabeth... dun worry... u can always try again... dun give up... luv ya all...

2004-08-17T18:20:00.000+08:00

lalala... i shall be fine!!! :D *sings*

2004-08-14T15:32:00.000+08:00

wahhh!!! cries... i dun wanna go for great-grand-ma's bdae dinner... then there will be this family whose son is 6mths younger than me... waiting for me to arrive to compare results... its sucha painful dinner... and i have to hear them go on and on bout his little achievements... boos... wad shit... can't i have a good dinner??? then they will compare and compare... stupid... lose me during p6 still finding ways to push me down... ahh... this time sure compare bout chinese results... boos... shivers... *gonna cry le* really very scared... still traumatised by the time when i'm in P6 then in sfx... and the mum came to me and i doing chinese revision... then i like to hold a pen and pencil in one hand... for convenience... and she said "aiyo... y hold your pens like that... how to do exam like this???" *sobs* ... i cannot forget this thinggi... boos.. and then keep comparing results... from P4 streaming compare to P6 PSLE... and then keep announcing his achievements of getting 2nd in class and all that shit... and bragging to his own grandma and my grandma... and my grandma will come to me and say "wa people's son got 2nd in class ah... u got anything not???" gosh... my best is only 4th lor... but how can i tell my grandma tt 2nd in bendeemer sec and 4th in cedar is lotsa difference??? then she day in day out also compare... ahhhhhhhh........ life is so painful... her voice keep ringing in my head "ah... my son..... "

*sobs* so wad if yours is a son in the dragon yr and i'm only a daughter??? ur son very big la... every single thing also wanna compare... pls give me a break...

*prepares to go for dinner now...* *shivers* *splitting headache* *sobs* haiz... but can i not go??? i have to!!!!!

2004-08-13T18:27:00.000+08:00

lalala... *bounce bounce* hahaha =)

chinese results...

2004-08-12T20:46:00.000+08:00

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where's my childhood??? have u seen it???

gosh... y am i asking this qn again??? boos... all becuz' i've gotten back my o-level's june chinese paper results... well... its a B3... and i'm gonna retake it in nov dis yr again... gosh... skool was havoc-ky... sobbies everywhere... even before they see their results... made my wanna join in their chorus of weeps... i had to force back my tears... didn't wanna cry... dun wanna let it spoil my mood man...

k... so, kewl fewling till i got home... told my mum my results... and she gave me that this-is-impossible look... like... [how did u get this results??? where's the A?] - look... boo... so sucky... not even a single/simple gesture tt suggest her appreciation for my effort... once again... "u think i marks-producing-machine ah?!?!?" gosh... all the while she keep thinking that i'm SUPPOSE to produce results... boo... think wad...

then i keep on thinking... and link link link... remember sometimes when my 3rd uncle will ask bout my skoolwork... and he'll go "hey... so how's ur exams??? haha... last time u get gd results still get scolded huh... poorthing..." and that reminded me when i was in kindergarten... then there's this scene of me standing in front of my parents... and they holding my test paper... flashed thru my mind... then they flip to every page that have a mistake... and go on questioning y i will have that mistake... that mistake was unnecessary... the only way this will not happen is when u get full-marks... cuz' there's no mistake to scrutinise at all!!! and its so impossible lor... i especially hate it when u do well and i have to strain my ears and most of the time... do not even hear a single well-done whisper...

pls la... i'm really not a marks-producing-machine lor... and am far from perfect... gosh... stop dreaming and give me back my happiness... where is it???

goodness... and i tot my mum had change to some understanding person... i'm so wrong... she's still that... [i say, u do, no questions asked] person... foreva so controlling... and we can never question her actions... cuz' its counted as rude and disrespect... boos... its so stressful to live in this kind of place... boos... gosh... sharing this wif some grannies will gain their nods man... they'll be like... "this is so familiar..."

there is no communication barrier... there's no communication at all... and i'm not at "good at everything" robot u've just picked up somewhere...

