i typed a whole loads of things and they're gone... =( its not making me feel any better...
anyway, went shopping with Yi Ling yest, i missed the shuttle bus, spent abt $50 at parkway... which mum's not pleased but I DUN CARE.... tell u y ltr...
mum say dun go boat quay to eat at night [nt even if its at like 9pm onli...]
so i didnt, brought the dinner forward and tuition backward... in the end, dinner at 5? who does that man? except me? so dumb, of cuz we couldnt eat la! only drank something and had pizza... which was good... and as Yi Ling says, the name of the drinks are damn suggestive la!
so, i had dinner at home lor.. and sis called home to say she going eat macs at rivervale mall at 11pm!!! and mum jus say a few words and let her? wth? i spoilt my own dinner cuz she say dun eat at boat quay at 9 and she actually let sis do that? not the first time... and it definitely doesn justify all the things i've done and sacrificed!!! and that sis! she doesnt know how good her life has been can? getting everything i had when she's 4 yrs younger? eg:HP at Pri3? i only had mine at sec1... and tt's cuz i got gold for maths olympiad... otherwise, i wun even have one! and she had it when i had it? and atm card? sounds so STUPID! but i havent had mine yet! cuz mum dun allow... and the places she went to ... i've NEVER been there b4... eg:snowcity...life is so FAIR... with her coming to me and telling me how sad her life is... telling me how mummy doesnt let her go out!!! come on man... tell me more... if mummy's behaviour is the first slap, this shall be the second one!!! i shall take it bravely! and she didnt go for catechism class again!!!
so i realized that the person that's pulling me away from God is my very own mother!!! with her very own hatred in her heart, venting all the shit on me... and showing "IMPARTIALISM"! clever!!! how can i ever look at her and smile and speak properly?
[dear Daddy in Heaven... u know me through and through... you know that i realli dun wanna let this thing separate us! its realli so hard trying to be a good daughter of yours... but i know daddy, you will give me strength! thank you Lord! thank you for loving me and always putting peace in my heart... thank you for letting me know the impt of peace... cuz i know that without ur Holy Spirit in my heart, i will definitely have became a rebellious kid and ran outta this house... thank you dear Lord for all the trials that come my way... cuz i know, i can ONLY RELY on you! I love you Lord! AMEN~]