okok... its 3am and i know i'm supposed to slp =P
was packing for camp [NUS Community Service Club Camp :: 3-7july07] tmr... well... i'm jus born with the last-minute disease... tralala! then then... hard time packing...
had a mini argument with my mum... =( well, she's jus... argh!!! totally horrible! she said that its useless praying for my dad and she won't! wth? how can she be like this? she doesn't trust that daddyGod can change my dad! she going on and on abt how my dad thinks that its gd enuff to attend sunday mass... but hey mum... i'm realli sorry to say it so bluntly to you... but realli, serving in csc doesnt give u the right to condemn him... so, stop it...
i believe my dear daddy in Heaven will do something... both to dad and to mum... to bring dad closer to him... and to MELT mummy's heart... =( she's jus carrying too much hatred in her... and she's hurting me with those stupid things!!!
anyway, it started with dad telling me tt after he has learnt some great cullinary skills, he'll prolly consider service in the kitchen ministry... and boy! i was like so pleasantly pleased!!! my heart jus went "AMEN! Praise the Lord... daddyGod... how did you do this? its amazing... to let something like this come out of daddy's mouth!"
but when i told mum... she was DAMN displeased... say that dad dun like to be ruled by others, he wants to go there and take over everything...
but WHY mummy... why must you think of this? yes... dad is unhappy abt all the INDIAN CHIEFs there... but i truly Praise and Thank God for such a thought (to join the kitchen ministry) in daddy's mind... i jus don't see why mummy has to be so sacarstic and mean and narrow minded and discouraging?
cant she be supportive... [nt jus to this, but to many other things as well]
she say she dun wanna go to conv retreat with dad cuz she say he fell aslp in the talk... but i'm sorry to put it so bluntly to you and i still maintain my stand, that the talk is not the most impt thing... it is the EXPERIENCE with the Holy Spirit... and it is during these retreats where the Holy Spirit is most present!
on the other hand, i realli thank my dear daddy in heaven for mummy... i guess i can be quite rude and critic when putting my point across... but i'm realli thankful that she loves God somewhat and is trying hard to serve Him...
in anycase, i've accepted the offer from Temasek Hall... so its bye bye to this home for the weekdays... thanks daddyGod... i guess this is the opportunity given by you... you know how much i need to jus get away for a while... i need my little time out... though i might be away for all the weekdays for 3-4 yrs... (and minusing the hols)... but i believe... this might actually help make everything better...
and... my plan for now is to pray for daddy and mummy harder!!!
i think it should go like this... first, daddy go for conv retreat... and he changed loads!!!
then it should trigger some trust for God in mummy's heart... and she will go for conv too!!!
of cuz, it will happen as God will and IN HIS TIME! =)
daddyGod... ur little darling girl is waiting realli patiently... do take your time, but hurry a little if you can... to MELT mummy's heart... and also to encourage daddy to serve you! =) i pray, realli sincerely! AMEN =)