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ahhhhh nooooo

2004-08-02T16:13:00.000+08:00

lalala...

signs that tell u i'm on my way home from my gran's house (at punggol) :
first... most likely it will be on a weekend night...
secondly... i am wearing sports shoes w/o socks...
thirdly... i have a bulgy pocket... only 1... (u noe wads inside...)
fourthly... i have my long pants folded up to knee length...
fifthly... i jus look like i've jus went past a heavily flooded area...

tt's me back from my gran's place...

and... today is fun!!! had hmm... emaths... mr khoo... going for reservice le... then brought in a new teacher... his name... is... Mr Alvin Lim... not joking... i nearly laughed to death hearing tt name... so, the moment mr khoo and his 'fren' walked in... we groaned and moaned and screamed... NOOOOO..... then tt guy... stood behind the class... got the big plastic sofa thinggi... he dun sit... boo... then he looked kinda gay... and got this shirt too small for him... yep... and he sat on the teacher's chair tt mr khoo passed to him... (prolly afraid we will apply glue on that harmless looking blue plastic sofa chair...) and my frens were like... tt's mdm lum's fav chair... cuz she come in then will sink her self into tt chair... and we were laughing and laughing non stop... including me... my partner say i laugh till my ears were red... but at tt moment... i find every thing funny... even when my 2 partners say that st pats joke for like the 5 th time... boo... jus can't stop laughing... then when mr khoo finally say tt mr lim gonna relief us, we were like laughing some more... and i was like saying kinda loudly "hahah... good luck to him man... we will give him hell..." then mr khoo say tt the last 15 mins is Q&A... but can only ask 3 qn...
so, 1st qn... which skool are u from... hesistate for a while then... maris stella... and we screamed..... AHHHHH..... NOOOOO..... then 2nd qn... how old are u... and we never wait for him to reply then say...traditional qn... do u have a girlfriend? he hesistate longer... and mr khoo blurted out..."ahh... i also want to know..." so, mr lim trying to siam the qn and say... "when the bell goes, i will run..." and to our surprise... mr khoo say "dun worry... i will block the door..." ... then... more bursts of laughter... in the end... the ans is 26... yes... then we all teach him the way to propose wif laksa... and mr khoo was like... kk... mr lim... lets hury up go...

to recap on the laksa proposal way:
the laksa way is mr khoo's way... one day... mr khoo wif his girl friend and he decided to propose to her over laksa... he said... "this laksa very nice hor... u want to eat laksa wif me forever?" ...

hee hee... oh ya... and we change PE teacher le... its no longer mr goh!!! AHHAHHH... NOOOOOO.... groans... moans..... its some new guy... mr chin... came in same time as mr lim one... ahhhhh... last time new teachers dun teach sec 4's... wad happen??? now got 2... ahhhhhhh...........

ohh ya... the st pats joke... its from this radio la... then got daily joke one... the tt guy call himself st pat... so... ya... st pat's joke...

one day... dis guy at a pub... he's dead drunk... and the bartender wanna close the pub le... so he carried the guy to the door... the guy tried to stand up but plop face down on the floor... he tried a few times and still plop on the ground faced down... mumbled a few stuff and he CRAWLed home... all the way... he reach the door step... and decided to try again... so... he stood... and plop faced down... again... he decided to crawl into the house and into his room... and at the bed... he decided to try jus one last time... he stood up but plop on the bed... so drunk, he jus fell asleep... the next morning... he woke up and saw the wife standing in front of him... she screamed "u huh u... go out and drink until like that huh... how dare u..." the guy act innocent and say "huh... wad makes u think i went out to drink?" still angry, the wife screamed back "the bartender jus called and said that u left ur wheelchair at the pub again!!!"

2004-07-23T21:07:00.000+08:00

oh well... went to Flora's award nite!!! waz fun... we hold BIG banners then flora so paiseh... but we really think tt Flora is gd man!!! cool... then ended later than expected... then at 10pm... my dad called me and was shouting over the phone for like 10 mins plus.. and i couldn't hear wad he say!!! oh well... then he decided no to fetch me home... cuz' he got work... (how i noe he got work ah!!! keep shouting into the phone) then when i reach home... mum kept nagging and scolding... and scolding went out of point (as usual)... link until a totally irrelevant topic... ahhhhh!!! oh well... then she say wad dun allow me go out wif my fren to study... cuz i always go out... but pple always say that u have to proof to ur parents that u are disciplined enough then they will let u go out wad... i got proof to them liao lor... my results not bad wad... but they still dun understand!!! hmmm... nvm!!!

