today is fri... cny's coming... had company lunch buffet today... cool stuff... eat till bao2bao3 de! =) then afterwork as usual, uncle andrew so nice to fetch me =) haha... [but he keep suanning me!] then during "ministering" friday, my mass orders are like all over the place... wrong chords and all... I'm sorry dear daddy in heaven, i noe not what i'm doing... happy chinese new yr everyone =) its a funfun weekend coming up... and loads of luck for all the angbao collection! and tc, nt to fall sick... =)





sometimes i jus think tt i talk too much... so for the people ard me who are constantly feeling irritated and suffering from severe hearing problems as a result of my excessive noise, i'm sorry... i will try to cut down, and i'm serious =)





i'm confused... it started with...
(1) gosh gosh gosh~ so many things happened today! jus cant wait to tell you...
(2) so i asked if u wanna talk; u said u were going out
(mistake number 1) i said i'm on my way home and tired (shldnt haf said tt cuz i'm actually prompting u to call... my mistake)
(3) u called and i went on and on and on... non stop... occassionally asking about ur day... you spoke little
(mistake number 2) i took it forgranted and continued ranting about my day...
(4) i sensed the lack of interest (in you, towards my talk)
(5) the more i talked, the worse i felt...
(6) is it necessary to tell u all these things? to sucha busy and tired person... who's not interested?
(7) probably not...
(8) and where are we heading? with this lack of communication and understanding?
(9) there, this URGENT call sent by God above...
(10) and most imptly, u said talk ltr...
(11) alright... it'll be good, so both you and I wont be suffering... U dun haf to hear me talk crap... and I dun have to feel the pain of making u listen to my crap...
(mistake number 3) i hung up rudely (my mistake)
(12) u messaged quite quickly...
(mistake number 4) but all i thought was " if i didnt hang up like this, this message will probably be coming only 2 hrs ltr... after u've done everything else."
(13) I wanted to reply " so what? no comments" but i didnt want to... I composed a normal reply... hoping tt u'll jus let me die peacefully...
(14) and all i got was well, u're actually VERY unhappy that i'm upset over little things... and i couldnt die in peace...
(15) i feel like the biggest fool on planet earth staring at my phone, waiting for replies...
(16) i dunno why i ever did the things i do for u...
(17) i told myself never to talk excessively anymore...
(18) i'm sorry for being upset... but i was upset wif myself... nt exactly u...

no matter what, i jus feel that....... i'd prolly need attention... and if u're unable to provide... then... i dunno... u're so busy with everything else anyway... nights