oh ya... and tmr got music grp lesson from 1 to 4... might be taking back results already... really scared and freaked out... cuz my music is not very gd man!!! then the aural i kinda crapped a lot!!! okok... hope everything will be fine!!! hope everyone passes!!! *prays*

hmm... a maths is making me crazy!!! relative velocity : moving object... is very very hard... very confusing too!!! arghhhh!!! mdm lum also stressed... she keep saying "i dunno how to teach u all ah"

racial harmony day is kewl... hot fav dis yr is sari... kewl stuff... shall see when i finish the film then can go develope the pics le... can't wait... hahaha... and ber and da and fen wenta take pic with mr goh and mr tan... never tell me!!! wahahaha... but i believe the pic will be totally funny... cuz i heard the 3 of them cramped in the middle... then the both teachers stand at the side... like 2 pillars... one left one right!!! so funny!!!

yes... the weekend will be tiring ah!!! :'( got lotsa hw!!!

2004-07-16T16:47:00.000+08:00

cool week i've had... :D was at home enjoying myself everyday... (hoped to study but didn't... tt's bad) indulged into playing piano... hahaha... wasn't tt hard working during my exam period man... i think its only after exam that i lurve playing the piano... hee hee... :D yea... skools... as usual... BORING ... but never mind... :D and did i tok bout skittles b4?

k... skool have this green plant thinggi... la... so, must bring 5 potted plants... so, i got so excited, i went to buy a cute little cactus... not exactly a potted plant... but i jus bring for fun la... :D called it starskie (ber's idea) at first... but weifen say to hard to read and she will NEVER tok to it!!! so, had to made it simpler... then called it skittles... but starskie is cute la... so, in the end got 2 names... starskie skittles is a long cactus wif a red ballie thinggi on top... (wanted to get the pink one but fen, ber and me thought its to artificial...) ya... then today, while trying to bring wengyin's brad, ber's jack, ada's sticko and my starskie skittles back into the class room after their share of sunlight, i accidentally dropped sticko and skittles... ooh... then felt so sad... lotsa soil on the ground... but both of them are ok... ended up apologising to da lotsa time then she keep saying nevermind... and end up toking to skittles during physics... ber tot i waz mad!!! ok... ber tok to jack also wad... yea... then, after me, the 3 gurls 2 rows behind me and shiying bought each a cactus too!!! kewl kewl... now so fun!!!

also, found out 2 days ago tt flora is joining the MS TEEN COMMUNITY SERVICE awards... so kewl... FLORA!!! I GOT FAITH IN U... yeps... then its at 21-7-04 at 7.30pm at SP... cool... lummy and me going... can't wait!!! flora is on newspaper... check it out!!! tt's bout it!!!

oh yes... and today got this representative from UNIFEM... kewl stuff... bout protecting women all round the world... its some UN thinggi... then got this Singapore branch... and some volunteer work stuff... like so interesting!!! and lummy and weifen say i can join cuz' i very anti-guys... i got anti-guys meh... dun have wad!!! yea...

here's some kewl facts.....
women perform 2/3 of the world's work...
women earn 1/10 of the world's pay
women own less than 1/100 of the world's land
70% of the owners of small business are women
women and children make up 80% of the world's refugees
1/3 of all families have abusive cases (women being abused)

guys..... shooo...

gd day everyone!!!
(wow... jus wasn't checking for bout a week and a got 9 more huggies... kewl... *wonder who its from*) :D happie day!!! :D

prays hard

2004-07-05T14:08:00.000+08:00

k... i noe i haven't been blogging for quite long le... hahaha... oops... and yes, last monday is PE day... and not to forget tt tml is also PE day... woohoo... excited still, though he made us run 3 rounds for warmup... (last time mr chan made us run 1 round only... at most 2 la...) and tml got yau's lesson... didn't bring my tys home... so, dunno how i gonna do my series 6... hope he not too strict tml... ooh!!! mr yau is scary!!! *trembles* yea... and this is post is gonna be messy...

now, jump to sat (3/7/04)... *boink* k... had chinese listening comprehension... the music we had to endure for 1/2 hr b4 9am is beautiful... and so nice and gentle it'll make u fall asleep!!! ahhhhh... and the qns are like not easy too la...got similar options... i ticum lots of 'em!!! them huiling and i wenta kovan macs... so crowded... wenta kfc instead... sat there for quite long like... 3-4 hrs... then the cleaner eyeing on us our tray... then buy goodies for fen, da and ber and their gang!!! went back to skool super early... like 2pm... camefire supposed to be at 7 i think... then ber they all so busy, they never eat our goodies... but i suppose they'll eat them at night la... yea??? lalala... campfire was cool... SEC 4 GUIDES ROX!!! they're jus so kewl!!! yea? wonderful dance... best one in the whole night... and i'm hereby questioning the bad prize presentation... how cud the best item award go to tt skool??? i dislike them the most lor... (shhhhh...) at least shld give ourself!!! but thats not nice... ooh... i think the st gabs one is so much better than tt on that won!!! sheesh...and i tot tt the skool beside me shld win the best continengent(wadeva the spelling was)... and i tot tt team on the left wif tt short guy shld win the dancing thing!!! complains complains complains!!! hahaha... overall it was AWESOME...

now, lets jump some more... *boink* thurs (1/7/04) had oral... ended kinda earlier than i expected... topics quite ok... but i freaked out tt its so fast!!! i haven tok enough, waiting for another qn (promting) then the lady jump to the next section le... i was so shocked lor... yea... but my teacher later say tt its suppose to be short... so, feeling a lil wee better!!!

sunday... CLARENCE didn come!!! CHERYL also... guess i'm impressed wif my self tt i didn shout at him over the phone... he's prolly holding the phone far away, waiting for me to scream into his ear (thru the phone) but i didn... didn even scold him... i was toking softly... last time, i wud have 'killed' him... hehehe... i'm nicer!!! then at mass, the 3 naughty boys(P6) disappeared from their class... so, juliana and i went to search for them... found them right at the back of the church... fuming le... but i control lor... dunno y today i so nice...(God's at work... extra hard) i didn drag them back to their seats... jul and i jus sat wif them la... we brought 3 hymn books and found out, as we have expected tt the boy didn't even take any book!!! thru-out the whole mass... i jus softly told them to sing and be serious... but they were defiant la... so, i wanted to separate them la... then was trying to pull kelvin(he's actually the most meek one lor)away then he he said "want to fight is it?" then i was very angry lor...so, after the church, i kept them back and lectured them la... i've changed my way of lecturing them... this time, i didn shout at them la... but jus try to explain the mass stuff to them... keep asking them to reflect on their actions and how they can improve themselves... ask them wad they think they are doing... keep telling them tt church is not their playground... and i have the right to keep them back... stop trying to test my patience!!! and see if they understand mass and the eucharist la... kept them for 20mins... wif other frens there... total of 3 of us and my sis... means 4 la... then jonas keep saying... faster go... ur sister getting impatient already... that was when i raised my voice a little and shouted at jonas "stop trying to change the subject...i have a lot of time today..." and the boys lie bout their teacher letting them sit their la...

after that, spoke to kelvin's parents who were waiting for him... his dad was quite impatient... and was quite angry la... say tt i should speak to the son infront of him la... yep... then tok to the mum... its the 2nd time le... so, she understand me more... tt's good... felt better... then saw gabriel... he say one of the boy's father went to him shouting, very agitated tt his son tell him there's this gal tt stopped him from receiveing holy communion... that's totally untrue cuz' i was behind the 3 of them during holy communion... oh well, the worse thing is not tt he believe his son... but is tt he believed to sucha extent he was shouted at cathechists and even threaten to go all out to make things worse for us... he's actually quite famous in nativity... cuz' he is very unreasonable... and people all dun wanna like offend him la... ya... so, he shouted tt he wanted to see that gurl... (i suppose its me...) i'm not too frighten... i felt strong... but i noe tt i'll be in danger lor... i was having discussion wif aunty mary (pri cat. coordinator), uncle michael (the form teacher) and gab bout it...
they say they'll be on my side... they very scared he'll come and beat me up la... they expected it!!! cuz they noe his personality la... oh ya... and he's a divorced la... so, havin probs at home... tt's way behaving weirdly...oh well, they all very scared for me la... but surprisingly, i'm not afraid at all... this unknown strength in me, supporting me... maybe is cuz' i haven't seen him yet... but i believe all'll be alrite...

all this incidents made me think bout mr raymond... my sec 2 cat teacher... some of u may know... he quitted after my batch got comfirmed... cuz my class got this boy very unreasonable... last time slam the table in front of my sec 1 teacher... but, mr raymond have failed to bring him back... though he did come to be confirmed, he shouldn't have been confirmed at all la... for the whole yr, we've only seen him for like 3 lessons... i didn even realise he existed... the father was very unreasonable... they were uncontactable... and the father turned up for the meet the parents session, holding a camp form in his hand... scolding mr raymond y he never inform them about the camp... saying that mr raymond is not fit to be a teacher... tt moment he told us tt incident (during the camp) i wept for him... for being misunderstand... and being labelled as incompetent... we all keep telling him to ignore tt guy's words... but he still quitted in the end... *sobs* it was very sad... why can't they appreciate us??? hey... we are UNPAID... though its a once-a-week job... we tried our very best to bring the kids to the right path??? if u urself is so good, do it urself... stop trying to think tt we are there to do wadeva u want us to do... and as far as i noe, its those tho put in the extra effort to discipline them for their future, gets misunderstood by the parents, gets scolded by the parents, gets labelled unreasonably, and gets questioned in our ability...

[those who are concern... eg: gab, bernard, clarence, chriselda, juliana, mary, michael]i know i have to jus let those 3 kids go their own way and hopefully they'll be enlighten themselves... but i am jus tt stubbon to let go... i care for their future... parents are never my obstacle... and i hope that that child's father may understand our job more... jus as how kelvin's mum understanded me... she made me feel confident tt parents will help!!! i jus dun wish to see them fooling ard every mass... wasting their time... P6 already... and not even understanding what Jesus did for us... i dun wan to even noe that when they are in sec 1, next yr, they are not even coming for mass at all!!! and they'll prolly be disconnected from above... i dun want them to live their lives (for the moment, in skool) thinking that fighting is everything to them... not God...
Michael keep telling me that 1% is from us... 99% from God... but even i'll question my self... "have i done my 1% to my very best..." u all keep telling me that this is beyond my reach and that i've done my best... but i dun think so... EVERYTHING has a room for improvement... I believe that no matter how well i do something... how much effort i put in... how i think that this is my best, it probably is NOT... to me, nothing is the best...we jus go on improving...

Dear Lord, i keep them in my prayers frequently, pls ans them quickly... dun take too long... Amen...

everyone reading this, pls pray for them... thankew...

top news!!!

2004-06-23T14:28:00.000+08:00

reaching school reopen liao... wah... hw still not yet finished... didn't revise anything!!! tt's bad of me!!! :( oh well... but got info from huiling tt mr goh is going to teach PE... whoa... and guess wad... he's taking 4i!!! kewl huh... got new PE teacher le... *screams* :) hope the info is true man... looking forward to PE day.....

:)

2004-05-29T07:32:00.000+08:00

lalalalala

L1R5 13???

2004-05-28T22:38:00.000+08:00

today's blog is long and boring... if u decided to read on, please scroll straight down and read the last line first... if u dun read on, u're NOT missing out on anything impt so, its perfectly ok...

today sucks... though not totally... but still... it just spoilt my whole day... yucks... returning home sucks especially... reporting to my mum my mid yr results is the BIGGEST error i've made... i say again... BIGGEST!!! oh well...

infer from the top and i kinda tot it sounds like i've gotten like last 40 in the whole cohort of 375 pupils and my mum've jus been "invited" to meet the teachers and stuff... how i hope so... then, i wouldn't care a single bit bout her attitude... sad sad... its the opposite... stupid attitude... and to think teachers keep saying pupils always got attitude problem... wait till they see my mum!!! stupid attitude... she doesn't care a single bit bout my studies... that is, if they are quite ok... when u suck at it, she'll go on and on bout it!!! ok i admit, she's jus being concern... but can u believe??? she doesn't care bout ur gd results? she doesn't even look like she's even happy... to her, i've always been a marks producing machine... its like...

having a cd player, when it goes hay-wire, u get all pissed off scream, shout at that stupid cd player... and when it plays the song beautifully, u dun go to it and give it a pat and say "good job, nice music today" right??? that's crazy...

well, i'm like tt cd player... and she'd probably tot tt it was crazy to say something nice to me or something!!! i dunno... getting back my report bk was kinda the funnest thing ever... and to think i got all excited and tell my mum the results... and was in high spirits to yakked non-stop bout my day in skool... and all's joyous...

but suddenly, i realise that attitude of hers and it turned me off... can't believe it but the chatty me jus shutupped...

for a moment, i tot that mark doesn't matter a single bit to me... i dun care a heck bout 13 points... i dun care a heck of being 4th... hu want's to change (marks) wif me, take it!!! i dun care... it doesn't matter anyway...

then, i remembered tt my mum keep saying "study for urself only"... yes... i totally agree wif it... but tt made me more pissed off... so, i want to noe, wads my parents for??? other then giving me my allowance... i thought as i showered and cried in the bathroom... and the answer seemed to be... nothing else... i thought "it can't be right?" and i thought hard... wanting to find something great... and i remembered the most recent game of monopoly my sis and i whinned to have... it was totally fun... everyone's laughing... so happy... now, tt was a great one... but... as sad as it seemed, the last last time we played like tt was like a few yrs ago... a few yrs once???

i began to think... if my life was.........
i lived in a home... and my parents visit me a few times a yr or something... (i'm not even saying a few times a month!!!)i'll still get allowance though... (from the home)... my life would probably be similar... so does tt mean my life is roughly like tt now? i think so... or perhaps, for the time being, i think so...

mum jus came in... and asked y i cried... she tot its becuz i felt guilty for being angry towards my dad... (well, we went out for dinner and i missed my tv show cuz my dad took so long to come)... i said no... i didn't want to explain myself... not even explain tt i'm actually not angry wif dad at all... its jus tt i'm pissed off wif her and i dun wanna tok to anyone... oh well...

life sucks so much... *sobs*

those who think tt life is wonderful trying to break gd news to ur parents, dun ever let this entry change ur opinion...

hey everyone... DUN pass pass pass pass pass until my mum's ears huh... by doing tt, u might as well kill me now...

maddie asked for it!!!

2004-05-20T15:17:00.000+08:00

okie... so, very long never blog liao... and maddie's complaining... aiyo ah... nothing to say leh... freaked out for chinese o's... ahhhhh!!! yea... but soon... very soon, it'll be over yea... *lookng forward to it!!!* yeps... so, had some talks today too... not bad... she's kinda interesting... got my attention there man... yeps... so, had recess during mr tan's chem lesson... kinda bad but no choice... hungry leh... ya... then return to class during physics period... went thru the paper... and mr goh say... got this sec 3 scholar from other country... then got one qn, she write an essay in the qn... saying tt she didn't understand some words in the qn... and say thank you for your cooperation... wahaha... so, everyone thought tt mr goh was the one who set the paper but it wasn't him... he's only marking... anywas=ys, he wrote something like "gai si de mr goh" hahaha... so cute right... hee hee...

yea... then during e maths, mr khoo came in and gave almost all of us 1 mark!!! for midyr paper!!! cuz they mark wrongly!!! wahaha... so fun... so happy... and mdm lum's a maths lesson was boring!!! cuz binomial theorem is so complicated!!! yeps... tt's my day!!!

aft exams!!!

2004-05-14T15:48:00.000+08:00

yay~!!! exams over!!! yes... i noe this post is kinda late... yes... i'm pissed off tt the angelfire thinggi is crazy... make me so sad!!! make my blog so ugly!!! yeps... but nvm!!!

so, tuesday was my last paper... went round gloating to pple bout what i have and they dun have!!! FREEDOM!!! yes... but now, i guess, many of them also done liao... hope everyone do well... and yes, as usual, my skool siao one... wanted to kill us with those papers... lurve mrs ong... she's lenient and the paper is not very hard... yeps... so, hahaha...

weds... teachers says... history is a gonecase... everyone except sharon got scolded by ms lizah for doing badly in english... hear that 4P (our rival... cuz they take exactly the same subjects as us and win us in most subjects... usually they 4th class, we 5th...) got a msg(average point in the whole class... eg:A1 is 1 point...) of 9... which is everyone got F9... and my class's msg is like more than 8 but less than 9... better than them, but all suck... yes...

still on weds, got this career tok... and bout some choosing jobs and went thru interview skills and resume writing skills... fun!!! that guy was so interesting and he got my attention... but after recess, got the same etiquette(read it as: air ticket) thinggi... repeated much stuff... and the lady speaks like ms wong... the block nose feel... and when i hear it, my lungs blocked... got breathing difficulty... ya... and tt makes the whole lesson more yucky... and yes, we got back the same notes!!! wah!!! lame... so, in the feedback form,

The speaker was clear...
SA A D SD

The duration was jus right...
SA A D SD

I am able to apply what i have learnt...
SA A D SD

I would recommend this session to the juniors...
SA A D SD (hahaha... got pple put SA!!!)

3 things I have learnt:
Social Grace
Poise and Deportment
Skin Care
(wahaha... these are the headings in the notes...)

Comments/Suggestions for improvement:
This lesson have been conducted last year and this is a repetition. Therefore, i do not see the need for this session. I has been a waste of time... (hee...)

okok... enough boring stuff... then, thurs got some boring lessons... did nothing for chinese... and hist... and chem... went thru ans for MCQ for geog... not bad...

friday... today... was taking back 3 papers... hee hee... big grin... can't stop smiling... eng(C6) v. happy cuz i didn't fail!!! chinese v.v.happy cuz i didn't fail my compo and overall was 72 (A2)... A maths v.v.v.happy cuz i guess was lucky and stuff... and got A1... but many peeps ard me also got A1 wad... eg: peilien, weiting, huiling!!!kk... ok yes... i noe, i suck in eng!!!

2004-04-30T21:05:00.000+08:00

why is he so cute? *repeat*

2004-04-20T20:30:00.000+08:00

wenta concert at the esplanade... kewl... piano concerto No 2 by Johannes Brahms... and two more pieces by Mozart and Wagner... nice pieces... left at like 10.30pm...

next day, during eng, ms lizah wanna us write a personal account and we toked her into letting us do grp work... so we began discussing bout our weekend... to see wad we can write on... lalala... told them i was at the esplanade... then weifen (fennie) was like... "i was also there!!!" found out tt she was there from 6 plus to 11 plus... and i'm there at 6 plus to 10 plus... means, i could have seen her!!! most imptly, she said tt she was at the marshmellow looking blue stuff there at the entrance... i was there at 10 plus waiting for my dad!!! wa... so close yet so far... so, decided to write bout attending concerts... and wanna laugh at huiling la... but in the end, i scared huiling angry, so i evened out the humiliation in the essay... the essay goes.....

Name: Geraldine
Huiling
Weifen

Personal Recount

The night was cool. The three of us were standing by the river at the Esplanade. The cool breeze was blowing towards us and we were waiting anxiously for the piano concert, as it was our first experience.
As we stepped into the concert hall, dressed in casual clothing, we felt inferior to the gracious ladies in their long, elegant gowns. With the compliment of the shiny diamond necklaces and the well-styled hair, they simply look stunning. We felt out of place.
The concert was about to begin, however we were still not in our seats. Rushing towards our seat, Lum set foot on a lady’s train of her beautiful gown and the graceful lady tripped over her 5-inched high heeled shoes. Lum laughed till she could stand no more and rolled onto the floor. Unaware of the embarrassment, and of the numerous stares, she continued pointing and screaming till we had to drag her out to calm her down!
We soon re-enter the concert hall and was seated just in time for the concert. According to the program, the first piece is Symphony No. 36 in C major by Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart. The piece was melodious and slow in the first movement. It ended as beautifully as it had started. Suddenly, to our astonishment, Fen stood up, applauded and even cheered. Stares shot towards us and we hurriedly buried our heads under a pile of sweaters.
After the interval, we settle back in to our seats for yet another great composition. Piano Concerto No. 2 in B-flat major is one of Johannes Brahms’ longest composition, lasting 44 minutes. Entering into the third movement with an exquisite melody, it was suddenly accompanied by a loud mass of low notes, that did not sound like the French horn and was totally out of place. Fen and Lum hurriedly looked around and found Gerry snoring in deep sleep. We woke her up immediately and stayed till the end to get our thirteen dollars worth. Then, we left like a gust of wind.
Each returning to our own homes, we could not forget the ‘eventful’ day we had.

All characters in this story are fiction. Any resemblance of any character living or dead is truly coincidental.

~R@iNbOw wOrLd~

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